~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[HellBunny]

I have relapsed

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I purged for the first time in months and months. I am so ashamed of myself

I really tried to stay away from this. tried to do it, but then i miscarried and for some reason I did not know how it would affect me again.

I'm so sorry to hear you relapsed hun, and about your miscarriage xxx

 

[9babiesgone]

thanks. I am so so frustrated with myself.

I was doing well when I was pregnant but then when I miscarried it was such a trigger to my ed. felt like a failure and needed to cope and I coped wrongly.

 

[sarah0108]

:hugs to al x

 

[Char.due.jan]

I'm not that low though, i thought cycles were only affected if BMI went under 18.5 xx

Hmm, I'm not sure hun.. I think it affects people in different ways. Have you lost a lot of weight in a relatively fast time?

My cycles have always been irregular, but I've recently found out I have PCOS so that explains it for me.

If you're worried though hun, a trip to the doctors to ease your mind might be worth it




- I'm in super self-destruct mode tonight. I ate a takeaway earlier I feel disgusted with myself and I can't bear to look at myself in the mirror. Or even look down at my body, I can see the extra weight already I'm going to hate my visit to the wii fit tomorrow

 

[lb]

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I'm at an inbetween size with my clothes right now. Everything is either too big or too small.I have decided that I need to lose fifteen more pounds to fit into my every day high school jeans, and I need to do so by halloween, so I can fit into all my warm clothes again. I'm scared to restrict, but if I don't, I won't lose any weight. But my clothes don't fit

 

[sarah0108]

i know the feeling babe i have been awful this week, i wont spoiler anything i dont wanna trigger anyone xx

 

[Jellyt]

I'm not that low though, i thought cycles were only affected if BMI went under 18.5 xx

I think it all depends on your frame etc. Judging things by your BMI is unreliable. I have a really small frame and my periods weren't affected until my BMI was 17ish and I got pregnant at less than 7 stone so my body obviously functions well at a low leight so I don't bother with my BMI anymore x

 

[lb]

How is everyone doing?

 

[9babiesgone]

could be better.
thanks for all the support and hugs ladies.
today I was doing a little bit better.

 

[lb]

That's good that you are doing better

I'm having a down day. But at least I've found an alternative to sugary Vanilla Dr Pepper

 

[Rin731]

I was doing alright with dieting and moderate exercise last week...

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...but had pizza and cookies over the weekend, and just want to restrict now...Feeling really down. I feel so gross and fat. 225 lbs, and I was 140 in April 2010. I'm hating myself so much I can't stand it, and I get so depressed I can't exercise though I want to. I love my husband, but it's so hard to lose weight with him around, he loves to eat. I want so much to be able to restrict properly. I can't lose weight fast enough and I truly truly just want to lay down and die sometimes, it seems so daunting.

 

[mayb_baby]

I am too tired to eat

 

[HellBunny]

How is everyone? Finding things harder than ever, started college and its like major thinspo in there. I find it hard to go over 500 without panicking/feeling like topping myself.

 

[Char.due.jan]

I'm on total self-destruct after what my ex has done. People keep saying I'm losing too much weight, but I take it as some twisted compliment...

 

[Chris77]

I used to take it as a compliment too. It did give me some twisted satisfaction. But I had to start looking at it as, dying isn't complimentary. And that's what I was doing to myself. It's so so hard to break out of the cycle though.

When you're thinking of eating disorder behaviors, do something else. Go for a walk, or engage in a hobby you really like....do anything to try to turn your thoughts away. I know it sounds much easier said than done but I wouldn't be saying it if I hadn't used the same methods myself.

Even now, 7 years after recovery, I STILL struggle from time to time when I'm going through a particularly rough spot in my life. The ED thoughts like to creep in then when you're at your weakest.

Don't let it win ladies.

 

[AirForceWife7]

I used to take it as a compliment too. It did give me some twisted satisfaction. But I had to start looking at it as, dying isn't complimentary. And that's what I was doing to myself. It's so so hard to break out of the cycle though.

When you're thinking of eating disorder behaviors, do something else. Go for a walk, or engage in a hobby you really like....do anything to try to turn your thoughts away. I know it sounds much easier said than done but I wouldn't be saying it if I hadn't used the same methods myself.

Even now, 7 years after recovery, I STILL struggle from time to time when I'm going through a particularly rough spot in my life. The ED thoughts like to creep in then when you're at your weakest.

Don't let it win ladies.

This was a great post Makes me look at things from a different perspective

 

[Groovychick]

Thanks for your kind words Chris.

 

[Chris77]

I used to take it as a compliment too. It did give me some twisted satisfaction. But I had to start looking at it as, dying isn't complimentary. And that's what I was doing to myself. It's so so hard to break out of the cycle though.

When you're thinking of eating disorder behaviors, do something else. Go for a walk, or engage in a hobby you really like....do anything to try to turn your thoughts away. I know it sounds much easier said than done but I wouldn't be saying it if I hadn't used the same methods myself.

Even now, 7 years after recovery, I STILL struggle from time to time when I'm going through a particularly rough spot in my life. The ED thoughts like to creep in then when you're at your weakest.

Don't let it win ladies.

This was a great post Makes me look at things from a different perspective

Thanks for your kind words Chris.

You're welcome ladies. I'm here if you ever need to talk.

 

[Rin731]

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Husband is off work this week, so of course this weekend we had Chinese, McDonalds, Taco Bell, and fried chicken, not to mention cookies, crisps, and chocolate.


WHY can't he understand that it's so difficult when he wants to eat like that???

He asks, "What can I do?" and I tell him "Not ask for those things for dinner.", and he says, "I don't MAKE you eat anything."

I'm so miserable right now. I can't sleep, all I want to do is restrict tomorrow.

 

[Groovychick]

Don't restrict hun. That's the worst thing you can do as it will encourage unhealthy eating habits. Just do your best to eat heathily. I have experience in the area of nutrition, so PM me if you want further help.