BFN Wondfo, BFN frer, super faint line on Wally? **10dpo smu bfns**

[flipporama1]

Nothing but bfns this morning. I'll let you know when AF shoes. She is due m/t

Dobby

 

[Bevziibubble]

 

[DobbyForever]

I'm done. I can't do this anymore.

 

[DobbyForever]

It's been 363 days since my bfp with the twins. 11 cycles. 9 of those fighting with SO to try again, 2 trying our best. Our relationship is suffering, I'm suffering, and it isn't fair and I can't keep doing this. I'm so tired

 

[BethMaassen]

Dobby

I am so sorry this has been so hard for you. I really do hope AF does not show.

 

[Titusmomma]

I'm so sorry you are going through this.
It took us 4 years to conceive our son. In that time I never had a bfp or anything close to it. But the same feelings: tired emotionally drained, scared, frustrated... No matter how long or short, ttc is stressful and no one can be prepared for the roller coaster it may take them.
I hope you and dh can find a middle ground that will help with whatever direction you choose.

 

[flipporama1]

I'm so sorry Dobby. I wish there was something I could say or do to make it all better I wish you luck and all the baby dust in the world and I hope you get your BFP really soon.

 

[DobbyForever]

Thank you. I just don't think I can try again. Maybe one more cycle. I'll test with fmu but if that pops up bfn then i'd expect AF to come. I know some women get late bfps. I am not one of those women. A bfn at 11dpo means I'm out

 

[Andi86]

Thank you. I just don't think I can try again. Maybe one more cycle. I'll test with fmu but if that pops up bfn then i'd expect AF to come. I know some women get late bfps. I am not one of those women. A bfn at 11dpo means I'm out

Im sorry Dobby this cycle isn't over yet though! Don't loose hope. Have you been to a fertility specialist? Just curious if there is other possible options for you after so many losses and trying for so long.

 

[DobbyForever]

No. All of my losses were random health anomalies. So they were explained but statistically you would think one person wouldn't go through that. Two were cysts (ovarian and uterine) that didn't resolve. One was pregnancy after contraceptive. The twins were the first like no clear answer loss. After that my cycles became very odd. I had my first anovulatory cycle. Lps being a day short it a day long. O ranging anywhere from cd 11 to cd 20+... Weird bleeds and pains. But every test and scan comes back negative. The weird bleeds and pain went away a few cycles ago though. She just says keep trying for now and that it takes time after a loss. The other thing is I hit a long, hard episode of maniac depression after the twins that I only recently pulled out of. So my psychiatrist doesn't even think I am ready to ttc, not that it is any of her business.

 

[BlueMoonBubba]

I'm so sorry you're going through this Dobby x

I wish I can say something to make you feel better, we are only given what we can handle and this may be a test for you in which the result will be something spectacular. Your turn will come very soon I hope, in the meantime look after yourself, I'm here if you ever want to vent

 

[DobbyForever]

I talked to SO and trying is too stressful. Losing the twins, the months of nightmares, then finally getting on board. We exhausted ourselves bding and didn't fall. All for something he didn't really want to begin with (he had bad family trauma) so he's put vasectomy back on the table for discussion.

 

[Spudtastic]

Dobby - I've been thinking about you. Another friend is going through the same thing. Have you thought about testing for the mthfr gene. I don't really know much about it but apparently it can cause miscarriages. Also maybe pcos with your odd cycles. I think you can do something specifically for both to keep a pregnancy. It's such a hard and disheartening time.

 

[DobbyForever]

AF finally showed. Either 4 days late or on time if my opks were wrong (FF moved my crosshairs) so oh well ty though!

 

[BethMaassen]

AF finally showed. Either 4 days late or on time if my opks were wrong (FF moved my crosshairs) so oh well ty though!

Been thinking about you. I really had hoped AF would not show for you.

 

[Bevziibubble]

So sorry Dobby