hawalkden
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Well ladies here is my weekly Thursday midwife/clinic rant..
Been up since 6 due to sciatica playing up all night and peanut booting me as a wake-up call. Appointment's at 9.10 so thought I'd have a noisy on B&B, got ready had 2 crumpets which I know wouldn't have filled me up even if I was in and out (unlikely I know I'm never just in and out when I see the diabetic team!).
Walking to the bus to get to the hospital and peanut decides it's playtime on my bladder. I get into town and the only place that is open at 7.10 was Co-op and I knew full well the bus ride to the hospital I wouldn't last to go to the toilet so asked someone in Co-op if I could go to their staff toilet which they let me. Advantage of pregnancy eh ! Got this weird achievement I want to do whilst pregnant is to use a policemans hat if nowhere else I could use for the toilet! Random I know..
get to the hospital about 8.45 start reading the paper I though I needed to buy in Co-op, I thought I couldn't just use their toilet and leave! 9.00 came the waiting room gets busy. 9.35 still waiting feels like I'm the only lady who's name has been called out yet!
Finally my name gets called out. I thought I was only seeing the diabetic team but saw the obs team too which I thought great waiting longer when I get thrown back out! Dr does my blood pressure and checks peanuts heart all good. Student midwife takes my urine and its +++ glucoses high I know but first thing for me its always high! Dr pulled his face at that! Then he reads my notes and sees I'm not taking the tinzaparin I've been prescribed. So I get my first lecture of the day about why I should take them. I just ignore everything the said because if I've heard it once off him then I've heard it a million times off everyone else!
Back in the waiting room for about 20 minutes before get called in again. When I go in I have to wait for another Dr to come and see me, me thinking it was the new Diabetic Consultants Reg Dr (I refuse point blank to see the Diabetic Consultant; I had her when I was first diagnosed with Diabetes and was about to go to Kent to be a nanny and she sent to the new Dr down there that I was physiological unstable to look after children! So I wrote to PAL (complaints committee) who didn't get back to me..
whilest waiting in the room who walks in?!?! The Diabetic Consultant who I was on about and I just looked at her and said I refuse to talk to you. You clearly can't read; grabbing my hospital notes closing to the front page; where it says in red on a green post-it note 'Not to been seen by Dr Ramtolla'. Which is who was in front of me!! So I burst out crying because it's like this every week they just can't get the organisation right and I know the medical staff and midwife have millions of other expecting mums in the waiting room and they see millions everyday! But I don't think I'd miss a huge sign on the front of someones notes before opening them..
The Dr walked out and I saw my Diabetic Nurse who I believe should be on the same wage as that stupid Dr just for the pure fact when she ups my ratios and basal rates etc I believe my DSN knows a lot more at what shes talking about and makes it all clear the Consultant just us to take my pump off me change all the rates etc and give it back so I'd be totally confussed but she'd make me out to be thicker then ever because I should have read her mind at what she was doing..
Once DSN started looking my blood diary she smiled and knew I was doing a lot of hardwork e.g putting down the time, blood sugar, carbs and quick-acting insulin intake. The midwife in the room overlooked at the sugars and said I needed them to come down a lot!! Which I'm trying to do! Yes my bloods are running between 10-15 before meals but that to me is ace readings and it's not like I'm not trying to get them down. I've cut down on sweets, sugar in my tea and snacks. I have been doing a lot more thoughout the day to beat the afternoon binging!
Also DSN said after around 27 weeks every pregnant womans hormones make their sugars go up pre-diabetic, non-diabetics whoever it maybe so she was trying to reassure me as much as possible that if it wasn't for the extra hormones my blood would be in single figures. Which made me laugh at the midwife in the room she didn't know what to say back because she was saying I needed to calm down because my blood pressure will end up going to high and I'd end up in hospital sooner. Also at 8.30 when I was waiting I tested my bloods and they were 9.1 when I got out and when to finally get something to eat it was 19.1! So who can work out the maths when it comes to adding up the stress I'm under!
Well when I get a lecture off everyone I see about my diabetes every 2 weeks and not feeling when I go to the antenatal for the 'normal pregnancy' and checks (I do get all the pregnancy checks when I go) but I feel like I'm just on the Diabetic Unit but in the Antenatal Unit! If that makes sense!
My last hba1c was 8.4% and goes down but 0.2% every two weeks! If it wasn't for my DSN I don't think I'd turn up to the clinic at all. Just for the pure fact I can't cope with the stress any more. Every 2 weeks I'm worrying all day before I go and see whoever for the day and then come out crying. Then when I get home I'm taking it out on my OH who's been working all day and he's trying to understand as much as possible about the whole situation etc but he does get frustrated himself for seeing me the way I am. I've slept for the whole afternoon because I'm just so drained.
Sorry for the rant and I hope no one on here thinks I'm just being OTT and think I should make myself lucky for all the 'care' I'm getting. Yes I'm grateful for the nagging in a way when it comes to seeing the diabetic team every two weeks but I feel like when I'm coming out in tears it doesn't help my stress levels at all or blood sugars.
