~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[mayb_baby]

OH and me are arguing non stop, I'm falling behind and don't feel capable of uni and I have thrown up 5 times in the past week. I'm bleeding everyday for the past month or so, I'm exhausted and just want to have a break.

 

[Cheshirista]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

 

[Rin731]

OH and me are arguing non stop, I'm falling behind and don't feel capable of uni and I have thrown up 5 times in the past week. I'm bleeding everyday for the past month or so, I'm exhausted and just want to have a break.

I hate that-I get in a mood over something, and the whole day is shot down, for DH too, then he's on eggshells, and I feel like such a sh!t wife.

I feel like I try so hard to be upbeat and everything, but I just....can't. Sometimes.

I hate feeling like this. Like even dealing with other people is work, and all I want to do is be alone.

 

[Rin731]

Welcome, Cheshirista.

Sorry- I'm not going through exactly that... but still I hope you're having a good day.

 

[HellBunny]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

I'm not full blown bulimic, though i used to make myself sick daily.. mainly ana tendancies though. How are you hun?x

 

[HellBunny]

OH and me are arguing non stop, I'm falling behind and don't feel capable of uni and I have thrown up 5 times in the past week. I'm bleeding everyday for the past month or so, I'm exhausted and just want to have a break.

So sorry to hear that hun, i hope things will be okay, are you sick because of the stress of uni? x

 

[mayb_baby]

Yeah it's that the travel and that feeling in uni there watching me eat, I wont give up NEVER. I will continue until I break down, they expect me to fail so I won't x

 

[louandivy]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

I am not anymore but I was in a severe bulimic phase when I found out I was pregnant with Ivy, I am here if you want to talk or need some advice, I have been really successful with conquering my bulimic tendencies

 

[Cheshirista]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

I'm not full blown bulimic, though i used to make myself sick daily.. mainly ana tendancies though. How are you hun?x

Hiya, thanks for the reply.

I was doing great until the last week or so. First half of this year I was in my worst ever bulimic episode. I'd improved a lot when I got pregnant and as soon as I found out, I stopped b/ping totally and concentrated on eating well.

I'm 16 weeks now and I've put on 10lbs, and I've got my midwife appointment this afternoon. Knowing that I was going to get weighed sent my head into a spin. I got my scales back out from where I hid them away and been weighing myself every day and tried to restrict 'bad' foods. I should have known better. Straight away, I wanted to eat crisps and sweets and straight away afterwards, that awful feeling of needing to get rid of it filled my head. The last week, I've purged about 3 or 4 times, I know it's not a lot but I'm worried I'm slipping back into it. Yesterday I did it twice. And yesterday morning I gave myself permission to, I said, you can do it today, it's only one day before your appointment, and it won't do any harm. Afterwards I felt so awful and guilty and thought why the hell did I think it was ok? But EDs find ways of justifying themselves to you, don't they?

I've promised myself, no more. I need to stop it NOW. But I'm scared to seek help from doctor, midwife etc in case of the implications. And I NEVER want OH to find out, he would be crushed that I did this while carrying his baby. So I just need to be strong.

I'm apprehensive about even putting this here, it feels like such an awful thing to admit, but I feel like I need to tell someone.

If you wanna message me, or anyone else does, please do because it would be great to have someone for mutual support.

 

[annawrigley]

Oh hun don't feel guilty, you are doing your best. As you say EDs have a nasty way of justifying themselves and then making you feel awful afterwards. I've had bulimic tendencies before but never been full-blown bulimic but I know how hard it is to resist the urge to purge when you're full or you feel guilty and like you need to get it out. I know it's much easier said than done but try to healthily, little and often and then hopefully you won't feel the need to binge and purge. My diet when I was pregnant was terrible (not restricting, just a lot of junk and not much fruit or veg and just not very varied at all) and Noah was big and healthy, if that's any help (and 9 days early). I know that wasn't ideal but your LO won't necessarily be suffering, its more likely you will cos they take the nutrients they need first. Try and keep strong

 

[louandivy]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

I'm not full blown bulimic, though i used to make myself sick daily.. mainly ana tendancies though. How are you hun?x

Hiya, thanks for the reply.

I was doing great until the last week or so. First half of this year I was in my worst ever bulimic episode. I'd improved a lot when I got pregnant and as soon as I found out, I stopped b/ping totally and concentrated on eating well.

I'm 16 weeks now and I've put on 10lbs, and I've got my midwife appointment this afternoon. Knowing that I was going to get weighed sent my head into a spin. I got my scales back out from where I hid them away and been weighing myself every day and tried to restrict 'bad' foods. I should have known better. Straight away, I wanted to eat crisps and sweets and straight away afterwards, that awful feeling of needing to get rid of it filled my head. The last week, I've purged about 3 or 4 times, I know it's not a lot but I'm worried I'm slipping back into it. Yesterday I did it twice. And yesterday morning I gave myself permission to, I said, you can do it today, it's only one day before your appointment, and it won't do any harm. Afterwards I felt so awful and guilty and thought why the hell did I think it was ok? But EDs find ways of justifying themselves to you, don't they?

I've promised myself, no more. I need to stop it NOW. But I'm scared to seek help from doctor, midwife etc in case of the implications. And I NEVER want OH to find out, he would be crushed that I did this while carrying his baby. So I just need to be strong.

I'm apprehensive about even putting this here, it feels like such an awful thing to admit, but I feel like I need to tell someone.

If you wanna message me, or anyone else does, please do because it would be great to have someone for mutual support.

