I dreamed I was breastfeeding my baby for the first time, in a park in a little town. Even in the dream I was so bewildered. I didn't know how to hold the kid, and its mouth was so small compared to my nipple. Those are two of the things I'm most afraid of in reality. I was successful in the dream, by some miracle, but the baby would only take a few sucks at a time and so it was going on forever. I didn't mind, but...I felt so, so weird. I still do, and I've been awake for an hour. I feel like I did something obscene. And I feel weirdly incomplete, like my body was convinced it was real. This is so bizarre.