Christian ladies TTC, we can encourage one another.

[Mrstruth]

Hello ladies! Stopping by to give

 

[HisGrace]

Sarah, can I just say you have been such an inspiration for me. I admire your greatfulness and your faith. I know God will do amazing things in your life.

 

[beckysprayer]

Thanks for all of the prayers everyone! We didn't tell anyone yet so it's nice to be able to come to all of you for support. You really are such a great help, just knowing there are people here praying for me.

I'm so thankful the God we serve is a loving, forgiving God. While pouring my heart out in grief to Him I have said some not-so-nice things, but I know He isn't angry at me for thinking those things and is instead grieving with me. How truly wonderful is that? I can only hope I am even a smidgen as loving and forgiving of those I encounter around me.

Mountains may be beautiful, but the valleys are where growth occurs. You have to come down to the valley every now and again in order to see the beautiful roses that are capable of growing.

 

[beckysprayer]

I guess you can tell by all my replies...I'M BACK!!!

What a wonderful trip to get away from all the stresses of life and enjoy my hubby and Tay.

I can't say my mind was totally off of ttc because at the San Diego Zoo everywhere you looked there was a pregnant lady pushing a stroller with a toddler inside. I looked at them and smiled and thought...one day, one day it will be me. It will be me who the little child says, "Mommy, what's that?...Mommy, is that a bear?...Mommy, can you pick me up so I can see the animals?" Yes, one day the Lord will bless me with a miracle, but until then..I need to keep chugging along with faith in hand.

I was supposed to start my cycle last Thursday, but have been taking prometrium which delays your cycle. I came back yesterday, which was cycle day 33, and had a glimmer of hope that I would take a pregnancy test and it would turn out positive. I wish I could say it did, but it was negative. I cried in my hubby's arms since I have officially reached the 5 year mark of ttc. I prayed and prayed that I wouldn't get to this point, but God sees fit for me to wait a little longer. Am I ok with that? umm, yes and no...my spirit is all for it because I know the time He blesses me will be perfect and no because I feel I've done things right in my life and I've waited so long.

Again, only God sees the future and everyday I wake up I need to put my trust and faith in Him knowing that He has nothing but good in store for me.

I'm so glad you had a great trip! It sounds like it was a lot of fun and I love going to the zoo.

I can't wait until you come on here and show all of us how God has answered prayers and given you the baby of your dreams. The wait is hard, I know. I always want everything in my time and I think having a baby is one of the hardest things because it is THE thing we have absolutely no control over. Nothing we do and no amount of hard work can bring us the one thing we want, it is all God, and that can be so hard at times. I'm praying for peace during the wait and for God to bless the child you will be a mother to in the greatest way possible. You and your family will be a wonderful and powerful testimony to God. I know this because you already are to so many of us.

You are such a blessing to all of us in so many ways.

 

[BRK06]

Thanks for the prayers , unfortunately it is bad news. No heartbeat and judging by the development of the baby, the heart stopped beating just a day or two ago. I'm now praying for a natural miscarriage because I really do not want to have a D&C.

I'm heartbroken, but I know God has other plans for us.

I'm so sorry Sis We're all here for you You're in my thoughts and prayers. I don't know why God takes our little ones so soon sometimes, but I trust He will help us understand someday when we see them again.

I saw this posted awhile ago, and it made me cry thinking of my own angel, but I thought it was really sweet


I`m just a precious little one
who didn`t make it there.
I went straight to be with Jesus,
but I`m waiting for you here.
Many dwelling here where I live,
waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorrow,
a world marred with pain and sin.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don`t complain.
I have all Heaven`s Glory,
suffered none of earth`s great pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me.
I`d have loved to bring it fame.
But if I`d lingered in earth`s shadows,
I would have suffered just the same.
So sweet family-don`t you sorrow.
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus` arms
from my loving Mother`s womb.
~Author Unknown

 

[BRK06]

I wanted to share this message from our pastor with you. It made me think of myself and all you wonderful ladies as we go through this journey. Sometimes our "Plan A" falls through and we have to move onto "Plan B"

I hope it gives you encouragement!

https://www.newhopeleeward.org/mess...sageGuid=76a15d7c-61ac-41da-8bcf-41c5dc0c027a

 

[Godsjewel]

Thanks for all of the prayers everyone! We didn't tell anyone yet so it's nice to be able to come to all of you for support. You really are such a great help, just knowing there are people here praying for me.

