I´m 35 and TTC not for long, but every month seems sooo long, waiting for and preparing for just some hours ovulation. I see myself obssesed, reading a lot about fertility signs, what to eat, what not to eat...
It´s like, 14 days of hope...then period comes and it´s like "oh..man..noooo". A bit of disappointment, and then waiting 14 days for ovulation to come. And like that, month after month.
Then I don´t tell anybody, because it would be more pressure, people asking all the time. So it´s great this forum where we all can share.
Sometimes I´m ok, but many other times I feel so worried, thinking that I´m too old, that it might never happen, but however I had never imagined my life with no children. But I have to be positive and not be obsessed, but...that is sooo hard.
Now I´m in the "hope phase", waiting for my period NOT to come. And this time, I have a feeling, this is the one! Then I ask myself: "Why this time? What makes you have that feeling? You just want to feel it that way..."
And so and so on
It´s like, 14 days of hope...then period comes and it´s like "oh..man..noooo". A bit of disappointment, and then waiting 14 days for ovulation to come. And like that, month after month.
Then I don´t tell anybody, because it would be more pressure, people asking all the time. So it´s great this forum where we all can share.
Sometimes I´m ok, but many other times I feel so worried, thinking that I´m too old, that it might never happen, but however I had never imagined my life with no children. But I have to be positive and not be obsessed, but...that is sooo hard.
Now I´m in the "hope phase", waiting for my period NOT to come. And this time, I have a feeling, this is the one! Then I ask myself: "Why this time? What makes you have that feeling? You just want to feel it that way..."
And so and so on