Been up since 6 due to sciatica playing up all night and peanut booting me as a wake-up call. Appointment's at 9.10 so thought I'd have a noisy on B&B, got ready had 2 crumpets which I know wouldn't have filled me up even if I was in and out (unlikely I know I'm never just in and out when I see the diabetic team!).
Walking to the bus to get to the hospital and peanut decides it's playtime on my bladder. I get into town and the only place that is open at 7.10 was Co-op and I knew full well the bus ride to the hospital I wouldn't last to go to the toilet so asked someone in Co-op if I could go to their staff toilet which they let me. Advantage of pregnancy eh ! Got this weird achievement I want to do whilst pregnant is to use a policemans hat if nowhere else I could use for the toilet! Random I know..
get to the hospital about 8.45 start reading the paper I though I needed to buy in Co-op, I thought I couldn't just use their toilet and leave! 9.00 came the waiting room gets busy. 9.35 still waiting feels like I'm the only lady who's name has been called out yet!
Finally my name gets called out. I thought I was only seeing the diabetic team but saw the obs team too which I thought great waiting longer when I get thrown back out! Dr does my blood pressure and checks peanuts heart all good. Student midwife takes my urine and its +++ glucoses high I know but first thing for me its always high! Dr pulled his face at that! Then he reads my notes and sees I'm not taking the tinzaparin I've been prescribed. So I get my first lecture of the day about why I should take them. I just ignore everything the said because if I've heard it once off him then I've heard it a million times off everyone else!
Back in the waiting room for about 20 minutes before get called in again. When I go in I have to wait for another Dr to come and see me, me thinking it was the new Diabetic Consultants Reg Dr (I refuse point blank to see the Diabetic Consultant; I had her when I was first diagnosed with Diabetes and was about to go to Kent to be a nanny and she sent to the new Dr down there that I was physiological unstable to look after children! So I wrote to PAL (complaints committee) who didn't get back to me..
whilest waiting in the room who walks in?!?! The Diabetic Consultant who I was on about and I just looked at her and said I refuse to talk to you. You clearly can't read; grabbing my hospital notes closing to the front page; where it says in red on a green post-it note 'Not to been seen by Dr Ramtolla'. Which is who was in front of me!! So I burst out crying because it's like this every week they just can't get the organisation right and I know the medical staff and midwife have millions of other expecting mums in the waiting room and they see millions everyday! But I don't think I'd miss a huge sign on the front of someones notes before opening them..
The Dr walked out and I saw my Diabetic Nurse who I believe should be on the same wage as that stupid Dr just for the pure fact when she ups my ratios and basal rates etc I believe my DSN knows a lot more at what shes talking about and makes it all clear the Consultant just us to take my pump off me change all the rates etc and give it back so I'd be totally confussed but she'd make me out to be thicker then ever because I should have read her mind at what she was doing..
Once DSN started looking my blood diary she smiled and knew I was doing a lot of hardwork e.g putting down the time, blood sugar, carbs and quick-acting insulin intake. The midwife in the room overlooked at the sugars and said I needed them to come down a lot!! Which I'm trying to do! Yes my bloods are running between 10-15 before meals but that to me is ace readings and it's not like I'm not trying to get them down. I've cut down on sweets, sugar in my tea and snacks. I have been doing a lot more thoughout the day to beat the afternoon binging!
Also DSN said after around 27 weeks every pregnant womans hormones make their sugars go up pre-diabetic, non-diabetics whoever it maybe so she was trying to reassure me as much as possible that if it wasn't for the extra hormones my blood would be in single figures. Which made me laugh at the midwife in the room she didn't know what to say back because she was saying I needed to calm down because my blood pressure will end up going to high and I'd end up in hospital sooner. Also at 8.30 when I was waiting I tested my bloods and they were 9.1 when I got out and when to finally get something to eat it was 19.1! So who can work out the maths when it comes to adding up the stress I'm under!
Well when I get a lecture off everyone I see about my diabetes every 2 weeks and not feeling when I go to the antenatal for the 'normal pregnancy' and checks (I do get all the pregnancy checks when I go) but I feel like I'm just on the Diabetic Unit but in the Antenatal Unit! If that makes sense!
My last hba1c was 8.4% and goes down but 0.2% every two weeks! If it wasn't for my DSN I don't think I'd turn up to the clinic at all. Just for the pure fact I can't cope with the stress any more. Every 2 weeks I'm worrying all day before I go and see whoever for the day and then come out crying. Then when I get home I'm taking it out on my OH who's been working all day and he's trying to understand as much as possible about the whole situation etc but he does get frustrated himself for seeing me the way I am. I've slept for the whole afternoon because I'm just so drained.
Sorry for the rant and I hope no one on here thinks I'm just being OTT and think I should make myself lucky for all the 'care' I'm getting. Yes I'm grateful for the nagging in a way when it comes to seeing the diabetic team every two weeks but I feel like when I'm coming out in tears it doesn't help my stress levels at all or blood sugars.