I'm so thankful the God we serve is a loving, forgiving God. While pouring my heart out in grief to Him I have said some not-so-nice things, but I know He isn't angry at me for thinking those things and is instead grieving with me. How truly wonderful is that? I can only hope I am even a smidgen as loving and forgiving of those I encounter around me.

Mountains may be beautiful, but the valleys are where growth occurs. You have to come down to the valley every now and again in order to see the beautiful roses that are capable of growing.

I love your honesty and I know God sees your heart and is stretching out His loving arms to surround you during this time.

Only God sees the big picture and we may never know why things happen the way they do. The only thing we can do is trust that God has a plan in all of it.

I wouldn’t be here today if my mom hadn’t miscarried, she only wanted a boy and a girl. She already had my brother and 3 yrs later became pregnant with a girl, her name would have been Jennifer. My mom and dad decided to give it another go and tada….I was born. If my mom didn’t miscarry, I wouldn’t be here. I’m blessed to be able to live this life that God has created for me, He knit me in my mother’s womb and knew me before I was born. It’s nice to know we serve such an amazing God.

 

[Godsjewel]

Trusting God....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyWBkQkJwO8&feature=related[url/]

 

[DesiresBaby]

Hey everyone,

I am a newbie here;in fact i just joined this forum a couple of hours ago and I was browsing through it to find a specific thread for christians and I came across this and I have to say that all of you have such encouraging testimonies to say and reassuring words and I just want to say a thank you
I am actually waiting on my bfp, I have the usual preggo symptoms( sore boobs, on and off nausea,headaches,fatigue) and I am 3 days past my period due date(and I have always been spot on regular with my periods as far as I can remember) and I've had 3 bfn's so far but I am still keeping my hopes up. This will be hopefully be my 2nd pregnancy; I lost the first one in march when i was just 5 weeks and it was devastating but this time around I am learning to give it all up to His hands and I am so glad to have across this thread. I am now going to sit and read every post on this thread

Welcome!! :wave: we're glad to have you! I'm very sorry to hear about your miscarriage; several of us here share your pain in that. I hope you find encouragement here! We're all waiting on the Lord and thanking Him for His blessings in the meantime

I'm looking to hear a praise report from you soon... I'll be praying for you!

Wow I am beyond touched at the faith and love of Christ that is displayed here. I love how this thread is different in the way that people choose not to focus on the things that bother them but to try and find God's purpose for us in all of this and to give Him all the glory through it all.

Your name is Kim right? I went through almost all of the pages in this thread and lol I hope that doesn't qualify me a stalker..lol... Hi my name is Amy.. Its actually spelt Amee (my parents thought that was cool to have my name spelt like that..lol) My husband and i ..we live in southern california and we have been married for 2 years and 7 months and he is my biggest blessing in life and the love of my life.. I'm hoping to be a regular here because I am truely blessed to have found this group.

Welcome Amee!

 

[beckysprayer]

Thanks for the prayers , unfortunately it is bad news. No heartbeat and judging by the development of the baby, the heart stopped beating just a day or two ago. I'm now praying for a natural miscarriage because I really do not want to have a D&C.

I'm heartbroken, but I know God has other plans for us.

I'm so sorry Sis We're all here for you You're in my thoughts and prayers. I don't know why God takes our little ones so soon sometimes, but I trust He will help us understand someday when we see them again.

I saw this posted awhile ago, and it made me cry thinking of my own angel, but I thought it was really sweet


I`m just a precious little one
who didn`t make it there.
I went straight to be with Jesus,
but I`m waiting for you here.
Many dwelling here where I live,
waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorrow,
a world marred with pain and sin.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don`t complain.
I have all Heaven`s Glory,
suffered none of earth`s great pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me.
I`d have loved to bring it fame.
But if I`d lingered in earth`s shadows,
I would have suffered just the same.
So sweet family-don`t you sorrow.
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus` arms
from my loving Mother`s womb.
~Author Unknown

That is beautiful! Thank you so much for sharing!

 

[Mummy_2_One]

Thanks for the prayers , unfortunately it is bad news. No heartbeat and judging by the development of the baby, the heart stopped beating just a day or two ago. I'm now praying for a natural miscarriage because I really do not want to have a D&C.

I'm heartbroken, but I know God has other plans for us.

I'm so sorry Sis We're all here for you You're in my thoughts and prayers. I don't know why God takes our little ones so soon sometimes, but I trust He will help us understand someday when we see them again.

