Yay mamma! So good to hear from you! I LOVE the seesaw emoticon. How perfect!
I totally understand your ambivalence. You could leave it up to fate and NTNP. You know, leave the preseed and softcups in the drawer and not BD on a schedule and just see. Or you could keep trying and start shopping for an empire waist dress!
If you end up choosing Italy, let me know. I have lots of tips! I've been a few times. Also went to santorini, Greece and it was AWESOME. So beautiful, relaxing and romantic.