I am feeling sorry for myself. I am exhausted as usual because I have developed terrible insomnia lately. This morning dh took our son to hockey the left to help/visit with a friend. I have been alone with the kids since 11 am. My three year old usually naps but he wouldn't today and he has been yelling and screaming all afternoon.
I am glad that dh had a chance to go see his friend. This friend moved to Ireland (we are in Canada) so obviously we don't see him often. The ONLY thing I asked was that dh answer his cell phone when I call. I am 38 weeks tomorrow and I could go into labour at any time. I also have this feeling (and maybe it is silly, but still) that my water will break and I will have 30 minutes or so before baby is born. It is our fourth, and with my third I was 4 cm dilated, my water broke, and then my son was born less than an hour later. I think it is reasonable that now that I am full term, my husband pay special attention to my calls and answer them.
Well, I called tonight (not because I am in labour) and he didn't answer. I called again and nothing. Seriously! He called me about twenty minutes later....not returning my call, mind you, just to say that he wouldn't be home for supper. I told him I had called and that I was annoyed that he didn't answer. He said that his phone was on vibrate and he didn't notice. Grr! Pay attention, dipstick! Turn your phone ON!
He said he would try to be home for bedtime, which I appreciate because our three year old is reluctant to go to bed and often needs to be carried up the stairs. Physically, I just can't do that. But then he called again to say he wouldn't be home after all.
Well, I was just so tired and frustrated and hormonal and feeling overwhelmed that I burst into tears. Which traumatized my 8 year old daughter who immediately starting crying herself. But she told me to go to bed and that she would look after her brothers and take care of them and I should go rest....so not her job and not he worry. I managed to get a grip and apologized, thanked her, and told her that it was ok. We are all watching one more tv show and then bedtime for all of us.
Don't know how to get through to dh about the importance of being in contact. It happened a couple times last week as well. I am seriously feeling that he will miss the birth of our child and I don't think I could forgive that.
Sorry for venting, ladies, but I figured that if anyone might understand, it would be you ladies.
40+5 Tom which is when I had my little boy so fingers crossed this one will also come.
to everyone x
We had a car accident at 5pm ish this evening, a big lorry took our front bumper off and damaged the side of our car. No-one was hurt but I was in shock. 2 hours later I started getting the odd contraction. About 9pm I realised I'd had a few that were pretty sharp - worse than my BH have been. I've been getting them fairly regularly since, they're averaging just under 10 minutes apart. 
Hopefully will get to go home at 5pm ish today.
