Anyone waiting to try for their last baby and feel like this?

[Mamamumum]

Hi so I currently have 3 children who are 5, 2 and 1. We will be having one more child and then we will be *done* (I'll be getting a copper coil fitted as long term contraception and using condoms around O).
I feel very conflicted about this last baby though, and when to TTC. I had planned on waiting until next Dec/Jan time so that when the baby is born my youngest will be nearly 2 and a half, so close enough for them to be playmates but not so close it would be like having 2 babies if that makes sense? But I honestly feel so sad that it will be my last that I sort of want to hang it out for as long as possible in a weird way. When I think about it I don't want to be done with pregnancies and births and babies yet I was sure I would feel done after our 4th but I'm scared that I won't and that I'll just be massivly unhappy to say goodbye to all that. Packing away baby clothes for the last time, passing on the baby toys, not hanging onto things "for next time" again. But on the other hand I don't want a huge gap between my 2 youngest and for the littlest to sort of be on their own if that makes sense? There's a I have 3 older siblings and the youngest one is 5yrs older than me so I've sort of always been "the baby" and a bit left out when we were younger. I don't even know if any of this is making sense?!

 

[happycupcake]

Yes! I'm not in your position but I know what you mean. We not long had a baby (my fourth, our sixth between us) and I definitely don't feel done having children. I was so sure this would be our last and I wouldn't be bothered when we first started to ttc but once we found out we were expecting I didn't feel so sure and I know now he's here I want more. However I don't know if we had another, how happy I would be to call it a day. Which sounds crazy. Most think we are nuts for having this many but I love having them! If we decided to go for it I understand your wanting to stretch it out because that would be your last, but personally I think I would want to do things sooner than later because having this one didn't happen overnight and I'm not getting any younger, and I would like a small age gap

 

[alibaba24]

I can understand this sadness. After my second child was born I was convinced I was done and gave everything away . And she is now 5 and I feel I am not "done" anymore . I miss everything about pregnancy and babies . I'm now 34 and a single parent and not only feel too old for another baby but have no relationship