My emotions are confused today. I need friends to lift my spirts. I was sure I was pregnant this month, I ovulated on the right side, I had loads of syptoms, and my period was two days late. Last night I realized I ovulated two days late and of course my period came this morning. Im not as sad as I thought I would be, I know I have my first consult with a fertility specialist in January so I think that helps. But I was really praying that I wouldnt have to go that route. Is it sad that im not finally there, that I almost want to wait a few more months to see if I can do this on my own without medical intervention? I am ovualting on clomid so maybe my body can do this without help. Lord please guide me to understand this hurdle I am about to cross, and help join all our hands in the ttc journey and give us the extra strength on the days we need more support.
Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.
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It's definitely a struggle going between holding out and seeing if you can conceive naturally or deciding to do fertility treatments. Take time to talk it over with your hubby and pray about it. I think it's awesome that the medication is helping you ovulate and maybe that's all you need.
I pray that God will guide you to the perfect decision and that you will be at peace with it.
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Oh ladies...such an emotional day. Our kids watched the Billy Graham "My Hope" video for our chapel. Afterwards, when they did worship, I just started crying. All around me were my students, teens, standing, lifting their hands and singing praise to God. Five years in this amazing school...love my students. In spite of the facts that two seats away from me is a young woman whose mother may not make it to Christmas (cancer), she praised. One of my boys lost his father a few months ago...same thing - praise. I almost felt ashamed. If they can praise through that...I can keep on praising through this.
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Steph_466,
I know how you feel. You get so angry at the thought of going to the Fertility Specialist that you build up enough strength in the resistance to keep at it for a few more months. It totally depends on you and how you feel about waiting it out another month or two before booking that apt. I was in your shoes, however i was stubborn but also impatient. Stubborn to stick it out but impatient not to. Ah!
I ended up changing over Fertility Specialists, and found my new specialist not as soft natured, went back to my original one and fell pregnant a few months after continuing on clomid.Give it to God, and follow the peace he gives you. Sometimes God gives us his guidance wrapped up in peace, and we simply must follow that peace.
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Steph_466,
I know how you feel. You get so angry at the thought of going to the Fertility Specialist that you build up enough strength in the resistance to keep at it for a few more months. It totally depends on you and how you feel about waiting it out another month or two before booking that apt. I was in your shoes, however i was stubborn but also impatient. Stubborn to stick it out but impatient not to. Ah!
Give it to God, and follow the peace he gives you. Sometimes God gives us his guidance wrapped up in peace, and we simply must follow that peace.
xxx_faithful
Thanks faithful, Ive told some of my family members about the appt so I guess im not commited to go lol. You said you continued clomid? Does that mean you were on it for more than six cycles? Im scared now that we've found something that works that im going to be done all my perscriptions before I see the specialist, we are only recommended to do six months here. I am also hoping that maybe after the six months on the drug my body will be used to ovulating and do it on its own? I can only hope and pray that will be the case
PS Im glad to see your back!
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We are in the full swing of the holiday season. Choirs sing Joy to the World! Shoppers gleefully cram bags full of half-priced treasures into bulging car trunks and rush back into the malls to find more bargains. Decorations are hung, the air is crisp and everyone is filled with the anticipation of glad reunions with family and friends in the coming weeks.
Yet your heart is still broken. Your womb is still empty. Your world is still wrapped in infertility.
Christmas is supposed to be a time when we lay aside the heaviness of the year and celebrate family and friends. For the woman struggling with infertility, it can be the hardest time to celebrate. You really are grateful to God for the gift of His Son, but its hard to see pictures of mangers and babies, even if the baby is Baby Jesus. While everyone around you basks in the glow of the love of friends and family, infertility can cause you to feel alone and even sometimes unloved.
If infertility has caused you to feel unloved today, please open the pages of Gods Word today and find Ephesians 3:16-19. As you read its message, envision the writer, Paul, wrapped in chains in a prison cell, but freer than any of his captors. Hear his raspy voice, alive with passion as he locks eyes with you, looks deep into the hurt your heart carries and says to you I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.
Can you hear his chains rattling as this impassioned apostles gestures grow more animated? And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledgethat you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (NIV)
Oh, hurting friend! I wish you could know how much God loves you! Its so easy to be convinced that God has forgotten you when you have cried out for a baby for so long, yet youre still not pregnant. The holidays seem to intensify your struggle and make you so much more sensitive to the hurt. If the enemy whispers in your ear that God doesnt love you, remember he is the Father of lies. If he--the Father of lies--says you are unloved, that is proof positive that you are cherished and desired!
