So, I'm really struggling. When we we're ttc our DD it took a long time. The month I conceived was the month I got my weight below 190lbs for the first time in over a year. I gained only 25lbs with the pregnancy and lost it all through anxiety immediately following birth. Then nursing really kicked in and I gained 15 back. I got back to prebaby weight while my.husband was away in Korea but now that he's home, I've gained it all back (he has terrible habits bc he can eat whatever and not gain). Now I keep telling myself I'll never get pregnant again if I don't lose the weight again. I've struggled with body image for a long time and my husband gets upset when I talk to him about it because he genuinely loves and finds me beautiful no matter my size. I'm getting back to clean eating this week and I'm going to make it a goal to walk every day but I'm terrified I'll never keep the weight off and I'll never get pregnant again because of it. Sorry for ranting on and on I don't have anyone else.tomsay this stuff too. My only close gf got weightloss surgery to help with her pcos and has lost like 40 pounds in 3 months and her einam stuck at 200 pounds and 5'8". Indealt with anorexia in middle and high school and have to be very careful with restrictive diets or over exercise bc it's so easy to slip back.into that unhealthy mindset. I'm healthy. Physical recently showed that. Why can't I just.love myself the way I am?