I saw this posted awhile ago, and it made me cry thinking of my own angel, but I thought it was really sweet


I`m just a precious little one
who didn`t make it there.
I went straight to be with Jesus,
but I`m waiting for you here.
Many dwelling here where I live,
waited years to enter in.
Struggled through a world of sorrow,
a world marred with pain and sin.
Thank you for the life you gave me,
it was brief but don`t complain.
I have all Heaven`s Glory,
suffered none of earth`s great pain.
Thank you for the name you gave me.
I`d have loved to bring it fame.
But if I`d lingered in earth`s shadows,
I would have suffered just the same.
So sweet family-don`t you sorrow.
Wipe those tears and chase the gloom.
I went straight to Jesus` arms
from my loving Mother`s womb.
~Author Unknown

Beautiful poem Kim. It's making me cry too. A hard day today as I sit here thinking about the 29wk bump I 'should' be enjoying feeling kicks from and the 3rd trimester I 'should' be entering - instead my period arrived today.

I know though that my baby when he or she arrives will testify one day too Sarah, that they would not have been here had these last 2 pregnancies turned into healthy children. x

 

[stevens2010]

Hi ladies. I haven't been on in a while so apologies for that but I hope you're all well and am sending hugs and prayers to those in need.

Just a little update..

Nearing the end of my 3rd round of Clomid and having gotten 2 bfn's today, I have been researching adoption.

I have done the same as Wristwatch and been reading Jennifer Saake's book although I admit I actually did not agree with some of what she had written but each to their own. However, one particular chapter hit me a little harder than the rest. Jennifer was talking about how being a mother isn't just biological but it has many meanings, including being a spiritual mother. This touched with me because my husband and I are the youth leaders at our church and we have been running this ministry for just over a year. I felt led to get involved because I wanted to be a positive influence with the younger ones and having had some not very nice experiences in my past when I was their age, I wanted to be a role model and show them that God can do anything in anyone's life no matter of their circumstances or background etc. Yet reading the chapter in Jennifer's book, I wondered whether my heart for the youth had a deeper motive. I wondered whether God (obviously) knew I would struggle to get pregnant and wanted to fulfill my maternal instincts in another way. I've been praying and praying for God to allow me to be a mother, not realising that I already was. Just not biological.

While I was thinking of all of this, my husband dropped a bombshell that he wanted us to look into adoption if our 3rd round of Clomid doesn't bring a BFP. We know we still have 3 more rounds yet and of course more options after Clomid (though I don't know what they are, possibly IVF and I'm not sure how I feel about it) but knowing that adoption is a lengthy process, we want to at least get information and get our names down in the meantime, just in case.

This morning I was reading about the process, the questions asked by social workers about mine and my husband's ability to care for a child in adoption (way too lengthy to explain fully) but as I read through, I felt in my heart that everything in every single question on each page, I could answer with confidence and experience because of the youth ministry and the kids we encounter etc plus the children in my family that are disabled etc... It all seemed to fit in so well and I felt like God has been equipping me and my husband to adopt.

I continued reading, crying along the way because I am overwhelmed at what I feel I have uncovered. I can't put my finger on it but I feel in my spirit that there's something connecting everything together and I just can't think what it is exactly. I need to commit this to the Lord and trust that He will guide us. If I am wrong and adoption isn't for us, He will close that door.

I am feeling a mixed bag of emotions right now because it's opened up questions to me... Would I ever be able to experience the joy of seeing a positive pregnancy test? Does this all mean I'm not meant to be a biological mother? To never experience my baby's movements inside my womb? To be able to give birth to my child? To hear the doctor tell us it's a girl or a boy? Or am I meant to be a spiritual mother? To mother someone else's child who needs an outpouring of maternal love that they've never had?

Of course I could be over analysing the whole thing and blowing it way out of proportion and actually adoption may be way off of God's plans for us but I can't shake off that feeling that Jennifer's words gave me.

I should be grateful and joyful to be a spiritual mother. But I feel sad that if that IS what I'm meant to be... I'll never experience those wonderful things that only a biological mother can. But God's will is higher than mine and better than mine and I just have to trust Him.

Sorry to have rambled on, but it's been helpful to write it all down. Please pray for me ladies, I really need God's guidance right now.