In quite a paradoxical way, I believe God can even use your infertility to show you how much He loves you. The desire you have for a child is so great. You want nothing more than to have a child to love and nurture, and to see yourself in your childs eyes. Your greatest wish is to provide for a child and teach a child all the great lessons of life. God, your Father, has the same great desires for you, His child. He wants nothing more than to have such a relationship with you. He so wants to love and nurture you, and to see Himself in you. He wants to provide for you and to teach you. Can you see the parallels? Let these truths show you the love God has for you. You are loved and desired by God, just as a child of your own is loved and desired by your own heart, even before conception.
His love for you is wide and long and high and deep. His love surpasses knowledge. Its so massive, its mind boggling and literally incomprehensible!. How could we possibly understand a love that is willing to sacrifice a Child on our behalf? Gods love for you is boundless, endless, measureless, exhaustless. He understands your desire for a child and feels the same. His love for you is overwhelming--even in the midst of infertility.
-Beth Forbus
Yet your heart is still broken. Your womb is still empty. Your world is still wrapped in infertility.
Christmas is supposed to be a time when we lay aside the heaviness of the year and celebrate family and friends. For the woman struggling with infertility, it can be the hardest time to celebrate. You really are grateful to God for the gift of His Son, but its hard to see pictures of mangers and babies, even if the baby is Baby Jesus. While everyone around you basks in the glow of the love of friends and family, infertility can cause you to feel alone and even sometimes unloved.
If infertility has caused you to feel unloved today, please open the pages of Gods Word today and find Ephesians 3:16-19. As you read its message, envision the writer, Paul, wrapped in chains in a prison cell, but freer than any of his captors. Hear his raspy voice, alive with passion as he locks eyes with you, looks deep into the hurt your heart carries and says to you I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.
Can you hear his chains rattling as this impassioned apostles gestures grow more animated? And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledgethat you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (NIV)
Oh, hurting friend! I wish you could know how much God loves you! Its so easy to be convinced that God has forgotten you when you have cried out for a baby for so long, yet youre still not pregnant. The holidays seem to intensify your struggle and make you so much more sensitive to the hurt. If the enemy whispers in your ear that God doesnt love you, remember he is the Father of lies. If he--the Father of lies--says you are unloved, that is proof positive that you are cherished and desired!
In quite a paradoxical way, I believe God can even use your infertility to show you how much He loves you. The desire you have for a child is so great. You want nothing more than to have a child to love and nurture, and to see yourself in your childs eyes. Your greatest wish is to provide for a child and teach a child all the great lessons of life. God, your Father, has the same great desires for you, His child. He wants nothing more than to have such a relationship with you. He so wants to love and nurture you, and to see Himself in you. He wants to provide for you and to teach you. Can you see the parallels? Let these truths show you the love God has for you. You are loved and desired by God, just as a child of your own is loved and desired by your own heart, even before conception.
His love for you is wide and long and high and deep. His love surpasses knowledge. Its so massive, its mind boggling and literally incomprehensible!. How could we possibly understand a love that is willing to sacrifice a Child on our behalf? Gods love for you is boundless, endless, measureless, exhaustless. He understands your desire for a child and feels the same. His love for you is overwhelming--even in the midst of infertility.
-Beth Forbus
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Ladies, please keep my friend Steph in your prayers. She is just over 25 weeks and the doctor told them last night their baby boy has trisomy 18. He will likely be born early within the next few months and will most likely never draw a breath. If he does survive birth, prognosis is that he won't make it a full year if he goes home at all. They are devastated, but trusting God. I'm so thankful they are believers. I have no clue how someone can survive situations like this without God.
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Thanks faithful, Ive told some of my family members about the appt so I guess im not commited to go lol. You said you continued clomid? Does that mean you were on it for more than six cycles? Im scared now that we've found something that works that im going to be done all my perscriptions before I see the specialist, we are only recommended to do six months here. I am also hoping that maybe after the six months on the drug my body will be used to ovulating and do it on its own? I can only hope and pray that will be the case
PS Im glad to see your back![/QUOTE]
Hey Steph! thanks sweeety, i am happy to be back
I as on cycle #1 of clomid, miscarried, took 3x following months to get a normal period, then #6 cycles to conceive my babygirl.
