Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[cupcakestoy]

Prayers for you Laska. I know the pain of loss & am so sorry that you are going thru it too. Look to the Lord for your peace & comfort....

 

[phaedypants]

Laska, I am so sorry that you are going through this loss. I will be praying for you and your family. Many of us on here know the heartbreak you are going through, and this is a good place to pour out your feelings.

I'm sorry for the suffering that has come with this journey for all of us. I am so grateful to have this forum to come to in those dark times and be reminded to let myself feel and be human, but keep my heart set on God's purpose.

Blessings to you all.

 

[xxx_faithful]

I need some prayers ladies as I'm going through a miscarriage right now. I feel like all of this is one awful cruel joke- to be pregnant with a child & then it be taken away from you. I was suppose to be 10 weeks today & we were going to announce it to the world this weekend but when baby measured small with no heartbeat on the ultrasound last week- I knew in my heart something wasn't right. Several days later a dropping HCG confirmed my worst nightmare. It's truly been one of the worst weeks of my life.

I'm waiting for things to pass naturally but am scared of it all honestly. I also start a new job on Thursday & would like to have this behind me by then so I'm thinking about calling & asking for the medication that speeds things up. I've only had minor cramping & no bleeding.

Laska5,

My heart is with you right now as you endure the mourning of your little one. All it takes is a moment to love the life growing inside of you, not how many weeks you were along or how long the life lived and beated within your womb. We as woman are nurturers by nature, and losing something we could never keep by ourselves or protect, is by far the hardest conquest to bare. Be rest assured there are people that can sympathise and love you through this state of pain and agony you are experiencing. Myself included...

I have had the misfortune of 3x miscarriages, all in which were different yet painful to go through. My first (passed away at 11wks) was by far the hardest. Not knowing what motherhood smelled like was torturous for it to then be taken from you. I miscarried all three times naturally without the need of medication. If something can be grown inside you then creation has a way of undoing it naturally also, without any assistance.

I pray that you will be guided and comforted during this time, taking all the time in the world to grieve. Just as one grieves the loss of someone they have known their entire lives, one most grieve the loss of a loved one, they never had the chance to know. Do whatever you feel your heart is drawn to.. name your baby, make something in memory of your child, write a poem of your feelings, make a memory of your child. It all helps the grieving process, and eventually helps heal your heart.


Praying for you,

xxx_faithful

 

[Laska5]

thank you faithful- I appreciate your thoughts & prayers through this!

 

[phaedypants]

I just wanted to share something joyful with you guys!

A young girl at my church who has really been struggling has reached out to me for some spiritual big-sistering. She is navigating a lot of past pain and some very hard mental health issues, and never felt that she could be accepted by the "Christian" world. She was closing the door of her heart to church, when she felt a very strong calling to hold on a little more.... She then got invited to a camp meeting, where she really felt the presence of God and found the spark of fellowship with people who understood and accepted her. She was baptized, and has come home so alive and hopeful and filled with the Holy Spirit.

I am so excited for her! I am so grateful that she shared this testimony with me, and so honored that she has reached out to me. I pray that I can help encourage her and be a spiritual big-sister to her, and that I can help show her trust and faith and unconditional love.

I came home from meeting with her yesterday, and I just prayed thanksgiving to God, and I realized that I am ready to be available to Him, for whatever his purpose is. There really is a reason for all that we go through... Even the pain. I was a lot like her at that age... wanting God, but really confused and in pain and seeking to fill the void with sex or drinking or drugs. She has really inspired me and I think her open honesty will be so refreshing in my Church family.

I would love to have some prayers for her, and for me to know the right ways to guide her and the right words for her doubts and questions.

God is so powerful! I wish I could see that new bright hope that I saw in her eyes in the eyes of all the lost sheep.

xoxo

 

[No Doubt]

