donkey13
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Let me start out by saying that i swear im not as crazy/angry/jealous as im about to sound. i swear im relatively normal.
My big brother (who i adore) just got married last weekend to a girl that i had never met. ouch, right? theyd only been dating 3 months, it felt right, yada yada yada. I cant be mad; weve always been impulsive. Granted, i just dye my hair or buy some ridiculous shoes, but ya know....same general trait.a
Hes 37 with two teenage children ( 17 and 19) and she is .....23. almost 6 years younger than me. i do not begrudge them the age difference at all; i truly believe that its a number. at first i thought pregnancy cuz...um...hello, babies are on my mind 24/7. that wasnt the case, after seeing them together i can completely understand and have no problem with that either.
today he let it slip that he thinks shes pregnant.
he doesnt know that we are ttc. i know he had NO plans to have kids again.
im completely destroyed and nothing has been confirmed; imagine how ill be when i find out that i will get to be an aunt for the 18th frickin time before i get to be a mother for the first?! i know its petty of me, but im so jealous, and i keep thinking its because shes younger or not overweight, or not just some weird hormonal mystery like me. im already trying to figure out how ill be able even be around them if they are.
its just....ARG. Are you kidding me? not only did he not want any more kids, hes got the same damn dna as me! why is it so easy for him? both of his kids were conceived almost immediately...and if she is pregnant, theyve known each other for less time than my husband and i have been ttc! why are my genes the crappy ones? like i said...17 nieces and nephews.
everyone of my siblings has AT LEAST 2 kids, one sis has 5! STUPID STORK!
My big brother (who i adore) just got married last weekend to a girl that i had never met. ouch, right? theyd only been dating 3 months, it felt right, yada yada yada. I cant be mad; weve always been impulsive. Granted, i just dye my hair or buy some ridiculous shoes, but ya know....same general trait.a
Hes 37 with two teenage children ( 17 and 19) and she is .....23. almost 6 years younger than me. i do not begrudge them the age difference at all; i truly believe that its a number. at first i thought pregnancy cuz...um...hello, babies are on my mind 24/7. that wasnt the case, after seeing them together i can completely understand and have no problem with that either.
today he let it slip that he thinks shes pregnant.
he doesnt know that we are ttc. i know he had NO plans to have kids again.
im completely destroyed and nothing has been confirmed; imagine how ill be when i find out that i will get to be an aunt for the 18th frickin time before i get to be a mother for the first?! i know its petty of me, but im so jealous, and i keep thinking its because shes younger or not overweight, or not just some weird hormonal mystery like me. im already trying to figure out how ill be able even be around them if they are.
its just....ARG. Are you kidding me? not only did he not want any more kids, hes got the same damn dna as me! why is it so easy for him? both of his kids were conceived almost immediately...and if she is pregnant, theyve known each other for less time than my husband and i have been ttc! why are my genes the crappy ones? like i said...17 nieces and nephews.
everyone of my siblings has AT LEAST 2 kids, one sis has 5! STUPID STORK!