I am not sure if clomid assists your ovulation even after you stop taking it, but i do have enough faith that it can work with or without it. In regards to ovulating without the help of clomid, that would be a hormonal issue.. so i guess if your hormones are in place, then there would be no reason for it to not work
PS Im glad to see your back!
[/QUOTE]Hey Steph! thanks sweeety, i am happy to be back
I as on cycle #1 of clomid, miscarried, took 3x following months to get a normal period, then #6 cycles to conceive my babygirl.
I am not sure if clomid assists your ovulation even after you stop taking it, but i do have enough faith that it can work with or without it. In regards to ovulating without the help of clomid, that would be a hormonal issue.. so i guess if your hormones are in place, then there would be no reason for it to not work
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Emergency Prayer Request
A heart has been found for my friend's child. He's going to be in surgery in just an hour or two for a chance at a life he'd otherwise never have. 8 Month Old Silas is getting a new heart!
Pray for the family who had to say good bye to their baby far too soon. I can't even imagine.
A heart has been found for my friend's child. He's going to be in surgery in just an hour or two for a chance at a life he'd otherwise never have. 8 Month Old Silas is getting a new heart!
Pray for the family who had to say good bye to their baby far too soon. I can't even imagine.
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wow!!! Praying!!!
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Lord, please touch this child and the family and let your will be done in their lives.
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Infertility can do a lot of things. It can test a marriage and can strain relationships with friends who are already parents. It can make us question everything weve ever held to be true about our relationship with God. However, there are some things infertility can never do. It can never change Gods powerful, ever present, unwavering love for us.
God is love. Not only does He love us with a love more magnificent, more mind-blowing, more indescribable than our finite human minds can possibly begin to comprehend, but God IS love. It is the very essence of who He is. Its not just something that He does because He chooses to do so, and can opt not to do anymore. He IS love. We love because He IS love and He has given us the ability to love each other.
God can never love us more than He does this moment. He can never love us less. Even when we feel like we fail Him in fantastic ways, He loves us just as much as He does when we throw our heads back and sing His praises to the top of our lungs. Why? Because He IS love. Every fiber of His holy being loves. When we cry out in anger to Him that we cannot understand why He would give us such a burning desire for a baby and wrap it in a blanket of endometriosis, He still loves. Even on the days our periods start and we cant find it in our hearts to talk to Him, He loves us still. His love for us remains constant when our diagnoses are uncertain or our decisions as to how far we really want to take our treatment changes by the day. His love for you is constant. His love for you is pure. His love for you is strong enough to sustain you through a struggle as great as infertility or miscarriage.
I pray you are reminded of Gods love for you every day of this Christmas season. May you be reminded of a love so powerful that Deity wrapped Himself in human frailty in order to build a relationship with us. May each carol you hear become your own personal love song from God Emmanuel straight to your heart. As you gather with family or friends, may you be constantly reminded of a love so strong that nothing can separate you from the love God has for you. Not death, not life. Not infertility or loss. His love is with you every moment of this holiday season. Through every season of your life--even through infertility.
35 Who shall ever separate us from Christ's love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Or calamity and distress? Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?...
38 For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,
39 Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35, 38-39
-Beth Forbus
God is love. Not only does He love us with a love more magnificent, more mind-blowing, more indescribable than our finite human minds can possibly begin to comprehend, but God IS love. It is the very essence of who He is. Its not just something that He does because He chooses to do so, and can opt not to do anymore. He IS love. We love because He IS love and He has given us the ability to love each other.
God can never love us more than He does this moment. He can never love us less. Even when we feel like we fail Him in fantastic ways, He loves us just as much as He does when we throw our heads back and sing His praises to the top of our lungs. Why? Because He IS love. Every fiber of His holy being loves. When we cry out in anger to Him that we cannot understand why He would give us such a burning desire for a baby and wrap it in a blanket of endometriosis, He still loves. Even on the days our periods start and we cant find it in our hearts to talk to Him, He loves us still. His love for us remains constant when our diagnoses are uncertain or our decisions as to how far we really want to take our treatment changes by the day. His love for you is constant. His love for you is pure. His love for you is strong enough to sustain you through a struggle as great as infertility or miscarriage.
I pray you are reminded of Gods love for you every day of this Christmas season. May you be reminded of a love so powerful that Deity wrapped Himself in human frailty in order to build a relationship with us. May each carol you hear become your own personal love song from God Emmanuel straight to your heart. As you gather with family or friends, may you be constantly reminded of a love so strong that nothing can separate you from the love God has for you. Not death, not life. Not infertility or loss. His love is with you every moment of this holiday season. Through every season of your life--even through infertility.
