cupcakestoy
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Prayers for you Laska. I know the pain of loss & am so sorry that you are going thru it too. Look to the Lord for your peace & comfort....
I need some prayers ladies as I'm going through a miscarriage right now. I feel like all of this is one awful cruel joke- to be pregnant with a child & then it be taken away from you. I was suppose to be 10 weeks today & we were going to announce it to the world this weekend but when baby measured small with no heartbeat on the ultrasound last week- I knew in my heart something wasn't right. Several days later a dropping HCG confirmed my worst nightmare. It's truly been one of the worst weeks of my life.
I'm waiting for things to pass naturally but am scared of it all honestly. I also start a new job on Thursday & would like to have this behind me by then so I'm thinking about calling & asking for the medication that speeds things up. I've only had minor cramping & no bleeding.
Ladies please pray for me. I'm really struggling right now with a very tough decision. For whatever reason my emotions are seriously taking a toll on me this pregnancy and as much as I try to keep them in check, sometimes they rule me and put me in a completely different headspace. Last night when I went to bed all I could pray for was rest and the protection of my family. I feel so drained because of the constant warring of emotions within myself. I don't understand how I can feel so wanting and unwanting at the same time. Not to say my feelings wouldn't still be here, but I feel like the additional hormones of the pregnancy just take me into a nose dive and then keep me there. I've struggled with anxiety before when I was initially diagnosed with OCD. I used to take medicine, but weaned off quickly, thank God. I hate taking meds and I certainly don't want to take anything while pregnant. I just want to feel in some sort of balance and be able to think clearly enough to make the best decision. I'm so tired and exhausted from the emotions, not physically which in my opinion is worse. I've been this way for a few days now and all I've done is cry. The odd thing is that I came off of a lovely weekend with my family and then crash! Its so quick and unexpected. And now I've been having dreams which I know is just my fears manifesting, but they still rock me to my core and I can't shake them. I'm trying and feel like I'm failing. Thank God for my son cause he puts a smile on face every day and reminds me that I do have things to be grateful for. He snaps me back, but it's only temporarily until he goes to bed, then I just go to bed myself. Sorry for the sob story, thank you for your prayers.
Hey ladies figured I'd give a quick update I had severe preeclampsia & had to be induced so I had Elisha Abner August 8th @ 8:05pm he weighed 4Ibs & 11oz we were finally released from the hospital on Tuesday. We're doing really well but I'd still like prayer for us.