~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Pilot]

Thank you!

Took me some time to actually write a reply to this because reading "chat with your GP" makes my stomach turn, hehe. I don't have much trust in doctors any more from previous experiences.

It's so weird because I know it's wrong and I know what I should have but I can't feel pleased about it. I'm very good at encouraging but not very good at doing it myself But if I eat anything, even a healthy meal, I feel like I have crossed the "limit" of what I should eat.

But thank you so much for the encouring words. The fact that you are telling me to go to see my GP (as there is actually noone else really knows the problem I have) has made me think about it Always had it in my head that there is no need for any help until I collapse.

 

[tasha41]

Pilot. Thanks for sharing your story.

Half the battle is actually talking about it I think, feeling comfy enough to admit it (if even just to us) and stop keeping it just your secret...

Would you feel better if you ate a few small meals per day and did some light exercise (I mean no 3hr gym sessions but maybe like a bit of yoga or pilates daily?)... I am doing it right now... yoga makes me feel so good!!!

If you know you will have slips I think multivitamins are a great idea... and calcium supplements!!! I know they are not the ideal but they can help you a little if you have a couple of really bad days.

I hate doctors too, I know it's the "right thing to do", go to a doctor and talk about it... but it is hard. I hope you can find the strength to do it someday Maybe since you are WTT you can ask them to help you get eating properly with your goal of trying in mind as Jan 2011?

 

[Pilot]

I would love to do Yoga but can't afford it and I don't have the space to do it to myself at home!
Used to go for a 30min - 1hr walks in the morning, depending on the day. Maybe I should start that again as you said

I do take multivits but they are so hard on the stomach when it's not filled up and I slip up a lot of days

Still undecided about the doctors for now..

Thanks

 

[tasha41]

I talked to my friend about some of my problems today


I feel so so stupid I want to erase the conversation from history.

I trust her so much and we have a lot in common etc and IDK, I feel like I just alienated her somewhat, or dumped some intense stuff on her, I feel so awful.

 

[jen1604]

I talked to my friend about some of my problems today


I feel so so stupid I want to erase the conversation from history.

I trust her so much and we have a lot in common etc and IDK, I feel like I just alienated her somewhat, or dumped some intense stuff on her, I feel so awful.

Tash I'm sure its fine and that she doesn't feel alienated.Its hard to get all this stuff out in the open,maybe she just needs some time to comprehend it?

xxx

 

[Snowbean]

Just found this thread. I was doing OK before I got pregnant but the morning sickness got me back in binge mode ad since the sickness stopped I've been fighting the urge to keep making myself sick because I'm eating too much and the weight gain scares me. I've gained around 6.5kg and I'm 24 weeks tomo. I know this is normal and healthy weight gain but I feel awful. I want to go and be sick right now because Iv'e eaten too much today and not been to the gym and I know that means another 0.5kg on the scale tomorrow... hows everyone else coping? I don't want to hurt my baby but I feel so alone and unloved and discustung and scared

 

[tasha41]

^ I don't know how, I just was detirmined to make sure my baby was ok.. I would never have forgiven myself if my eating problems caused her problems. For me, just reminding myself of that daily of that worked.




I didn't know this before!:

Never go below 1200 calories if you are a female, because your body will go into starvation mode and it is possible that you might gain weight, besides doing serious damage to your body. (1500 if you are male.) As a female, your body and organs needs a minimum of 1200 calories just to function.

-The heart needs 12% of the calories (144 cals)
-The kidney needs 12% of the calories (144 cals)
-The Liver needs 23% of the calories (276 cals)
-The brain needs 23% of the calories (276 cals)
-The skeletal muscle needs 30% of the calories (360 cals)

 

[Pilot]

https://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/ar...ia-bullies-cruel-taunts-drove-shed-stone.html

So sad

 

[jen1604]

Thats so sad x

 

[tasha41]

That is terrible....

RIP.

 

[tasha41]

Last night a coworker of mine asked if I was pregnant.

I asked what he was getting at and he said no seriously-- I am NOT pregnant, was offended. He insisted he heard someone say I was..

Told my OH today about it. My OH suggested that I should exercise a bit so I can lose my spare tire. FML. In a way I think he was trying to be funny but doing a shit job!!!!!!

Then at work today people asked me if I was pregnant, apparently it is a rumour going around somehow.

 

[Pilot]

Don't you just love clueless people..
Who the hell would start a rumour like that?

 

[Pilot]

I just need to vent this somewhere.

I feel like I have been good lately. Been eating properly but also healthy and lost some weight. Very happy with myself.

My FIL is one of those people who only eat whenever someone gives something to him and he's not really ever hungry. And I don't ever really get hungry either but if I don't eat regular meals I get all weak and faint so I have to make sure to do it properly.

So yesterday I hadn't had the chance to eat anything and by 4 I was feeling really faint so I had to sit down while OH went to the shop to buy me a sandwich and a juice. And then my stupid FIL comes up to me and says "Oh, you consume so much food. It's like you always eat. Imagine if you actually had to do manual work. It's not normal" ?!?!??!?

Like.. thanks. Asking for a sandwich and a bottle of juice is hardly "greedy" when I haven't had anything to eat all day.. Having regular meals is normal.. He knows that I have struggled with ED. T***. I don't eat crisps or chocolate. No white bread, no fizzy drinks, no red meat and no deep fried stuff. And that's things that I haven't even been eating when I gained a lot of weight (Doctor found out it has been because of an illness so fixed it now) so I'm hardly unhealthy when it comes to eating. He said it in the most sleazy tone and I don't know what he was trying to achieve with it.

Makes me want to throw it all out the window and just go back to old ways as apparently I consume too much food. Nice.

 

[tasha41]

OMG! Maybe if he ate regular meals he wouldn't be such an asshole!!

Honestly I can't understand how people work up the nerve to say things like that to other people!!

 

[jen1604]

What an IDIOT Pilot!Ignore him lovely,he is not even worth a second thought.

I am having a bit of a bad time with everything at the moment *sigh* I am huge

 

[Groovychick]

I have struggled with bulimia now for nearly ten years and of late it has got worse. I have tried seeking professional help, but the waiting list is long and I am unlikely to get an appointment for several months. It frustrates me as I motivated to recover, just don't have the tools to do so.

 

[jen1604]

I'm sorry groovychick,thats rubbish.Do you have a sympathetic GP who can try and help you through until you can get proper support?x

 

[Groovychick]

Thanks jen. Fortunately my G.P. is very understanding and sympathetic, although he has done all he can for the moment. I think its just a case of trying to work through my problems on my own for the time being. Hopefully, will the support of my friends, family and you guys here I am hoping I can make some progress towards recovery.

 

[jen1604]

Does anyone else find it ridiculously difficult to eat in public/around new people to the point where you just completely avoid it?

Someone has asked me if I want to go to somewhere really nice later for ffood and I've said no because I just know I would turn the whole experience into an angsty mess

 

[Groovychick]

I worry about this too. I'll eat in public if I don't have a choice, but am really not keen. I am so worried about how people will perceive me in terms of what, how, when etc. Its very frustrating.