~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Rin731]

normal again x

Not here. I mean, it's the same but the reply button and stuff looks odd still.

 

[annawrigley]

What bothered me most about getting weighed when I was pregnant is she'd look at the number, write it down and go "Ok that's absolutely fine!" It annoyed me cos I didn't want to be 'fine' cos in my head that meant she thought I was fat

 

[Rin731]

why is bnb different? I'm in a great mood not for good reasons mind you but a good mood none the less

https://www.babyandbump.com/announcements-newsletters/765201-babyandbumps-new-look.html



That's the thread about the changes.

 

[HellBunny]

Is anyone on here pregnant and bulimic? I could really use someone to talk to who understands where I'm at.

I'm not full blown bulimic, though i used to make myself sick daily.. mainly ana tendancies though. How are you hun?x

Hiya, thanks for the reply.

I was doing great until the last week or so. First half of this year I was in my worst ever bulimic episode. I'd improved a lot when I got pregnant and as soon as I found out, I stopped b/ping totally and concentrated on eating well.

I'm 16 weeks now and I've put on 10lbs, and I've got my midwife appointment this afternoon. Knowing that I was going to get weighed sent my head into a spin. I got my scales back out from where I hid them away and been weighing myself every day and tried to restrict 'bad' foods. I should have known better. Straight away, I wanted to eat crisps and sweets and straight away afterwards, that awful feeling of needing to get rid of it filled my head. The last week, I've purged about 3 or 4 times, I know it's not a lot but I'm worried I'm slipping back into it. Yesterday I did it twice. And yesterday morning I gave myself permission to, I said, you can do it today, it's only one day before your appointment, and it won't do any harm. Afterwards I felt so awful and guilty and thought why the hell did I think it was ok? But EDs find ways of justifying themselves to you, don't they?

I've promised myself, no more. I need to stop it NOW. But I'm scared to seek help from doctor, midwife etc in case of the implications. And I NEVER want OH to find out, he would be crushed that I did this while carrying his baby. So I just need to be strong.

I'm apprehensive about even putting this here, it feels like such an awful thing to admit, but I feel like I need to tell someone.

If you wanna message me, or anyone else does, please do because it would be great to have someone for mutual support.

Its really great you are being so honest Please please try and throw those scales away, i'm still weighing each day and i'm hoping to take them to the charity shop very soon!!
If you do tell your midwife, they will arrange for you to speak to someone who you can explain everything to, they won't tell your o/h as it will all be confidential
xxxxx

 

[mayb_baby]

I am exhausted and I'm in a really bad place with my ED I want to be so thin again so much, I eat one day and starve the next (Water, Boost Light and pro plus only) everyone in uni is so thin and it's all I think about. I'm doing 20mins of wii Zumba and 6 songs (3sweats) in a day, plus at uni I walk 1mile up hill to the bus stop and one down 3days a week, never mind class to class as our university has 8 different buildings and a 9 story tower.
I am crabit, exhausted, feel crap, awful headaches and my house is turning into an awful mess. Every day I want to do more than the last and I have lost a bit of weight and its only been 10days.

So yeah pointless but feel shit

 

[Rin731]

I am exhausted and I'm in a really bad place with my ED I want to be so thin again so much, I eat one day and starve the next (Water, Boost Light and pro plus only) everyone in uni is so thin and it's all I think about. I'm doing 20mins of wii Zumba and 6 songs (3sweats) in a day, plus at uni I walk 1mile up hill to the bus stop and one down 3days a week, never mind class to class as our university has 8 different buildings and a 9 story tower.
I am crabit, exhausted, feel crap, awful headaches and my house is turning into an awful mess. Every day I want to do more than the last and I have lost a bit of weight and its only been 10days.

So yeah pointless but feel shit

Oooh I remember those days (uni). I was a mess...no wonder I'm 2.5 yrs done and on a 2 yr break from it.

 

[HellBunny]

I can;t wait till i can lose the weight again.
I am such a selfish fucking cow who doesn't deserve my kids.

 

[mayb_baby]

I can;t wait till i can lose the weight again.
I am such a selfish fucking cow who doesn't deserve my kids.

Hunny yes you do, stay strong for you'r baby and it's not bad you want to lose the weight as long as you don't act on impulse you are not being selfish. I hope you'r Ok

 

[HellBunny]

I can;t wait till i can lose the weight again.
I am such a selfish fucking cow who doesn't deserve my kids.

