hey everyone. ive missed so much. congrats on the births, not been able to look through everything since i last posted because i was sent back to hospital on 4th. baby is fine. hes doing better than me. my midwife came out to check on us both, but my blood pressure rocketed again. so she sent me to an emergency doctor and he referred me straight to the hospital (HDU). i had to have more blood pressure checks, blood tests to check everything, temp checks etc, and omg i had to have a catheta put back in to keep an eye on my urine intake/outtake, it was horrible. im still bruised from the blood tests when i was first in hospital. anyway, i had to stay in. i stayed in HDU for 24hours, they put me on Nifedipine 10mg to stablize my blood pressure. i constantly got woken up for checks etc, and i had around 4-5 doctors coming in at like 3am to talk crap about things, i felt like a freak show, i just wanted to rest. then in the morning when my husband turned up with my son to visit me the doctors and midwives wouldnt give me straight answers about if i could go home or not, or if the tablets were working or not. then about 4pm came and they told me i could go up to the ward finally but have to stay in for another 24hours at least to check if the tablets were actually working. i got put into a side room so i was grateful coz it wouldnt be fair putting me on a ward with mothers and babies when i have to watch my son go home without me. but they left the crib in the room all night and day with me, i felt so emotional looking at an empty crib, i just wanted to get home to my baby. how can i bond with him when hes not with me.....but obviously the doctors/midwives dont care about that. well i carried on having my blood pressure checked all night and morning, i carried on taking my tablets and then finally at 10am yesterday i was told i could go home and take some tablets with me. i waited 3 hours for my paperwork to be finished......annoying!!!! as soon as i got home i just went straight to my boy, he looked peaceful but i just wanted to hold him. i missed him so much. last night was so nice to be back with my husband, getting cuddles instead of lying in a bed alone. was strange waking up to cries and then having to feed my baby but eventually i got used to it. midwife came to check my blood pressure this afternoon and its ok, she didnt have the right cuff size for my arm so it was higher than it would have been with the right cuff but shes made a note of that in my maternity book, shes hoping to get the right size for tomorrow. i hope she does because i dont want to go back in to hospital. i WILL NOT leave my lil family again. i know these tablets are working. i have to take them for 7 days then have 2 days off them and then see my doctor on the 16th to have a chat about my blood pressure and the tablets. in the meantime i have a midwife coming out to me every day. i wanted to register the baby on 10th but looks like i cant now because i have to wait in for the midwife, they never tell you what time theyre coming and they dont even call before they turn up. its frustrating. i havent been out the house since 29th july, the only times ive seen the outside world is when i look out the window or each time i had to get in/out a car to and from the hospital. not exactly nice being in. i dont want to end up depressed. so i think i will have to have a little walk out there soon, even if its just to the park for abit.
anyway, im off now. long post over again lol. my husband is watching a football match, his team are playing. theyve just scored and hes just shouted with excitement lol, but the baby just jumped......bless him. ive gave him a warning to stay quiet-ish.
oh i forgot to mention, the reason my blood pressure had rocketed is because i now have severe post partum pre-eclampsia....sucks. i didnt realize how ill i was until i came home because of how different i feel now. i guess you just dont like to admit how ill you are but it can come back to bite you in the ass....pride is such a bad thing sometimes.