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[Lynny77]

That's great Pixie! Glad you'll be getting answers soon!

Briss yay to peak! I'm so hoping this is your month!!

No testing for me. Just waiting for af to be late. Still have a day or 2 to go but I feel her coming on. My heart is in my throat everytime I go to the bathroom.

 

[Pixie2982]

Yes we are going to look for younger model lol,
And tbh before I settled down with my GF I was a little tiny bit of a sexaholic lol and never used protection and the pill didn't agree with me at all and I was pretty regular (sex wise) and still didn't happen then so best just to get checked out
Don't get me wrong but I was young back then and was enjoying myself too much to worry about getting all checked out back then
I wouldn't even dream about going back with men either defo girls for me lol

 

[Briss]

Pixie, LOL! I am a little jealous of your sexual experiences but yes, you are right if you never used protection and did not get knocked up ever it's better to get checked just in case.

 

[Lynny77]

So I had a complete meltdown today dpo12 and normally I start spotting by now but this time none. And I've been having cramps for a good week. So silly me I allowed my hopes to go up. Everytime I'd go to the bathroom I'd inspect toilet paper for spotting then late this afternoon I thought I saw a small speck. I did a cervix check and theres another small speck. I went nuts. Forced myself to pee again in a cup and dipped in one of the pregnancy tests I have. Negative. Thought I saw a small indentation that I held my iphone flashlight up to. Really it's just wishful thinking. So I spent the rest of the afternoon crying. Ive been ok each month with af but this is the worst. The more time goes on the harder it is. And now it's to the point where I have to take it to the next level. It's just so hard. We are doing everything we can. We bd'd as much as we could. I've had a loss before. I just don't understand why it can't happen again?

Sorry for the rant ladies! You guys are the only ones who really get where I'm coming from.

 

[Briss]

Lynny, I am so sorry you are going through this. it's so hard! You did manage to get pregnant so it will happen again! and hopefully soon.

A while ago I was having a meltdown every cycle, hoping and praying doing everything you can and then nothing month after month. it's getting harder and harder to accept this situation particularly as you get older and approach a point of no return in your fertility. but these days I do not even cry anymore, I just carry on doing what I am doing and trying new things and hoping and hoping. I do get an occasional meltdown like when I had my chemical after the first IVF I had to visit a friend to congratulate her on her new-born. I held myself wonderfully but as soon as I left her place and was on my own I broke down in the middle of the street and was not able to stop hysteric for many hours, the entire way home I cried on the train and when I got home through the night I just cried and cried… now I stay well clear from all friends with children, I just cant do this to myself

btw, 12 DPO can be still early and also depends what you test it with, use FRER for an earlier result. With my chemical I did not get a clear BFP until 13 DPO, on 12 DPO it was still clear negative. Best of luck!

 

[Lynny77]

Thanks so much Briss! I really appreciate you taking the time and sharing your experience as well. This ttc thing can be so stressful and brain consuming. You do everything you can and hope your body will respond. It's hard seeing it happen so easily for others. I know it can take time but the more time it takes the harder it gets.

I think af may have started. Saw some red this morning but nothing since. I guess I'll see in a few hours if this puts me at cd1. If it is then I ovulate the first peak day of the monitor so I guess that's helpful. Maybe go buy some b complex and vitamin d later. And use the pre seed this month.

On the flip side we are getting a puppy on Saturday. Hopefully he'll keep me so busy it distracts me from ttc. Though work this week is the most stressful week of the year and I've barely thought about work- only babies. So who knows!

Ok I'm going to wipe my tears and get out of bed. What's that Liz Taylor quote? Pour yourself a drink, put some lipstick on and face the world? lol

 

[ttc_lolly]

Lynny huge hugs ttc is so hard and so frustrating at times, it's crazy how the world is so over populated but yet it seems so hard to get one of those little swimmers to fertilise one damn egg I've done the long ttc bit and now the mc bit and they are both as bad as one another, wouldn't wish either on my worst enemy just keep positive (hard at times I know!) and keep your mind on the present. It will happen for you lovely good luck with the new puppy! What are you getting? We got our boy Ronnie in July last year and he's been a handful at times, but so worth it!

 

[Lynny77]

Hi Lolly! We got a Cavalier King Charles. He's so cute! He is a lot of work though. Loves to get into everything lol. What's your Ronnie like?

I made an appointment to see the dr. at the end of the month. Hopefully that'll help. How is everyone? Pixie? Briss? Pink? Garfie?

 

[Pixie2982]

feeling ugh!!!

still no donor, but tbh until i get cd21 test done i ain't bothered looking.
but the donor site i use costs 22 quid for a month to be able to receive and send messages well it gets cheaper for how many months u buy, i defo think 1 month is enough as you go on to emails after a few messages lol
and aint got that until GF gets paid at end of the month,
but feel really shit, went docs to get some more cocodemol's and the stupid nurse gave me a lower dosage and is not hitting the pain from my sciatica at all, just waiting for the duty doctor to ring back now!
am having AF like cramps and on CD11 am still putting on weight, my boobs cant make up their minds whether they are sore or not either
and to top it all off i woke up after only 4 hours sleep this morning with a bad pain in my eye so had a proper look and its conjunctivitis
so defo not my best month!!!

hope everyone else is getting on better then me this month

 

[ttc_lolly]

Lynny he's an English bull terrier. You don't see many around these days but they're the ones with the big melon shaped heads

Oh Pixie sounds like you're having the month from hell! Hope you're feeling better soon

7dpo today for me and I got what looks like quite a clear bfp but it's early days and I'm not feeling pregnant so we'll see. Don't want to get my hopes up, also feeling scared to be pregnant incase it ends again just feeling a bit lost!