Hunny yes you do, stay strong for you'r baby and it's not bad you want to lose the weight as long as you don't act on impulse you are not being selfish. I hope you'r Ok

thanks hun, i did the scales this morning and i've lost.. don't know how as i am really trying to eat well and all that, but i guess i won't complain.
How are things with you?xx

 

[mayb_baby]

I can;t wait till i can lose the weight again.
I am such a selfish fucking cow who doesn't deserve my kids.

Hunny yes you do, stay strong for you'r baby and it's not bad you want to lose the weight as long as you don't act on impulse you are not being selfish. I hope you'r Ok

thanks hun, i did the scales this morning and i've lost.. don't know how as i am really trying to eat well and all that, but i guess i won't complain.
How are things with you?xx

Early stages I lost before I gained, could you give your scales away until you'r LO is here?
I'm tired to say the least but yeah Ok, trying to stay on top of Housework, coursework, reading and giving Michael time.
I just cannot get over the difference from school to uni

EDT: and remember to consume food aha lol xx

 

[HellBunny]

I can;t wait till i can lose the weight again.
I am such a selfish fucking cow who doesn't deserve my kids.

Hunny yes you do, stay strong for you'r baby and it's not bad you want to lose the weight as long as you don't act on impulse you are not being selfish. I hope you'r Ok

thanks hun, i did the scales this morning and i've lost.. don't know how as i am really trying to eat well and all that, but i guess i won't complain.
How are things with you?xx

Early stages I lost before I gained, could you give your scales away until you'r LO is here?
I'm tired to say the least but yeah Ok, trying to stay on top of Housework, coursework, reading and giving Michael time.
I just cannot get over the difference from school to uni

EDT: and remember to consume food aha lol xx

Difference in what hun? xx
Oh i will try lol! I did have 3 meals today so doing pretty well! xxx

 

[mayb_baby]

Difference in the work load and how little help and guidance we have
and in uni everyone is soooooo skinny xx

 

[HellBunny]

Difference in the work load and how little help and guidance we have
and in uni everyone is soooooo skinny xx

Aww hun i hope it gets easier for you, especially with you running around after your LO its difficult finding the time.
xx

 

[Rin731]

Ughhhhhh...managed to not look into my "keep for when I'm skinny again" box of clothes, but did a mental checklist of all the cute things in there.


Now I feel miserable.

Also tried to exercise today but panicked so much I couldn't.

I hate having self loathing tendencies mixed up in my eating disorder stuff. Most of the time I just feel so drained.

 

[Groovychick]

 

[mayb_baby]

 

[Rin731]

Thanks.

 

[Rin731]

Oh my gosh. This is so offensive, it's a Halloween Costume called "Anna Rexia".

Spoiler

"The costume known as Anna Rexia, a getup that makes a mockery of the disease anorexia, features a tight black dress with skeleton detail down the front, measuring tape to tie around your shrinking waist and neck, Anna Rexia heart name tag (in case people don't get it) and a bone barrette to put in your hair".

https://www.chicagotribune.com/features/sns-holiday-halloween-controversial-costume,0,2372596.story

How offensive is that???!!!

Are there really people who think it's okay to make fun of people like that?

 

[lb]

Oh my gosh. This is so offensive, it's a Halloween Costume called "Anna Rexia".

Spoiler

"The costume known as Anna Rexia, a getup that makes a mockery of the disease anorexia, features a tight black dress with skeleton detail down the front, measuring tape to tie around your shrinking waist and neck, Anna Rexia heart name tag (in case people don't get it) and a bone barrette to put in your hair".

https://www.chicagotribune.com/features/sns-holiday-halloween-controversial-costume,0,2372596.story

How offensive is that???!!!

Are there really people who think it's okay to make fun of people like that?

That makes my blood boil. I also didn't appreciate the puns in the story at all.

 

[annawrigley]

Oh my gosh. This is so offensive, it's a Halloween Costume called "Anna Rexia".

Spoiler

"The costume known as Anna Rexia, a getup that makes a mockery of the disease anorexia, features a tight black dress with skeleton detail down the front, measuring tape to tie around your shrinking waist and neck, Anna Rexia heart name tag (in case people don't get it) and a bone barrette to put in your hair".

https://www.chicagotribune.com/features/sns-holiday-halloween-controversial-costume,0,2372596.story

How offensive is that???!!!

Are there really people who think it's okay to make fun of people like that?

Wtf

My friends used to call me Anna Rexia cos my name is Anna