Also, before I forget.. I also had a dream last night that I had a beautiful little girl who must have been a few months old. Her hair was red (my husband and I both have dark hair) and she had big beautiful eyes. She was our adopted child. In my dream, I was holding her, she was smiling and cooing. My husband and my parents were all there too, smiling at her, playing with her. And I remember in my dream I said to my mother that I loved her (the child) and was happy that I had her, but sad that I never experienced giving birth to her or hearing the doctor tell my husband it was a girl. But I was filled with joy that I finally had a child that was my own. I also remember telling my Dad I had thought of changing her name and in my dream he told me not to because her name was already given to her.

Weird but I can't help but feel it all means something.

So please pray for me ladies. Sorry to have rambled on.

 

[HisGrace]

Stevens2010, I will be praying for you. I know I can look back over my life and see how God had His hand in all of it. I'm sure we can all say the same. Just know that you will be fulfilled in whatever role God has called you. That's just how He designed it so we just have to trust that His will be done. I will be praying for you, my sister.

 

[stevens2010]

Thank you, I really appreciate it. I just don't know if this is a door God has opened, or whether I am questioning things based on my own emotions. I just wonder what made my husband suggest adoption as I have brought it up in conversation before (before we started Clomid) and he didn't want to look into it. We need to seek God and see if His thumbprint is on these plans.

 

[Godsjewel]

Hi ladies. I haven't been on in a while so apologies for that but I hope you're all well and am sending hugs and prayers to those in need.

Just a little update..

Nearing the end of my 3rd round of Clomid and having gotten 2 bfn's today, I have been researching adoption.

I have done the same as Wristwatch and been reading Jennifer Saake's book although I admit I actually did not agree with some of what she had written but each to their own. However, one particular chapter hit me a little harder than the rest. Jennifer was talking about how being a mother isn't just biological but it has many meanings, including being a spiritual mother. This touched with me because my husband and I are the youth leaders at our church and we have been running this ministry for just over a year. I felt led to get involved because I wanted to be a positive influence with the younger ones and having had some not very nice experiences in my past when I was their age, I wanted to be a role model and show them that God can do anything in anyone's life no matter of their circumstances or background etc. Yet reading the chapter in Jennifer's book, I wondered whether my heart for the youth had a deeper motive. I wondered whether God (obviously) knew I would struggle to get pregnant and wanted to fulfill my maternal instincts in another way. I've been praying and praying for God to allow me to be a mother, not realising that I already was. Just not biological.

While I was thinking of all of this, my husband dropped a bombshell that he wanted us to look into adoption if our 3rd round of Clomid doesn't bring a BFP. We know we still have 3 more rounds yet and of course more options after Clomid (though I don't know what they are, possibly IVF and I'm not sure how I feel about it) but knowing that adoption is a lengthy process, we want to at least get information and get our names down in the meantime, just in case.

This morning I was reading about the process, the questions asked by social workers about mine and my husband's ability to care for a child in adoption (way too lengthy to explain fully) but as I read through, I felt in my heart that everything in every single question on each page, I could answer with confidence and experience because of the youth ministry and the kids we encounter etc plus the children in my family that are disabled etc... It all seemed to fit in so well and I felt like God has been equipping me and my husband to adopt.

I continued reading, crying along the way because I am overwhelmed at what I feel I have uncovered. I can't put my finger on it but I feel in my spirit that there's something connecting everything together and I just can't think what it is exactly. I need to commit this to the Lord and trust that He will guide us. If I am wrong and adoption isn't for us, He will close that door.

I am feeling a mixed bag of emotions right now because it's opened up questions to me... Would I ever be able to experience the joy of seeing a positive pregnancy test? Does this all mean I'm not meant to be a biological mother? To never experience my baby's movements inside my womb? To be able to give birth to my child? To hear the doctor tell us it's a girl or a boy? Or am I meant to be a spiritual mother? To mother someone else's child who needs an outpouring of maternal love that they've never had?

Of course I could be over analysing the whole thing and blowing it way out of proportion and actually adoption may be way off of God's plans for us but I can't shake off that feeling that Jennifer's words gave me.

I should be grateful and joyful to be a spiritual mother. But I feel sad that if that IS what I'm meant to be... I'll never experience those wonderful things that only a biological mother can. But God's will is higher than mine and better than mine and I just have to trust Him.

Sorry to have rambled on, but it's been helpful to write it all down. Please pray for me ladies, I really need God's guidance right now.

