Good morning ladies. I hope that you're all having a blessed day. I wanted to give a prayer request for myself.
As I'm sure some of you remember from when I first joined this thread, I was previously in a very abusive marriage, wherein my now ex husband was fixated on the power he held over me, and through a series of circumstances that still pain me too much to actually write out, he forced me to have myself sterilized with Essure. I'd always known that I wanted to be a mother even when I was still a little girl, and so my ex felt he had to take that away from me.
Praise God who sent my guardian angels here on Earth to rescue me, and His loving hand guided me to my now true husband Josh. It's been several years of healing emotionally, but always with the specter of knowing that there was a barrier keeping us from welcoming a child into our home.
God is so good, and I believe He has shown me that His power is enough to create life where man says it's impossible. We've had 2 chemical pregnancies despite several tests saying that my tubes are completely blocked. But when will we get to hold our rainbow baby?
In prayer Josh and I asked that God would show us His plan for us. Should we continue to try, despite the coils? Or would He provide a way for us to have them removed? Through His grace both Josh and I's families came together, miraculously finding the means to put together nearly $10,000 to send both Josh and I from California to a very special surgical center in North Carolina, with doctors that have the ability to not only remove the Essure coils, but reverse the terrible wrong that was done to me and restore my fertility to (nearly) normal.
I'm scheduled for surgery on December 2nd, we're flying to NC the day after Thanksgiving! I would ask you ladies to please, please pray for us to have a safe trip, and that my procedure may be successful.
Thank you all so much for the support and overwhelming LOVE that I've felt each time I visit this thread. God bless.
Getting ready for Thanksgiving here, too. God knew I probably couldn't keep my mouth shut around family on Thursday, so I'm sure He's chuckling that I've figured that out and it isn't our month for our BFP.
In some fantastic news, I'm having my first "normal" period in my life. Sure, it took a few extra days to show up, but WOW, did it. Knowing the Metformin has worked at least for that much makes me hopeful for what it's going to do in the months to come. Kind of hoping for a BFN next month, as AF is now due just a week before we head to Disney World/Universal Studios for a week of roller coasters. Haha, isn't that silly? All these months longing to be pregnant and then going into this cycle with my heart 50/50 on it?
Also, I have to share a story with you.
A friend of mine from college was 19 and assisting on a band trip with his former high school when he kissed a student who was a week away from being 18. Knowing that what happened was inappropriate, he reported himself to the band director, expecting to be let go from his position. His honesty earned him a charge in court (since he was in a "position of authority" over the female), a conviction, a sentence to a year in work-release and the mandate that he register as a sex offender for the rest of his life. He did his time. He rose above his circumstances, never wavering in his faith.
He also met a wonderful woman who saw beyond his "criminal" past and married him 6 1/2 years ago. Those years have been filled with love, laughter and a tremendous amount of good times. However, they've been wishing for all of those years for a child to share in it. Due to his past, they are unable to apply to adopt - no matter what the circumstances of his situation, no one overlooks the sentence of "registered sex offender."
They have gone through many different medications and treatments. They have waited in prayer. They were thrilled in February to learn they were pregnant, but suffered a loss not long after. There were many tears shed, but they took solace in the fact that they now knew pregnancy was possible for them.
I am happy to tell you that they are extra thankful this holiday, because in June, they will be welcoming a little one into the world.
Tears of joy were streaming down my face when I heard this last night. It was the first time in quite a while that I heard a pregnancy announcement and was genuinely overcome with positive emotion. Though you don't know them, I hope it brings you even a fraction of the joy it brought me.
It can happen, ladies. There is NOTHING too big for our God. His promises do not return void!
Woohoo!!!Praise God!!! That is wonderful news sis!
I'm so excited for you!!!
Where in California do you live?
Woohoo!!!Praise God!!! That is wonderful news sis!
I'm so excited for you!!!
Where in California do you live?
We live in Central California, right near San Luis Obispo![]()
Wow...of all days to read this. I was really thinking of giving up on the baby making this past weekend...not sure I am ready for such a rough road. The Provera didn't seem to be working and I thought if something so simple cant work and I am so upset over it can I face bigger challenges? But this morning I got AF and I started to think ok maybe I can do this. But still unsure but throughout the day God has placed things in my path that have me realize I am on the right path this journey does have a purpose... keep going. Then I read this...and He confirms it once again. Why do I let the devil creep in and bog me down with worry? I need to hit my knees and pray and praise the Lord! Give my time to Him not worry!
Blessings,
I wanted to thank all of you for your prayers and support. My surgery was long and the pain is immense, but it was a success. The doctor was able to save 7cm of tube on each side and the Essure coils are gone. Though I lay here, dreading the plane ride home, I also feel exceedingly overjoyed for God's love for me.
The night before the surgery DH and I stayed up until 1AM praying. And just as I was drifting off to sleep a hymn came to my heart: "More" by Matthew West.
The pain is passing, and soon Josh and I will be BDing our hearts out. I can expect to conceive within the next 3 months if not sooner
to all of you, my sisters in Christ. I love you all.
Please forgive my rambling. My medications are kicking in. I'm going back to sleep so I can heal faster.