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[Sunnyleah]

Sabaster, hang in there! You've got a great attitude and you will succeed one day . I often repeat the mantra "I will be a mother" when feeling hopeless.....

As mentioned earlier, first day of bleeding is cycle day 1 but many women don't ovulate the first cycle....did the doctor mention waiting or are you trying right away?

 

[Sabster]

No he didn't say much.. I kinda ran out of there as soon as he told me. It was by far one of the worst experiences of my life. I am supposed to go back tomorrow for another HgC test but I'm not going to go because I'll have to wait in the ER and I am not in any sort of condition to be waiting for 5 hours beside the maternity ward nonetheless... I have an appointment with my doc on tuesday so I will ask her all the questions..

For now im home and I have no intention of leaving my cave. My mom is trying to convince me to go to ottawa on monday but I dont feel like it. I know it would be good but we'll see.

I know I will be a mom one day and I know i have to challenge myself. Im just really grateful taht I have my lovely boyfriend. hes my rock he truly is, as much as I bitch about him, he's my partner. We have been through sooo much together and I honestly can say that we are really growing together as a couple, its really amazing.

 

[Sabster]

And I think I'll see how I feel and take it from there. Im going to the healthfood store tomorrow to get some supplements to help me with the miscarriage and then Im going o stay clear of caffeine and alcohol since I had already started that. I think it will make a huge difference. I just need to reboot my system.

Im going to start temping tomorrow I know I will prolly not ovulate or it will be whacky but I want to feel some control.. at last with my pink thermometer!

 

[Sunnyleah]

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If you don't want another hcg my doctor suggested an early response at home test. Just as good. With my chemical she said wait a few days then take another hpt to ensure levels were dropping. If the line gets darker (or still there after a a week) then get checked out.

Do what feels right for you both with trying again and getting out. I spent a week at home. Alternated between needing distractions (mostly movies) and crying.

 

[Sabster]

Yes, crying helps a lot, and I also do chanting because I am part of a buddhist group and that really helps... My friend wants to meet up today, So im going to go I think... although I would much rather stay home and CLEAN. that's therapy for me, CLEAN EVERYTHING. lool

anyways, we'll see. I think we will try right away as soon as I stop bleedingand the soreness goes down. it sucks because I would have loved to have sex!! that alaways makesme feel better

 

[Sunnyleah]

I hope this passes for you quickly . You'll be pregnant again before you know it

 

[Starry Night]

Happy Canada Day everyone! We spent the morning watching the town's parade. It went right past our house which was nice. I'm missing out on the actual fair as the heat is making DS a grump but we should be able to catch the fireworks tonight. DH is at the fair as he is helping with the cotton candy stand.

 

[Sunnyleah]

Yes! HAPPY CANADA DAY

 

[Kasey84]

Happy Canada Day to all! Hope everyone found a way to enjoy the day! With any luck we'll all be enjoying next Canada Day with our own little ones

 

[Kasey84]

So AF arrived today I'm feeling so discouraged and getting worried that something may be wrong. I never thought it would be this hard and we just want a baby so badly. Every time AF shows or I get a bfn my heart breaks and I keep thinking when will it be my turn!?

Throwing myself a little pity party now and just needed to vent!

How is everyone else?

 

[Sunny skies]

Kasey, sorry about the witch. I know how you feel, last December I convinced myself I was pregnant and when AF arrived I was shocked, angry and worried. That was my breaking point. I called my doctor and got a referral to the fertility Centre as I just needed answers. Hang in there.

AFM, I got some bad news yesterday. I did ovulate 3 follicles from my tubeless side, unfortunately my DH's SA results are worse than the last one. Looks likes my best and possibly only chance to conceive is IVF with ICSI. I'm devastated that my chance for a natural pregnancy is like 1 percent. Not going to bother with iui at this point. I think I may take a break. Emotionally we are exhausted. DH and I need to talk about this as we'll need to save up and decide if we are ready for this step.

 

[Kasey84]

Sunny skies- I'm so sorry you got that bad news. This all really does take an emotional toll! If a break is what you need then definitely take one. Whatever path you decide to take, I wish you the best of luck and I hope the end result is a baby in your arms in the very near future

Sending big hugs!

 

[Starry Night]

Sunny skies - I am so sorry for your news. It really is a big decision to make. I hope you and your DH can find peace in whatever you decide.

Kasey - sorry that AF caught you. It's so hard when we keep having to wait.