35 Who shall ever separate us from Christ's love? Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation? Or calamity and distress? Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?...
38 For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,
39 Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35, 38-39
-Beth Forbus
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Shh! Can you keep a secret? You cant tell! My husbands Christmas gift has been sitting on our kitchen counter for two weeks and he doesnt know it! Its wrapped up in a beautiful, decorative box that is quite ornate. The uniquely shaped box he assumes to be a new Christmas decoration is actually a gift he has been hinting for for quite some time. He walks by it every day and has no idea. He stands within inches of his present and reads the mail. I have to admit, I enjoy being a little sneaky and the thought of hidden treasures makes me smile.
Do you realize that God has hidden treasures all around you today? He understands that infertility can take a toll on your heart--especially around the holidays. He knows the burden that baby hunger brings, so He gives you an extra measure of love. He may not have placed them in brightly colored boxes on your kitchen countertops, but they are there.
Where are these hidden Christmas gifts from God? Perhaps God has given you a measure of His love in a phone call from a friend who just called to check on you after she knew you had an important doctors appointment. Just the fact that she cared spoke volumes to your heart. (A word aptly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver.--Proverbs 25:11) Remember your pastors sermon that really seemed to speak to your heart? Maybe God was being a little sneaky and placed that in your pastors heart just for you. There are many times we receive emails telling us that a Daily Double Portion was just what someone needed for the struggle they were going through on a particular day. God had placed a hidden treasure right in front of them--right on their computer screen. Something as simple as an encouraging book you find in a Christian book store, or even a song on the radio can remind you of the love God has for you in troubling times. Perhaps youve never considered that encounters such as these can be more than just coincidences and could actually be hidden gifts from God to help you through this most difficult journey through infertility.
Remember when you were a little girl? Did you sneak around the house at Christmas time, trying your best to find the Christmas gifts you knew were hidden somewhere just out of sight? Why not be like that again? Look around you for the hidden treasures of Gods love.
As women who want to get pregnant we are absolute professionals at looking for signs. Every time we are in the midst of a two-week wait between ovulation day and day 28, we look for a sign we are pregnant. Could that twinge mean anything? I dont think I feel very well today. Could that be morning sickness starting? Why not put this unintentional talent to work for you? Look for a sign that God is offering you extra encouragement today? Could that song be Gods way of reminding me that He really is Emmanuel, God with me? He wont leave me--even through infertility.
God loves you. Hes passionate about you. He wants to show you His love for you. And when you find His gifts of love, I believe He smiles.
-Beth Forbus
Do you realize that God has hidden treasures all around you today? He understands that infertility can take a toll on your heart--especially around the holidays. He knows the burden that baby hunger brings, so He gives you an extra measure of love. He may not have placed them in brightly colored boxes on your kitchen countertops, but they are there.
Where are these hidden Christmas gifts from God? Perhaps God has given you a measure of His love in a phone call from a friend who just called to check on you after she knew you had an important doctors appointment. Just the fact that she cared spoke volumes to your heart. (A word aptly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver.--Proverbs 25:11) Remember your pastors sermon that really seemed to speak to your heart? Maybe God was being a little sneaky and placed that in your pastors heart just for you. There are many times we receive emails telling us that a Daily Double Portion was just what someone needed for the struggle they were going through on a particular day. God had placed a hidden treasure right in front of them--right on their computer screen. Something as simple as an encouraging book you find in a Christian book store, or even a song on the radio can remind you of the love God has for you in troubling times. Perhaps youve never considered that encounters such as these can be more than just coincidences and could actually be hidden gifts from God to help you through this most difficult journey through infertility.
Remember when you were a little girl? Did you sneak around the house at Christmas time, trying your best to find the Christmas gifts you knew were hidden somewhere just out of sight? Why not be like that again? Look around you for the hidden treasures of Gods love.
As women who want to get pregnant we are absolute professionals at looking for signs. Every time we are in the midst of a two-week wait between ovulation day and day 28, we look for a sign we are pregnant. Could that twinge mean anything? I dont think I feel very well today. Could that be morning sickness starting? Why not put this unintentional talent to work for you? Look for a sign that God is offering you extra encouragement today? Could that song be Gods way of reminding me that He really is Emmanuel, God with me? He wont leave me--even through infertility.
God loves you. Hes passionate about you. He wants to show you His love for you. And when you find His gifts of love, I believe He smiles.