Also, before I forget.. I also had a dream last night that I had a beautiful little girl who must have been a few months old. Her hair was red (my husband and I both have dark hair) and she had big beautiful eyes. She was our adopted child. In my dream, I was holding her, she was smiling and cooing. My husband and my parents were all there too, smiling at her, playing with her. And I remember in my dream I said to my mother that I loved her (the child) and was happy that I had her, but sad that I never experienced giving birth to her or hearing the doctor tell my husband it was a girl. But I was filled with joy that I finally had a child that was my own. I also remember telling my Dad I had thought of changing her name and in my dream he told me not to because her name was already given to her.

Weird but I can't help but feel it all means something.

So please pray for me ladies. Sorry to have rambled on.

Hi Sweetheart!

No need for apologies, this is what the thread is here for, to express how you feel and what your going through so we can pray and help encourage you.

I’m so glad that God has already started to do a work in your life by preparing you for motherhood. I know in due time God will show you the path He wants you to take and I’m so excited to see what He is going to do for you.

I’m a mother to a beautiful 9 year old girl, she didn’t come from me and I never imagined I would marry someone who had a child, but her being in my life has been such a blessing. Her birth mom isn’t around and has chosen to live a different lifestyle. Taylor has lived with my husband and I fulltime for 5 years now. To be honest, when we first got married I was thinking there was going to be shared custody, but I was wrong. I was angry for awhile because I was a newlywed and I wanted to spend some quality time with my new husband and didn’t expect to have a 4 year old to take care of all the time. Taylor has been through so much and I feel honored that God hand picked me to be her mom. I know God had a plan for her to be in my life and me to be in hers.

I still long for a child of my own, but for now I will be the mom God wants me to be for Taylor.

You will definitely be in my prayers and thanks for sharing your heart with us

 

[Godsjewel]

But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind.
James 1:5-6

When you come face to face with infertility, there are mountains of decisions that must be made. Questions bombard you with unyielding tenacity, and each demands an answer! Do we seek treatment? If so, how do we pay for it? How far will we go? Should we consider adoption? Is this God’s will for our lives? How long do we keep trying to conceive? Is this God’s way of telling us to stop? How do I know if it really was God speaking to me? Each decision must be weighed carefully, for the outcome could have eternal ramifications. How do we know how to make the right decision?

Who is more wise than God? Who understands our past, our present and our future better than the author of eternity? We seek answers from doctors, from support groups, from family members and friends, and that is all well and good. God doesn’t expect us to travel through the quagmires of life without relying on each other. But when you face the difficult decisions of infertility, don’t forget to cry out to God for His wisdom in knowing what to do.

Scripture tells you that if you ask God for wisdom-in full faith-He will grant you His wisdom. And not just a smidgen! No! He gives His wisdom generously! He wants you to make the right decisions about having a baby. He wants to lead you and guide in His will. He says He will give you His wisdom about whether or not to seek medical help, whether to consider adoption or where the money will come from.

He also grants this wisdom “without reproach”. In Biblical times, if you asked someone for a loan or asked to borrow something they owned, it was very common for the lender to belittle the borrower. Can you imagine if you asked your friend for a dollar and you got this response:

“I’ll loan you this dollar, you lazy, good-for-nothing moron! It’s amazing that you’re not smart enough to get a job good enough to provide for your family so you have to come to me! What a loser!”

I’ll bet you wouldn’t ask her for anything else any time soon! How wonderful it is that God doesn’t do us this way when we ask for His wisdom! He doesn’t answer our request with “You sorry, worthless servant! I knew you’d never figure this out on your own! I guess I’ll have to bail you out again! When will you ever learn!” No! God grants us His wisdom generously and without reproach. I believe it thrills the heart of God when we approach Him and lean on His wisdom for small decisions as well as the life changing ones.

The only requirement God lays on you is that you must ask for His wisdom in full faith. You must believe that He is who He says He is, and that He will do what He says He will do. You must not waver in your belief of Him. Have you ever seen a beach ball that gets caught in the waves on the beach? It gets slung around with every wave and every wind. God says that when you doubt, you’re just like that beach ball! You must believe when you ask God for wisdom. Your faith must stay strong even when He chooses to move in ways you cannot understand. When you approach God with unwavering faith, He promises His wisdom in your life.

 

[wristwatch24]

Hi ladies. I haven't been on in a while so apologies for that but I hope you're all well and am sending hugs and prayers to those in need.

Just a little update..