Could you ask your midwife to do blind weigh ins? I have absolutely no idea how much weight I gained in pregnancy because of all my ED history in my notes we decided it would be best if I didn't look when I got on the scales! Please please throw the scales away, it seems like such a minor thing but looking back on it my scales massively hindered my many attempts at recovery.
To stop the purging you need to stop the binging too, I thought I would NEVER be able to stop binging because I had tried so many times in the past but when you are in the mindset to binge you just can't get out of it! But I found that as I started nourishing myself more and actually eating 3 meals a day the binging slowly stopped without me having to try, but once again I think not having any scales to torture myself with helped me massively asw well. Do you purge after everything you eat or do you binge and purge? It is so so difficult, I know. And don't feel guilty, your baby will be safe. But you need to be mentally fit and healthy when your baby comes because bulimia is NOT compatible with parenting! I still have little relapses in restricting but I have managed to completely combat the bulimia, to the point where being sick actually really freaks me out now! Sorry, this was a really unhelpful ramble but I know it is soo difficult to stop yourself when you are in the mindset to binge and purge, bulimia is so addictive. PM me if you want

 

[Cheshirista]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

I'm not full blown bulimic, though i used to make myself sick daily.. mainly ana tendancies though. How are you hun?x

Hiya, thanks for the reply.

I was doing great until the last week or so. First half of this year I was in my worst ever bulimic episode. I'd improved a lot when I got pregnant and as soon as I found out, I stopped b/ping totally and concentrated on eating well.

I'm 16 weeks now and I've put on 10lbs, and I've got my midwife appointment this afternoon. Knowing that I was going to get weighed sent my head into a spin. I got my scales back out from where I hid them away and been weighing myself every day and tried to restrict 'bad' foods. I should have known better. Straight away, I wanted to eat crisps and sweets and straight away afterwards, that awful feeling of needing to get rid of it filled my head. The last week, I've purged about 3 or 4 times, I know it's not a lot but I'm worried I'm slipping back into it. Yesterday I did it twice. And yesterday morning I gave myself permission to, I said, you can do it today, it's only one day before your appointment, and it won't do any harm. Afterwards I felt so awful and guilty and thought why the hell did I think it was ok? But EDs find ways of justifying themselves to you, don't they?

I've promised myself, no more. I need to stop it NOW. But I'm scared to seek help from doctor, midwife etc in case of the implications. And I NEVER want OH to find out, he would be crushed that I did this while carrying his baby. So I just need to be strong.

I'm apprehensive about even putting this here, it feels like such an awful thing to admit, but I feel like I need to tell someone.

If you wanna message me, or anyone else does, please do because it would be great to have someone for mutual support.

Could you ask your midwife to do blind weigh ins? I have absolutely no idea how much weight I gained in pregnancy because of all my ED history in my notes we decided it would be best if I didn't look when I got on the scales! Please please throw the scales away, it seems like such a minor thing but looking back on it my scales massively hindered my many attempts at recovery.
To stop the purging you need to stop the binging too, I thought I would NEVER be able to stop binging because I had tried so many times in the past but when you are in the mindset to binge you just can't get out of it! But I found that as I started nourishing myself more and actually eating 3 meals a day the binging slowly stopped without me having to try, but once again I think not having any scales to torture myself with helped me massively asw well. Do you purge after everything you eat or do you binge and purge? It is so so difficult, I know. And don't feel guilty, your baby will be safe. But you need to be mentally fit and healthy when your baby comes because bulimia is NOT compatible with parenting! I still have little relapses in restricting but I have managed to completely combat the bulimia, to the point where being sick actually really freaks me out now! Sorry, this was a really unhelpful ramble but I know it is soo difficult to stop yourself when you are in the mindset to binge and purge, bulimia is so addictive. PM me if you want

I actually feel loads better today, with it being the day of the appointment and knowing there's nothing I can do now to influence my weight before it. I really think it's just this one, silly little appointment has turned me into an angst-ridden wreck for the last week.

I'm thinking that i'll fess up to having had problems in the past and ask not to see my weight and for it not be discussed, and then I can relax a bit. I judge myself so much on my physical shape, the thought that someone else was going to really freaked me out.

I know what you're saying, I can never go back to where I've been once I've got a baby depending on me. I've never purged everything I eat, but I'm not a big binger either. I know that sounds weird. Mostly I'd eat super healthily but then I'd accidentally eat a little too much, or feel too full after one meal or something would upset me or it would be a day when I felt like I was 'friends' with my ED (if you know what I mean) and it felt like a great idea to purge one of my meals and it would have to go. Those occasions just got more and more. I looked forward to the purge as much as the food. Towards the end of my last episode I was doing binges though. I also drank loads and took drugs to keep me off food. I really was in a horrible way not that long ago, and I never want to go back, especially now!

 

[mayb_baby]

When I was pregnant they never weighed me except my first appointment, while I was pregnant I never ate much but drank loads of milk and Michael was 7lbs
Glad to hear you'r feeling better I think telling the truthwould be a good idea as your MW could help

 

[mayb_baby]

Sat in uni with a boostlight and pro plus ready to stab the girl with a smelly sandwhich I don't know whats in it but it's doing my head in and has turned me off going to the canteen watching it drip down her face.
Have a huge headache and hate this place

 

[Cheshirista]

Went to the appointment. After all that, she didn't even weigh me. I am such a divvy.

 

[Rin731]

Went to the appointment. After all that, she didn't even weigh me. I am such a divvy.

Glad to hear it wasn't as bad as you thought...

When I was anorexic and going to the dr when I was younger, it always did me in to see someone else looking at my weight on the scales.

 

[Groovychick]

How is everyone?

 

[mayb_baby]

why is bnb different? I'm in a great mood not for good reasons mind you but a good mood none the less

 

[Rin731]

why is bnb different? I'm in a great mood not for good reasons mind you but a good mood none the less

I know, it's different now....?

 

[mayb_baby]

normal again x