~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Sarah10]

Would it be wrong to say i'm not ready for this to go away?

 

[Groovychick]

Not at all hun. Its a coping mechanism.

 

[Justagirlxx]

I'm currently struggling pretty badly with my ED. I've been trying to do it the healthy way and loose the rest of the baby weight by exercise and healthy dieting...but I've had a lot of relapses lately... I know I'm not fat but I can't shake it, every time I look in the mirror I want to cry, I feel so disgusting about myself, so ugly and fat...

 

[Sarah10]

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[Sarah10]

Slightly positive day, we went out all 3 of us, and i managed to have something which i didn't know the cals of, big start for me, i HAVE to know the cals/fat etc in everything, so yeah.. i feel guilty and already worried about tomorrow but one day at a time.
Remembering Lou's (louandivy)'s comment.. feel the fear and do it anyway...

 

[9babiesgone]

I am having a hard time convincing myself to eat lunch today. I was doing so so freakin well and now today is a struggle.

 

[louandivy]

Slightly positive day, we went out all 3 of us, and i managed to have something which i didn't know the cals of, big start for me, i HAVE to know the cals/fat etc in everything, so yeah.. i feel guilty and already worried about tomorrow but one day at a time.
Remembering Lou's (louandivy)'s comment.. feel the fear and do it anyway...

I'm so glad that you are using this, it really does help sometimes Please please PM me if you need some support.

 

[Sarah10]

Thankyou hun, xxx

 

[Groovychick]

Slightly positive day, we went out all 3 of us, and i managed to have something which i didn't know the cals of, big start for me, i HAVE to know the cals/fat etc in everything, so yeah.. i feel guilty and already worried about tomorrow but one day at a time.
Remembering Lou's (louandivy)'s comment.. feel the fear and do it anyway...

Great job hun! Hope everyone has a good day.

 

[Justagirlxx]

I am having a hard time convincing myself to eat lunch today. I was doing so so freakin well and now today is a struggle.

I understand. It's like food is the enemy.. but food isn't the enemy, expecially healthy food, thats fuel for our bodies.. we need it to stay energized and alive. Somehow I gotta keep telling myself that too... I hope you can eat lunch hun. xoxo

 

[9babiesgone]

well I ate lunch, but then did something bad. so uggh. I really dont want to feel good about myself. and I shouldnt have weighed myself. bc of course I recently gained weight. uggh


I hate this disorder, wish I had never gotten it.

 

[Groovychick]

What's stopping you from feeling good about yourself hun?

 

[9babiesgone]

purging made me feel really bad!
and then of course the fact that I have all this weight on me, and I look huge.

and I Just feel not worthy of anyone or anything

 

[Sarah10]

I'm sure you don't look huge hun, remember its the disorder which makes us think we look bad.

Crap day here, back to the calorie obsession again, gah!

 

[Groovychick]

Sarah10 is right; its the ED distorting our normal view of ourselves. When you felt the need to purge, were you stressed or otherwise upset?

 

[9babiesgone]

Nope I was a tad bit stressed, but not really it is almost an habit now. especially when I eat a normal sized meal.

 

[Groovychick]

Have you thought of distracting yourself after a meal such as practising relaxation techniques or taking a bath?

 

[9babiesgone]

I tried, it just didnt work yesterday! I think I need new coping skills whenI feel the urge to do it. but I dont know what. bc none of my relaxation stuff is working.


: (

 

[Groovychick]

Why do you feel the need to punish yourself through purging after you eat? Perhaps finding that out could be basis for you getting better.

 

[Sarah10]

I don't know if it helps hun but if i feel the need to purge i go for a walk, it seems to help me x