Ladies please pray for me. I'm really struggling right now with a very tough decision. For whatever reason my emotions are seriously taking a toll on me this pregnancy and as much as I try to keep them in check, sometimes they rule me and put me in a completely different headspace. Last night when I went to bed all I could pray for was rest and the protection of my family. I feel so drained because of the constant warring of emotions within myself. I don't understand how I can feel so wanting and unwanting at the same time. Not to say my feelings wouldn't still be here, but I feel like the additional hormones of the pregnancy just take me into a nose dive and then keep me there. I've struggled with anxiety before when I was initially diagnosed with OCD. I used to take medicine, but weaned off quickly, thank God. I hate taking meds and I certainly don't want to take anything while pregnant. I just want to feel in some sort of balance and be able to think clearly enough to make the best decision. I'm so tired and exhausted from the emotions, not physically which in my opinion is worse. I've been this way for a few days now and all I've done is cry. The odd thing is that I came off of a lovely weekend with my family and then crash! Its so quick and unexpected. And now I've been having dreams which I know is just my fears manifesting, but they still rock me to my core and I can't shake them. I'm trying and feel like I'm failing. Thank God for my son cause he puts a smile on face every day and reminds me that I do have things to be grateful for. He snaps me back, but it's only temporarily until he goes to bed, then I just go to bed myself. Sorry for the sob story, thank you for your prayers.

Phaedy, that's such a wonderful honor for you. God will lead you appropriately and bless relationship between you two. I used to help mentor a young group of girls and it wad so rewarding.

 

[phaedypants]

I am praying for you, No Doubt...
You have spoken to your doctor? Does your doctor take your mental health seriously?

I know you need prayers rather than solutions... but maybe there is a support group near you for pregnancy and mental health...or even a postpartum depression group (which is not the same as what you are going through, but you
would still likely find a lot of understanding.)
i know with me, when im struggling with depression, the worst thing i can do is try to carry on like nothing is wrong.

So sorry you are struggling...

 

[xxx_faithful]

Ladies please pray for me. I'm really struggling right now with a very tough decision. For whatever reason my emotions are seriously taking a toll on me this pregnancy and as much as I try to keep them in check, sometimes they rule me and put me in a completely different headspace. Last night when I went to bed all I could pray for was rest and the protection of my family. I feel so drained because of the constant warring of emotions within myself. I don't understand how I can feel so wanting and unwanting at the same time. Not to say my feelings wouldn't still be here, but I feel like the additional hormones of the pregnancy just take me into a nose dive and then keep me there. I've struggled with anxiety before when I was initially diagnosed with OCD. I used to take medicine, but weaned off quickly, thank God. I hate taking meds and I certainly don't want to take anything while pregnant. I just want to feel in some sort of balance and be able to think clearly enough to make the best decision. I'm so tired and exhausted from the emotions, not physically which in my opinion is worse. I've been this way for a few days now and all I've done is cry. The odd thing is that I came off of a lovely weekend with my family and then crash! Its so quick and unexpected. And now I've been having dreams which I know is just my fears manifesting, but they still rock me to my core and I can't shake them. I'm trying and feel like I'm failing. Thank God for my son cause he puts a smile on face every day and reminds me that I do have things to be grateful for. He snaps me back, but it's only temporarily until he goes to bed, then I just go to bed myself. Sorry for the sob story, thank you for your prayers.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fAtCYcB6nps

T.D Jakes "God Wants To Heal You."

I watched this youtube this morning during my morning devotion. These words spoke to me, "It's the pressure and the pain that secretes the anointing of God in the first place. To him much is given, much is required"

You know No Doubt, you speak of such wisdom and such anointing towards woman in this forum. I wouldn't question for a minute the presence of God that walks with you daily. You speak realness and godliness and i just want you to know that he uses all of what you go through. Pregnancy related or non-pregnancy related, he uses all of it, and as you draw closer to him he will reveal a strength in you, you never even knew you had.

Your bolder then you think, and wiser then you know. Don't let these temporary distractions stop you from knowing the love of God and the ability for God to re-align was is out of place. He can fix what your going through, he can re-balance your emotions, and he can rescue you from the things that trouble you. That is my prayer to you. That whatever you want to come into fruition, will come and eventuate.

xxx_faithful

 

[Jett55]

Hey ladies figured I'd give a quick update I had severe preeclampsia & had to be induced so I had Elisha Abner August 8th @ 8:05pm he weighed 4Ibs & 11oz we were finally released from the hospital on Tuesday. We're doing really well but I'd still like prayer for us.

 

[phaedypants]

I am praying for you, No Doubt...
You have spoken to your doctor? Does your doctor take your mental health seriously?

I know you need prayers rather than solutions... but maybe there is a support group near you for pregnancy and mental health...or even a postpartum depression group (which is not the same as what you are going through, but you
would still likely find a lot of understanding.)
i know with me, when im struggling with depression, the worst thing i can do is try to carry on like nothing is wrong.

So sorry you are struggling...

