BFP with or without Soy Iso after a Loss!!!!!

[truthbtold]

You have your doppler poppy as long as you hear her heartbeat she is fine.

 

[spellfairy]

U have ur heartbeat thats enough pet. X docs said my baby died week or more inside i do rem him kickin me on the thurs night as i was on a over night ferry and i found it strange. I gave birth following thurs mornin i wish i d had a doppler as i knew movement was less i just turned up music and shone a torch to my belly. Poppy pet u have a lazy wee girl like my dd x

 

[poppy666]

Thanks and yes im so glad i have a doppler Feel like you get from one stage of worrying 1st Tri then you more straight into another, just horrible and scary. Think once you suffered a loss your not so naive to think everything is ok till your holding your baby

Sorry didnt want to bring the thread down just bit edgy atm x

 

[truthbtold]

Your fine poppy that's what we are here for!

 

[poppy666]

Thanks Truth think i need to keep away from some threads lol. Was just thinking of Glowstar hope she's ok x

 

[Brynden]

I hope she's okay too!!

 

[hollyw79]

Aww Poppy~ that IS scary! My doc said the same thing~ you're never safe until that baby is in your arms! I believe it will be ok for you hun!

truth~ that's awesome that you were able to hear the h/b with the doppler :happdance:

I had my first appt. with my OB today.. it was *SO*SO*SO* good to see him. He is hands down the sweetest and most compassionate doctor I've ever met in my life. It went very well.. my uterus is measuring at 9 weeks already which I will be tomorrow which is great..

he also said my uterus is super retroverted- which means- the doppler is NOT going to work for me as soon as it will for others. He said he might have tried to find it but with it being so retroverted~ it'd probably be impossible at this point. I thought that was interesting to know.. so I guess the doppler is going to stay in the box for me for at least another week or 2 before I try again. SUCKS!!!! Now I actually REALLY want to use the doppler knowing that I can't quite yet!

My next u/s will be a nuchal scan @ 12 weeks. I'm happy that I only have 3 weeks to wait. He also said that bc I was low on amniotic fluid in my pregnancy with my son~ that I'll get more scans than average which I thought was AWESOME I'm ALL about seeing the baby as often as I can!

On a funny- or not so funny note- I stepped on the scale and I know I weigh around 150 pounds.. so I put the bottom bar of the scale to the 150 while I was waiting for the nurse to come over.. well, she came over right when I did and slid the thing all the way to like 187 and I NEAR DIED. My heart stopped for a second and I was like "DANG, I Know I haven't been exercising and probably could eat more fruits and veggies but HOLY SHIT!" Turns out STUPID ME had not put it in the indentation thing properly which was causing it do that... errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I had a MAJOR WTF moment there! PHEW! So, I'm not 187.. a smidgen higher than 150.. still not happy with some of the weight gain~ but what can ya do I'm trying not to care!

Other than that~ it went well.. so I'm glad .. and I'm ELATED to be back @ my OB's again. Still hoping and praying up the wazoo that things are still going well!

 

[debzie]

Poppy dont worry about not feeling your little girl I agree she is just being lazy one of these days she will give you a kick. Two of my friend know they are having girls and i asked them they said they were both turned 20 weeks before they felt anything. One is 25 weeks the other 24 weeks now and you can see thier bumps move now.

Holly glad you are back with your ob.

Truth must be so wonderful to hear the hb.

I'm paranoid again. Started spotting again last night red this time then brown this morning. Trying to just tell myself it was just because oh and i had just Dtd. Now don't know weather just to wait and see orgo back to the docs. The other thing is its again exactly when i would have ovulated just like the last time. With emily i spotted until 10 weeks.

Edit
Bleeding continues today and had turned pink/red with some cramps. Contacted Midwife and have been booked in for a scan for monday morning 9am, cant come soon enough. Feels soo worried now. Why does life have to be so cruel.

 

[Brynden]

Debzie!! Really hope that bleeding settles down - try not to worry too much till you know anything for sure!

 

[poppy666]

Debz with my last LO everytime i dtd i bled and found out at 20wk i had a low lying placenta so i stopped dtd till it moved at 32wks, fx'd for monday sweetie

 

[debzie]

Thanks ladies.
Just hope it is down to Dtd and the pains are just growing pains. X

 

[Glowstar]

Debzie...I hope the spotting stops...it's an awful feeling and I am sending you my prayers.

Well AFM - I nearly died last night, I was literally on deaths doorstep. I was so petrified and thankful to the nurses who fought to bring me back. It started about tea time yesterday. I went to my sisters, only a short drive away and my bleeding was managable with little pain. Not long after getting there the bleeding started and poured and poured and huge clots. Filled 4 pads and then some in 20 mins. My sister was crying worried. Luckily she lives close to a hospital. We went to a&e and didn't have to wait. Seen straight away by gynae who panicked and had to get the head registrar who decided I needed a more specialist gynae unit and would need theatre. I had so many injections, internals fluids, they had to weigh the pads underneath me to gauge loss of blood. I was then transferred by ambulance blue lights and all to another hospital. Steve followed in his car. When they got me on the ward the head consultant came to see me and things happened so fast, my heart went down to 30bpm and my BP dropped to the floor, according to Steve I stopped responding and then convulsing.
The whole ward rushed to my bed, oxygen, more fluids. I vaguely remember someone saying my name over and over. Within 30 minutes I was in theatre for a d&c. I'm now on morphine and on my 3rd bag of blood to replace what I lost. In an hour my haemoglobin went from 14 to 6. Now signed off work for a week.
I have been told today by the nurses and the head registrar at Manchester Royal that someone must have been watching over me and all other emergency cases were pushed to the side as I was in a life threatening condition. I am not sure how to deal with the trauma of losing my baby and almost dying in the process. This will take some time to get over

 

[poppy666]

OMG Glowstar i cant even imagine what you been through and going through, im just glad to hear your still with us and alive, but so so sorry for your loss

 

[debzie]

Omg glowstar you certainly don't do things by halves do you. so glad you are still with us. X

So so sorry for your loss someone was definatly looking after you last night. To begin with it is hard but believe me it does get better. The miscarriage association are fantastic as are the lovely ladies on here. As for your near death experience ask the ward if there are any counselling services. Sometimes asking for a read through your medical notes or asking someone who treated you exactly what happened helps you come to terms with it. We are all here for you hun. Rest up and take care. x

 

[spellfairy]

Glowstar hugs hugs and more. I am soooooo sorry and have been thinking about u a lot xxx glad u are ok thou pet x

 

[hollyw79]

glowstar~ MASSIVE, MASSIVE hugs! I am so incredibly sorry for this entire ordeal that you've had to go through~ my heart goes out to you hun! I'm SO glad you made it through my dear!

 

[spellfairy]

Hope ur ok glowstar x x x sending u hugs x x x

 

[truthbtold]

So sorry you had to go through that Glowstar, my prayers are with you.

 

[truthbtold]

Happy 19 weeks Poppy seems like yesterday you got your BFP!

 

[poppy666]

I know Truth its going pretty fast, think when i got my BFP i was more in a daze over those nerve wracking weeks to notice, but yes after 12wk ish it goes quicker.

Hows you?