~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[jen1604]

Thank you

Thats exactly it,I worry what other people are thinking and if they notice I'm panicking.
Also I worry that I don't know how many calories there are and whats gone into the food.

How are you doing at the moment GroovyChick?xxxx

 

[Groovychick]

Hi Jen. You can actually call me Sarah if you wish! Unfortunately I am not doing so well at the moment. My bulimia seems to have taken a turn for the worse. Having just finished my third year at university it appears to be the lack of routine that is presenting the problem. I have tried to find a summer job to help with this, but to no avail. In addition, TTC is wearing my patience thin. My OH doesn't seem to understand this and can be quite hurtful (not intentional, just not thinking).

Sorry for the rant!

 

[jen1604]

No worries,if a rant helps honey,then I'm always happy to read it!

How long have you guys been TTC for now?Is your OH much of a support about your bulimia normally or not really?xxx

 

[Groovychick]

This is actually only our first month TTC so I shouldn't complain too much, but I am sure you can understand the frustration! My OH can be supportive, but doesn't always feel like it. He feels that by supporting me he is reinforcing my bad behaviour.

 

[jen1604]

Sorry Sarah I havent been on for a few days

I can definitely understand the frustration/worry of TTC,hoping it happens for you guys very very soon.

Well I have had a good few days of managing not to panic *too* much which is a little mini milestone for me after the few weeks I've had x

 

[Groovychick]

Well done Jen! I hope you don't mind me asking, but do you suffer from AN, BN or EDNOS?

 

[Pixxie]

Hey guys do you mind if I join in? I'm recovering anorexic and looking for a bit of support I only started recovery so we could TTC and to be honest Im finding being pregnant a bit harder than I imagined I would xxx

 

[jen1604]

Hey Pixxie
you're more than welcome to join us

I had anorexia from when I was 13.Then switched to bulimia.Now I just do a bit of everything and mix it up a bit,lol xxx

 

[Pixxie]

How did you guys cope with putting weight on in pregnancy? Im coming up to my 'high weight' that triggered my ED and seeing it on the scales is making me panic a bit, especially knowing Im going to hit it and then carry on gaining. The one thing I have been controlling for so long is now out of my control, I thought It would be alright because it my baby and not me just gaining for no reason but whenever I weigh myself I cant help thinking 'wow, fat bitch'

I hear stories of how some women only gain 12lb through the whole pregnancy but I know that wont be me, this is the only time I ever remember having an appetite, Im constantly hungry, probably because I deprived myself for so long. Ive already gained 3kg, I know its all baby since no where except my belly has got bigger but I worked SO HARD for my flat belly and now it looks so horribly fat I find myself sometimes wishing I wasnt pregnant, which makes me feel awful as I very much wanted this baby and tried for 13 months for it!

I know I can diet after Ive had the baby, and it gives me some comfort, but since Im planning to breast feed I wont be able to diet the way I want to, the way Im used to.

Sorry I dont even really know what Im talking about now, just ranting because I cant talk to anyone about this stuff, thanks for reading if you made it to the end xxx

 

[jen1604]

Pixxie--HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGE hugs

The main thing to focus on is your beautiful little baby and how you WILL be able to lose the weight afterwards hon.You will.
How do you think you would manage not weighing yourself?Is that an option for you?Or limiting how much you weigh yourself?
Also,on here and on other websites I have seen a breakdown of where the weight goes,I'll look for a link for you and maybe if you see how much weight your body actually uses while you are pregnant that might reassure you a bit?

xxxxxxx

 

[jen1604]

I found this for you Pixx--
Approximate breakdown of pregnancy weight

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7 - 9 pounds of baby
2 pounds of placenta
2 pounds of amniotic fluid
4 - 5 pounds of increased blood volume
2 pounds uterine enlargement
3 - 4 pounds of fluid in maternal tissue
1 pound of breast enlargement to prepare for breastfeeding
Any remaining pounds are a general deposit of fat required by the body for breastfeeding and energy stores


x

 

[Groovychick]

Although I am still only TTC, I can imagine having difficulty when starting to gain weight later on in pregnancy. I am planning to do some research into websites which may be useful in this circumstance. I'll update as when I find them.

 

[Groovychick]

I found this for you Pixx--
Approximate breakdown of pregnancy weight

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7 - 9 pounds of baby
2 pounds of placenta
2 pounds of amniotic fluid
4 - 5 pounds of increased blood volume
2 pounds uterine enlargement
3 - 4 pounds of fluid in maternal tissue
1 pound of breast enlargement to prepare for breastfeeding
Any remaining pounds are a general deposit of fat required by the body for breastfeeding and energy stores

Thank you for sharing.

 

[Pixxie]

Thanks for that Jen I cant really not weigh myself Im not doing it as much as I was, Im managing about once a week, but if the scales are in the house I HAVE to weigh myself My OH doesnt know about my problems and he will smell a rat if I try to chuck the scales out!

I realise because of your post the minimum I should be gaining is about 12.5 kg, In which case gaining 3kg by 19 weeks isnt bad at all.

How long did it take you to get back to your pre-pregnancy weight? I imagine with breastfeeding and walking a lot with the pram it wont take that long xxx

 

[isil]

I definitely found it easier not to weigh myself. It's unfortunate that that isn't an option for you, Pixxie. Even now, I don't know and refuse to know (at Drs and stuff) my weight.

Focus on getting your 5-a-day and concentrate on eating good nutritious food. When they told me how well my baby was growing inside me I got such a sense of achievement and pride that I felt like I could keep eating good food and not purge afterwards. I found the hard time for me was when I'd given birth (hormones I guess). I think most people do loose their pregnancy weight eventually especially if you've eaten well during pregnancy - but it's important that it's done healthily too so you're not too nackered to look after your baby! And pushing prams with massive healthy babies in them definitely does some good lol.

 

[Groovychick]

I agree isil.

 

[Groovychick]

I haven't had a good day today . . . .

 

[Pixxie]

Im having such a hard day, I HATE feeling full... even with 'recovery' I grazed instead of eating so I didnt get this full stomach feeling, but now I have to do it for my princess. I miss my ribs today

On a plus note Im halfway now and only put on 4kg, which I suppose is pretty good going I just wish it was time for her to come already so I can have that lovely little dip in my stomach back instead of this swollen thing

How is everyone else atm? xxx

 

[Groovychick]

Hello Pixxie. Sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment. I am not doing so well either. Every day is a struggle at the moment and I just wish life was simpler! I could definitely do without this at the moment. I just feel frustrated and alone.

 

[Pixxie]

It's hard not to feel alone when people don't understand

I wish I could explain to my OH how I feel right now, I wish that if I did explain he would understand it's a mental illness and not vanity... I can remember the things he said when my best friend admitted she had an eating disorder. I can never talk to him about this. Even my friend doesn't understand now becuse when she feels she weighs too much she just diets.

How come your having a hard time groovychick? Xx