 

[xxx_faithful]

Hey ladies figured I'd give a quick update I had severe preeclampsia & had to be induced so I had Elisha Abner August 8th @ 8:05pm he weighed 4Ibs & 11oz we were finally released from the hospital on Tuesday. We're doing really well but I'd still like prayer for us.

Ohhhhh Jett55 - I almost cried !!!!!! I am SO happy for you both. Congratulations. God is good! God is good!
Bless your child, i would pray over your child every day, that the blood of Jesus will have Elisha's constant protection. Praying the blood of Jesus is powerful!


xxx_faithful

 

[sportysgirl]

Saying prayers no doubt. X

 

[No Doubt]

Jett, you know I stalk your journal, but still so pleaded that all is going well.

Thank you ladies for your kind words and prayers. They work! At some point today I was sitting in a meeting and realized I was smiling and laughing with my peers. I felt tamped down. I was a bit irritable after that meeting, but thought that was from hunger...meetings all day with no lunch. No, things aren't perfect, but today I felt more normal than I have. Still have a lot to think about, but your words have really helped to bring things back into alignment. I keep hearing how God can repair and restore over the past few weeks and that resonated with me yet again. Usually in my life there's a shift and I can generally tell, and this is how that feels. Before my husband walked into my life I wad happy ad lark for a few months before...didn't know why, then there he came. Before I got pregnant with my son, I kept hearing songs telling me to get out of the way and let go and let God, and stop blocking/getting in the way and when I did that a few months later came my bfp. Amazing how I think the rules don't apply to me...it's so easy to be encouraging to others and so hard to encourage myself...I don't know why... But it is time I start listening and believing and trusting God for what I know He is capable of, even though I am not.

May God bless you ladies of this thread!

 

[cupcakestoy]

Congrats Jett!

Nodoubt- prayers for you!

 

[ProfWife]

Well...first day post op. These incisions HURT. I'm usually a side sleeper...no way that was happening!

Doc found stage 2 endometriosis. He believes he vaporized it all and put a preventative gel to lower the rate of recurrence. This might be exactly what was needed to open the way for us to get pregnant. Looking forward to this surgery resetting the clock so we can have our miracle baby.

 

[Laska5]

Hi sweet ladies- asking for some prayers today- after cytotec failed to work- I am scheduled for a d&c today. I'm very nervous about it!

 

[ProfWife]

Laska - So sorry this is dragging on for so long. I'm sure it's just totally emotionally draining. Praying your d&c is smooth and that your body will be able to quickly recover.

 

[SoBlessedMama]

Laska, I hope it went well, and I will be praying that you have a speedy and full recovery!

 

[me222]

Hi all. How is everyone? NoDoubt- praying for God to comfort and guide you. Laska- I am deeply sorry for your loss. May God be your Comfort through this painful time.

I'm going alright. Currently sick in bed which is not cool when I have an assignment due tomorrow. Husband recently lost his job due to the boss running out of work for him. Please pray for provisions for us. I only work part-time as studying my Masters so my pay doesn't cover everything (food, rent, bills)
We have been currently filling out an Expression of Interest form for adoption as we believe we will try and adopt even if we have children naturally. Friends of ours recently offered to give us an informal loan for adoption. We prob. won't take them up on it as hope to save once husband gets a job. But, it was really kind of them to offer this! Was def. not expecting it!
What has comforted me recently is that there will be an ending to my journey- one where God will bring beauty from this over-3-years-of-struggling-ttc: whether it be through adoption, naturally conceiving or both. Or no children. We don't know, but God does and He knows best.

 

[No Doubt]

Laska, how are you feeling hun? Praying for comfort and quick physical recovery.

Pro, how are you healing up? Praying for a speedy recovery and that this is all you need to conceive.

Me, what a blessing to have such awesome friends! Praying the Lord continues to provide for you and your husband during this tough time, and praying for healing for your sickness.

AFM, thank you ladies. I had a few more rough days, but I think the veil finally lifted. I need to be able to prevent these violent swings somehow because they are so emotionally draining for me and my husband and they are getting worse. I'm so afraid that my baby will not be a happy baby because of this...how they say the baby can feel your emotions. I don't want them to negatively affect the baby. I lost my town time when I got pregnant which was a nice long hot bath, wine and a good book. So now I can't unwind like I did on a Friday night and I think that's taking its toll. I'll figure something out.

Pray the rest of you ladies are doing well!