~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[Rin731]

I'm feeling a bit better- MIL gave me her Ab circle, so I'm going to start doing that, and some bellydance with it. Yay for trying to be healthy!

I hope everyone is doing okay.

 

[lb]

Hello, haven't been here in a bit and I hope you're all ok these days

I've been doing well the past couple of weeks (my favorite pair of jeans from high school fit again!). I just feel like I'm bound to relapse soon.

 

[TupeloHoney]

How can you tell the difference between poor eating habits and anorexia?

 

[Rin731]

How can you tell the difference between poor eating habits and anorexia?

I think it's when you become obsessive, have some self loathing, and when every time you eat, you think about your outer appearance, and how the food will affect you, obsessive behavior, etc.



For the wikipedia definition, look here:


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anorexia_nervosa


Esp at "Signs and symptoms".


Hope that helps.

 

[TupeloHoney]

Thank you for the information.

My eating habits are rather poor, and I usually wake up with a headache. I often have to be coaxed into eating, and when I do, I usually just have the one meal each day. Sometimes I feel too sickly (nausea) to eat, sometimes I just force myself not to. As to an obsession, I would not agree. I'm rather worried about putting on weight, but I don't weigh myself. I won't allow a scale in the house. I have been losing weight, though. My clothes have gotten baggy.

It might just be my mood, though. I've been feeling down.

 

[Rin731]

Thank you for the information.

My eating habits are rather poor, and I usually wake up with a headache. I often have to be coaxed into eating, and when I do, I usually just have the one meal each day. Sometimes I feel too sickly (nausea) to eat, sometimes I just force myself not to. As to an obsession, I would not agree. I'm rather worried about putting on weight, but I don't weigh myself. I won't allow a scale in the house. I have been losing weight, though. My clothes have gotten baggy.

It might just be my mood, though. I've been feeling down.

I think I have IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) bc every time I get stressed, my stomach gets upset and I get nauseous. Then I don't feel well enough to eat. Which then leads to headaches, and not wanting to eat bc I feel sick whenever I do.
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I have anorexia/not wanting to eat/scared of gaining weight issues. I also have some depression, it can go hand-in-hand, so that might be why you're feeling down.

If you're 'rather worried' and need to be 'talked into eating', I wouldn't worry too much, but it might do you good to talk to your dr about it? If you don't eat because you feel sick, dr could possibly help you with that, and if you don't eat because you're scared of gaining weight, dr could suggest someone for you to talk to about those issues.

I'd see someone if you can, just to be safe.

And as for your stomach, when you have tummy issues, the B.R.A.T. diet is good- bananas, rice, apple (juice, sauce, etc), and toast. Taking caffeine out of your diet, and artificial sweeteners can also help.
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And I should say- it can get to the point of obsession, but start with little things, like forcing yourself not to eat. (Which is why you might want to head this off at the pass now.)

Sorry for the confusion.

 

[TupeloHoney]

Believe me - I don't want to have an ED, hence why I asked. I've been in the hospital twice this year alone, for other mental health issues. My family and my body though have me concerned, as I feel weak pretty much all the time. I've just gotten kicked off my health insurance, but maybe you're right about bringing up my dietary issues with my therapist, before I actually have a problem.

 

[Rin731]

Believe me - I don't want to have an ED, hence why I asked. I've been in the hospital twice this year alone, for other mental health issues. My family and my body though have me concerned, as I feel weak pretty much all the time. I've just gotten kicked off my health insurance, but maybe you're right about bringing up my dietary issues with my therapist, before I actually have a problem.

Aw,

Spoiler

I used to have self harm/depressive tendencies, with clinical depression (was on meds, etc) before I had my ED...I've got control of it now, though it's hard- I gained some weight so now the anorexia wants to come back.

Getting checked out would be a good idea, bc I'm not a registered therapist by any means.

 

[Cheshirista]

I had a chat with someone yesterday about our bulimic tendencies and it seems to have triggered me again. I bought a box of chocolates yesterday, and only had one out of the box. I was really pleased with myself.

Then I had breakfast th morning, ate the rest of the box, some crisps and sweets. I don't know why. Then I went to the bathroom to purge, but I stopped and just stood there for a few minutes weighing it up. I know that I have to try not to do this for my baby. And I walked away. Good work, right? But now I have to have this horrible feeling that I just want out of me. I don't want to be fighting this again. I know where it leads and that it's never "just once".

It's so hard to be strong.

 

[Groovychick]

Great job on not purging. I know how hard it is. The urge is just so strong, isn't it?

 

[Rin731]

I had a chat with someone yesterday about our bulimic tendencies and it seems to have triggered me again. I bought a box of chocolates yesterday, and only had one out of the box. I was really pleased with myself.