AFM - actually have the opportunity to switch doctors which is such a rare occurrence here in Canada...especially in a rural area. But we're getting a new GP and she actually has a special interest in maternity care. I'm tired of getting the "there is nothing we can do, see you at 12 weeks" sort of response I've been getting. My current doctor seems like a nice guy but I don't think the relationship is working.

 

[Sunnyleah]

Kasey- sorry the got you . How long have you been trying now??

Sunnyskies- that news sucks . DH and I are thinking of visiting the fertility clinic in September if not pg but its a thin line... Testing lets you know where you stand but then so many other issues and decisions to make. Good luck in your journey whatever road you take.


Starry night- I'm glad you're getting a new doctor! Reoccurent mc is an issue and there are lots of reasons why it happens and lots of ways to prevent.... My doctor said after 5 weeks there's a lot they can do (my chemical was at 4 weeks) and even repeat chemicals can be treated.... Can't save it once it starts but testing should show why it's occurring. Good luck!!

AFM - I believe I o'd yesterday (cd 21) although not temping.... Cm etc. plus I cheated and temped the last three days (random times) and last two days super low and this am up almost 1/2 degree Celsius. Yay. Let the TWW begin.... Again....

 

[Starry Night]

Sunnyleah - I hope the TWW passes quickly for you and ends with a bfp! This crazy ttc roller coaster has got to end for you some time. Maybe this is the month!

I called the new doctor but she can't see me until the end of September. Gotta love our health care system. Yeesh. So I could potentially be switching doctors whilst pregnant if I catch first cycle (yeah right...but a girl can dream). My current doctor seems nice enough but I think the main issue is a language barrier. He is from Pakistan and his accent is really, really thick. And I don't think he completely understands me either. He did send me off for a referral to a fertility clinic but his own stance is "there is nothing we can do in first trimester" which I know isn't entirely true. Even if I'm being overseen by specialists, I would like a GP who has at least a basic understanding of the issues and can work alongside them as s/he is the one I'm going to be seeing the most. The specialists will be an 1 1/2 hour drive away and my GP only 30 minutes.

 

[Sunny skies]

Starry night, sorry bout your doctor situation, but I agree you need someone who you trust and is on your side. Too bad the specialist is so far but maybe it's worth the drive. Good luck.

Sunnyleah, I hope you can avoid a fertility centre and get your BFP soon. Do you know where you would go if you need to go that route in September.

 

[Starry Night]

In Manitoba all the specialists are in Winnipeg. It's just how it is, unfortunately. But you quickly get used to the commute. My DS' paediatrician is in the city and he is worth the drive.

 

[Sunnyleah]

Starry night- that is a drive!! Our doctor is in our neiborhood. DH and I have walked there in under 10 minutes. VERY LUCKY. she is great! It's a group of doctors too so even if I can't see my doctor I can get in same day if needed and after hours is available. With my first pregnancy I had my monthly check ups after work at like 7 pm..... Best doctor I've had since leaving my hometown!!

As for fertility clinics Sunnyskies I believe there is one either in my city (Oakville) or nearby in Mississauga. So either way 10-40 mins away. Not sure where my doctor would send us. But I could do all of the required bloodwork (apparently they need almost daily tests for the first cycle) near my house on my way to work (the lab is even open early enough to not be late for work!).

I'm very lucky to live where I do and have so many options so close by

I've heard on here of some girls in the uk driving two hours to fertility clinics!

 

[Starry Night]

Our little town does have a health clinic but the Manitoba government keeps making cuts to rural health care so we have lost our emergency room. Now the nearest one is 40 minutes away. And the outlying towns have to drive up to an hour. There is still a walk-in clinic but no permanent doctors at the moment. No one wants to live in a one-horse town, I guess. lol

I'm not sure yet but I think I'm headed for an 18 day cycle. I've gotten at least one after all of my other losses so it would make sense to get one this time too. After my first loss I had three 18-day cycles in a row but I bled for 10 days each time so that was awful. After my last loss I had a regular cycle then an 18 day cycle and then the next regular cycle I conceived. Right now I'm feeling bloated and crampy even though it's only CD12. It could be hyper hormones post the m/c but I have to be on the lookout for the already.

 

[Kasey84]

Sunnyleah- we've been trying a total of 14 months, with the one pregnancy that ended in mc.

Good luck in the tww! I hope it end with a BFP!!