 

[Lynny77]

ttc-lolly oh! My fingers are so crossed for you! I pray it's a good sticky bean for you!
Did you bd on both peak days?

Pixie- hope your month gets better! Hugs!

I'm just waiting to O. Saw my doctor on monday who's referring me to a gyno. She said I should expect a call in 2-3 weeks.

 

[chicky160]

Morning ladies just checking in and having a little stalk. Hope you are all ok

 

[ttc_lolly]

Thanks Lynny yep, dtd on both peak days and the second was ovulation my frer had a lovely pink line but today's is fainter I know it's still early days and I know hcg doubles every 48hrs but I'm not feeling at all confident unfortunately.

Hope you get that gyno call ASAP x

 

[Pixie2982]

aww lolly lets hope that results get better not worse

where is everyone, its soo quiet in here atm

afm
well i have had a really funny week
received letter on sat stating i need to make a docs appointment b/c they want another urine sample, so finally get an appointment on wed as its one of those phone up in the morning for an appointment,

got there on wed but used their loo to do sample as i didnt have any cups, but got told it was too dilated to use lol so i have to drop it in tomorrow morning with FMU, and she also made me an appointment with the fertility doctor (finally) for the 20th march

but i have a problem now,

My GF went to an interview for a job, its just a transfer in the same company, which is going to happen now, and we have been bidding on properties with the council and got a viewing sometime next week

i finally have the opportunity to move out of london (finally, I say finally as we have been trying for quite a few years) and i will be moving on 31st march so there is really no point in seeing this doctor now as it took them so long

but not sure if I should go and then just get new docs to get files from old doc

also have my CD21 blood test tomorrow but i am pretty sure i didn't OV until the 26th(CD20)
but asked doc and she said i should still go in on CD21 but i was in Northampton all day today so will have to do it on CD22

but at least i am getting somewhere with docs now

 

[Lynny77]

Lolly how are you doing? I'm thinking of you!

Pixie that's great you're starting to see progress at the doctors! Good luck with the move!

I'm just waiting to O right now. That's it

 

[ttc_lolly]

Great news pixie

Thanks for asking ladies I'm not seeing a lot of progression tbh but others say it looks like it is. Here's my IC done today at 11dpo. I did a frer too but that's a super squinter and I don't want to give you all a headache!

 

[Pixie2982]

lolly, where's ya spoiler gone?

just quick update, went in for my CD21 test on friday hoping to get result by tomorrow evening via the duty doc if not it will be wed,
doc added pregnancy test on it to b/c I still don't feel right and my lower back is killing right now and sciatica don't normally affect the back even though it is the lower back it affects the bum and legs,
and my belly feels firm too maybe its all in my head and maybe not lol

just found out one of my friend is 16 weeks finally pregnant after trying for an year and half after a loss, really happy for her though
then few days after that i found out another friend just had baby no 2
then a day after that yet another friend told everyone she 4 and a half months pregnant and she is 47 and defo weren't trying
so that just leaves me thinking why not me lol

well thats rant over lol, was only meant to be a quick update

how is everyone else getting briss? garfie? lynny? chicky? slg? pinks?

 

[Lynny77]

47?? Holy crap! Good for her! That makes me feel better lol. I have a great aunt who conceived naturally at 48 and my Gran had babies at 41 and 42 so everytime I start panicking about getting older I take a deep breathe and think of them.

Pixie- hopefully you'll get some answers with your results! And I know what you mean- when it rains it pours. It can be so depressing seeing everyone around you get pregnant. Soon it'll be your turn!

Lolly how are you doing? Thinking of you! xoxo

I'm on dpo1 today. So just waiting. Not getting excited about this cycle. DH has been sick but he's still managed to do the job but as the cycles go on it's harded to get excited. Maybe once I get in to see the gyno I'll get more answers.

 

[Pixie2982]

Just a quick update

Got results from cd21 tests and progesterone levels were 9.6 and she said that was normal but I think it's on the low side as it could be between 4.4 and 28, well from what I have been reading online anyway lol

What do u girls think as quite confused lol

And any ideas how to increase progesterone through food as I can't take tablets

Oh and I am on antibiotics now for uti too

Think I might not stress over this until I move now
But I have an appointment with fertility doc on 20th so will see what she says then

 

[Briss]

Pixie, it might be a different scale but 9 seems low. mine were between 30 and 45 and I think the NHS notes said it should be above 20, it must be a different scale then, not sure. I will check my notes when I get home and let you know

I take vitamin C after O for progesterone support