Then I had breakfast th morning, ate the rest of the box, some crisps and sweets. I don't know why. Then I went to the bathroom to purge, but I stopped and just stood there for a few minutes weighing it up. I know that I have to try not to do this for my baby. And I walked away. Good work, right? But now I have to have this horrible feeling that I just want out of me. I don't want to be fighting this again. I know where it leads and that it's never "just once".

It's so hard to be strong.

I know what you mean- I'm a little overweight and used to have full blown anorexia...so now instead of eating healthy and exercising, I have to fight to not just starve myself, as that is my first reaction....and exercising stresses me bc it makes me think about how much I gained, and I want to restrict even more.

It is very hard to be strong.

 

[Groovychick]

 

[annawrigley]

Lotta self loathing right now

 

[HellBunny]

I keep bobbing between here and the recovery thread.
Well the ED one deleted me, anna you know who i mean lol. Anyway I basically told her she doesn't have body dysmorphia disorder/anorexia or she wouldn't post as her status loads of shit, when her family/friends are on there, so she told me to jump off a bridge. My scottish friend backed me up surprisingly, i thought she would side with her.
GOD such babble.
I lost another lb, i shouldn't be happy but i am, i miss the starving, i'm vile, i have no appetite either so that doesn't exactly help, just forcing it down for the sake of the baby.

 

[Cheshirista]

I keep bobbing between here and the recovery thread.
Well the ED one deleted me, anna you know who i mean lol. Anyway I basically told her she doesn't have body dysmorphia disorder/anorexia or she wouldn't post as her status loads of shit, when her family/friends are on there, so she told me to jump off a bridge. My scottish friend backed me up surprisingly, i thought she would side with her.
GOD such babble.
I lost another lb, i shouldn't be happy but i am, i miss the starving, i'm vile, i have no appetite either so that doesn't exactly help, just forcing it down for the sake of the baby.

I haven't seen that old thread, but online arguments never end well! Hope you're ok, here if you wanna chat x

 

[mayb_baby]

I keep bobbing between here and the recovery thread.
Well the ED one deleted me, anna you know who i mean lol. Anyway I basically told her she doesn't have body dysmorphia disorder/anorexia or she wouldn't post as her status loads of shit, when her family/friends are on there, so she told me to jump off a bridge. My scottish friend backed me up surprisingly, i thought she would side with her.
GOD such babble.
I lost another lb, i shouldn't be happy but i am, i miss the starving, i'm vile, i have no appetite either so that doesn't exactly help, just forcing it down for the sake of the baby.

Hope you'r Ok xxxx

Spoiler

I was violently sick with a tummy bug and have lost a few pound and am happy when I know I shouldn't be :/

 

[lb]

Hope everyone is doing ok today

I've lost another 2 lbs, but I feel like I did 20 lbs ago.
And my boobs look small now

 

[JacquiKeren]

hey girls. i stumbled across this thread whilst browsing b+b and im so glad to have found it. I just wanted to throw a little positivity out there, because from reading so many threads on here it seems a lot of you are punishing yourselfs so much for something that is really not in your control.

I have suffered from anorexia, which turned into bulimia/anorexia and i have only really turned a new leaf in the past few months. i went from a healthy 9 1/5 stone to a scary 7stone and starved myself, exercised myself and then binge/purged for almost 3 years. it was scary and uncontrolable.

I became pregnant despite not having periods on a regualr basis and with a bmi of 16. i managed to control myself for the first 10 weeks mainly because i had horendous morning sickness and couldnt eat. then after that i went back to my old habits. I had been seeing a therapist and getting cbt treatment for 2 years when i became pregnant.

at week 30, i emailed my therapist and said i was no longer going to attend clinic as i wanted to focus on perparing for my little boy's arrival. this scared my husband who felt i would spiral out of control. i have been binge/purge free since the end of June.

I decided i wanted to take control of it and i did. I figured i cant live the rest of my life throwing up. i certainly dont want my habits to rub off onto my son when he gets older. it has been very hard and now i control my eating. there are lots of things i steer clear of. i never allow myself to become over full as this is a major trigger for. My weight is now 9st 2lb which is the lower side of healthy for me but i know i dont want to weigh any less. My mood is better, im no longer hiding in the house and i feel so much healthier for it.

I just want to say that you girls can break through the troubles that you have. Its taken me 3 years to do it and its not easy. Its incredibly hard infact but the sooner u face up to your thoughts and start challenging them, then the sooner you can beat this horrible condition.

I wish all of you biggest amount of luck in the world xxx (sorry for the long email)

 

[Rin731]

Spoiler

Eating burgers with DH on the weekends is making the self loathing worse, esp since I'm sick and can't exercise (chest cold)...

 

[_laura]

Spoiler

I'm restricting again. I'm bingeing/purging. I hate it. I love the feeling afterwards as I feel a million times lighter but I know that I shouldn't be doing it.