bring on baby!! Welcome!!!

[bexxc]

that's good. any way you can close your eyes and get a little rest?

 

[annie00]

I slept from 6 to 11 so I'm good now..
She only threw up last night a little bit but I been writing everything down everything she eats n throws up so I can show the dr

 

[annie00]

How u feeling??

 

[bexxc]

that's great that you're keeping a record. that will be really helpful! good call.

my back is hurting today. think i'm going to spend some time on the exercise ball and see if that helps a bit. otherwise, everything is good. we have our u/s and nst tomorrow morning.

 

[bexxc]

that's great that you got so much sleep!!!! was lance up to feed her?

 

[annie00]

No he wasn't she didn't wake up to eat till 11:30 ..

Hope that helps..

 

[bexxc]

wow...i'm surprised she slept that long between feedings!

 

[annie00]

Yea she was tired bc she didn't sleep all night

 

[bexxc]

poor little lady!

 

[bexxc]

how's lance holding up?

 

[hopestruck]

Hi ladies!

Well I just wanted to update you... I think I am having a chemical I haven't started bleeding or anything, but we went out yesterday and I got another FRER...just wasn't feeling right about this pregnancy (despite tons of symptoms )...and sure enough, it was really faint Still a line, but it was definitely lighter than the ones I took on Wednesday and Thursday. I'm guessing my HCG is less than 50 now... so I will probably start to bleed within a few days. I stopped the progesterone last night too - no point in continuing.

Sooo, that's that. Definitely a bummer, but to be totally honest I am *glad* that it's happening (hopefully) sooner rather than later. Nothing worse than having your hopes built up for weeks to find out it wasn't going to happen. With any luck it will be over within the next few days and I can move on and go for my HSG. To be honest I'm surprised I haven't had a chemical yet, given how quickly and frequently we get pregnant.

 

[bexxc]

i'm so sorry, hope. this just isn't fair. i hope your fs will start looking more aggressively into causes and treatments. i wish i could say something to make you feel better.

 

[hopestruck]

Thanks Bex Honestly, it's OK. As I said I am glad to know sooner rather than later. For me this is not the same as other losses... just like a late period/long cycle. It is a blessing not to have my hopes built up. Yep, I think I have a good case to make with my FS now. I am going to ask him directly if we can use prednisone and heparin.

I will keep you posted if/when I start bleeding. I have my doc appt with my GP tomorrow, so we'll see what he says. He may want me to go for a beta just to confirm low levels. I'm hoping it will start on its own soon...don't really want to go down the misoprostol route, but I would if it meant it would be over sooner rather than later.

 

[bexxc]

i just wish you didn't have to go through this. when you find out your pregnant, i think it's totally normal to be worried, but nobody should ever be in a position where they automatically assume the worst.

 

[hopestruck]

Agree. Jamie and I had a long talk the other night that basically said, "Why us?" How the heck do so many dysfunctional, unhealthy, unloving, unreceptive people get pregnant without a worry in the world? Why can't we just have a *normal* pregnancy for *once* in our lives? Of course, there are no answers to these questions... I dunno. We're at the point where we've accepted that we are living with RPL, and that it is going to take us longer than other people to have a baby. At least accepting it helps us temper our expectations. You're right though, it just isn't fair.

 

[bexxc]

that's the most frustrating thing about fertility issues. you see so many people around you getting pregnant and seeing people that don't "deserve" (for lack of a better word) to get pregnant having it come so easily. at one point when we were ttc, there was a rash of cases of mothers killing their babies in california in the most horrendous ways and it just ripped me apart seeing stories like that. how did those people get babies just to kill them???

 

[hopestruck]

definitely. I feel fortunate to have you and Annie to confide in about this because it's hard for other people to relate to how bone-deep those frustrations can go.

 

[annie00]

Wow hope I'm so very sorry.. I agree with u about how people shoul have a license to breed kinda thing...
I feel the same way about why us with we having a hard time with her eating and her birth marks etc etc..

Maybe u r just earlier than u thought..
Since ur not bleeding that's a good thing right?!

Man at 11;30 she got down two ounces and didnt threw up.. Well at 3:00 she ate 2 ounces n threw up again.. Ughh all I wanna do is cry why can't my baby girl stomach her food.. I'm a worried wreck..

 

[bexxc]

maybe the specialist will be able to give you some insight. perhaps her digestive system is just still maturing because she was born a little on the early side. is she getting a good burp out after her feedings?

 

[annie00]

Yea I burp after every ounce.. Maybe in gonna try every half ounce..

If she keeps threwing up tonight n tomorrow I'm gonna call her dr again tomorrow morning .. Something is deff not right..