-Beth Forbus
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A bit of joy from my heart to all of you ladies today.
My good friend, fellow staff-member at our church (she's the worship leader, husband is the High School Pastor), and someone who has been walking through the valley of PCOS and infertility for almost 5 years, told me last night that she is 10w3d with their tiny miracle baby!!!
I cried tears of joy all night. Such a sweet couple, they have been so patient and obedient - human at times, but heck, that's what we are!
God answers! He blesses! WE wait! It is getting easier and easier for me to wait in joy, seeing those who love him being blessed.
Father God, I praise You for the love and blessings you shower upon all of us every day. I thank you for so many blessings of pregnancy for my friends, both in person and online. I pray for each and every pregnancy that is current and that is to come, that YOUR will be done and those precious babies be healthy, whole and happy. I pray for each heart of a mama that is hurting due to miscarriage or not being blessed with a pregnancy - YET. Father, in the name of your precious and holy Son, I ask you to keep granting us joy, so that in this season, we focus on and celebrate His precious birth.
Amen
My good friend, fellow staff-member at our church (she's the worship leader, husband is the High School Pastor), and someone who has been walking through the valley of PCOS and infertility for almost 5 years, told me last night that she is 10w3d with their tiny miracle baby!!!
I cried tears of joy all night. Such a sweet couple, they have been so patient and obedient - human at times, but heck, that's what we are!
God answers! He blesses! WE wait! It is getting easier and easier for me to wait in joy, seeing those who love him being blessed.
Father God, I praise You for the love and blessings you shower upon all of us every day. I thank you for so many blessings of pregnancy for my friends, both in person and online. I pray for each and every pregnancy that is current and that is to come, that YOUR will be done and those precious babies be healthy, whole and happy. I pray for each heart of a mama that is hurting due to miscarriage or not being blessed with a pregnancy - YET. Father, in the name of your precious and holy Son, I ask you to keep granting us joy, so that in this season, we focus on and celebrate His precious birth.
Amen
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Ladies, I'm getting really discouraged. Nothing physically wrong with us, but still no pregnancy. Thanks to the extra hormones this cycle with the supplement I've basically bottomed out emotionally. My facebook is flooded with new holiday announcements of little babies, many to people who aren't married - some who aren't even "with" the other person long term. I just can't seem to get past that anymore. Why are there so many of us struggling to bring a child into existence - waiting with our spouses for years and following diligently as best we can...but then someone who gets drunk and parties ends up with the blessing so many of us are waiting for.
Maybe I'm just hormonal...but I'm really having issues trusting God. I feel like I have no reason to even hope that my prayers will be answered any more. My poor husband is doing the best he can to support me, but I'm so angry and disappointed.
Anyone who has been doing this longer than me have any help for getting past this besides "keep praying"? I know to do that, but I increasingly feel like it's bouncing off the walls as I'm feeling no peace at all anymore...
Maybe I'm just hormonal...but I'm really having issues trusting God. I feel like I have no reason to even hope that my prayers will be answered any more. My poor husband is doing the best he can to support me, but I'm so angry and disappointed.
Anyone who has been doing this longer than me have any help for getting past this besides "keep praying"? I know to do that, but I increasingly feel like it's bouncing off the walls as I'm feeling no peace at all anymore...
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I got chills!!! Praise God!!!
Thank you Lord for this wonderful testimony that helps our faith grow stronger and hold on to your hand tighter during this journey. Please touch the parents and the precious child growing in her womb and help her have a wonderful pregnancy. AMEN!!!
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I know exactly how you feel! I would look at teenagers walk by with a big pregnant belly and think to myself, "really?!? she gets to have a baby and I'm here in a wonderful marriage and can't have one of my own?" But then God showed me that I was not to look at others and think that, everyone is facing their own battle. What if the teenager was in a position where she was taken advantage of and a pregnancy was the result since she decided she didn't want to abort it???
We don't know why and can't let those situations get to us. So, whenever I see a pregnant woman walk by, I silently say a prayer for them. Who knows, maybe it took them years to conceive that child that's growing in their womb.
God is faithful and just, even in this crazy world that we live in. If He has placed that desire in your heart, then it's for a reason. I have been through so much this year, 3 miscarriages in a 5 month period with other random scenarios, but I'm alive and well and God has mended my broken heart each time. I've learned so much through it all and am able to help others through what I've been through. I'm defeating the enemy by praising God in the storm and I know one day, one sweet day, I WILL receive my miracle.
Praying for you sis