Nearing the end of my 3rd round of Clomid and having gotten 2 bfn's today, I have been researching adoption.

I have done the same as Wristwatch and been reading Jennifer Saake's book although I admit I actually did not agree with some of what she had written but each to their own. However, one particular chapter hit me a little harder than the rest. Jennifer was talking about how being a mother isn't just biological but it has many meanings, including being a spiritual mother. This touched with me because my husband and I are the youth leaders at our church and we have been running this ministry for just over a year. I felt led to get involved because I wanted to be a positive influence with the younger ones and having had some not very nice experiences in my past when I was their age, I wanted to be a role model and show them that God can do anything in anyone's life no matter of their circumstances or background etc. Yet reading the chapter in Jennifer's book, I wondered whether my heart for the youth had a deeper motive. I wondered whether God (obviously) knew I would struggle to get pregnant and wanted to fulfill my maternal instincts in another way. I've been praying and praying for God to allow me to be a mother, not realising that I already was. Just not biological.

While I was thinking of all of this, my husband dropped a bombshell that he wanted us to look into adoption if our 3rd round of Clomid doesn't bring a BFP. We know we still have 3 more rounds yet and of course more options after Clomid (though I don't know what they are, possibly IVF and I'm not sure how I feel about it) but knowing that adoption is a lengthy process, we want to at least get information and get our names down in the meantime, just in case.

This morning I was reading about the process, the questions asked by social workers about mine and my husband's ability to care for a child in adoption (way too lengthy to explain fully) but as I read through, I felt in my heart that everything in every single question on each page, I could answer with confidence and experience because of the youth ministry and the kids we encounter etc plus the children in my family that are disabled etc... It all seemed to fit in so well and I felt like God has been equipping me and my husband to adopt.

I continued reading, crying along the way because I am overwhelmed at what I feel I have uncovered. I can't put my finger on it but I feel in my spirit that there's something connecting everything together and I just can't think what it is exactly. I need to commit this to the Lord and trust that He will guide us. If I am wrong and adoption isn't for us, He will close that door.

I am feeling a mixed bag of emotions right now because it's opened up questions to me... Would I ever be able to experience the joy of seeing a positive pregnancy test? Does this all mean I'm not meant to be a biological mother? To never experience my baby's movements inside my womb? To be able to give birth to my child? To hear the doctor tell us it's a girl or a boy? Or am I meant to be a spiritual mother? To mother someone else's child who needs an outpouring of maternal love that they've never had?

Of course I could be over analysing the whole thing and blowing it way out of proportion and actually adoption may be way off of God's plans for us but I can't shake off that feeling that Jennifer's words gave me.

I should be grateful and joyful to be a spiritual mother. But I feel sad that if that IS what I'm meant to be... I'll never experience those wonderful things that only a biological mother can. But God's will is higher than mine and better than mine and I just have to trust Him.

Sorry to have rambled on, but it's been helpful to write it all down. Please pray for me ladies, I really need God's guidance right now.

Also, before I forget.. I also had a dream last night that I had a beautiful little girl who must have been a few months old. Her hair was red (my husband and I both have dark hair) and she had big beautiful eyes. She was our adopted child. In my dream, I was holding her, she was smiling and cooing. My husband and my parents were all there too, smiling at her, playing with her. And I remember in my dream I said to my mother that I loved her (the child) and was happy that I had her, but sad that I never experienced giving birth to her or hearing the doctor tell my husband it was a girl. But I was filled with joy that I finally had a child that was my own. I also remember telling my Dad I had thought of changing her name and in my dream he told me not to because her name was already given to her.

Weird but I can't help but feel it all means something.

So please pray for me ladies. Sorry to have rambled on.

There were definitely some things I didn't agree with either, particularly a lot of the things in the "Burden Bearers" sections. But like you, certain parts would just touch me and make me see things differently. Or sometimes she would express into words exactly what I was feeling that particular day and had good words of wisdom.

I pray that God directs your path to whichever way it's supposed to go. Don't worry about it being based on your emotions. Either way, God will let you know clearly if it's right or not.

 

[stevens2010]

Thank you ladies.

GJ - Thank you for sharing and thank you for your prayers. I really appreciate it.

Wristwatch - I agree, the burden bearer sections were some of the parts I didn't agree with. I guess everyone is entitled to their own opinions though and some will agree where others won't.

 

[Godsjewel]

Thankfully I work at a place where I can put my headphones on and listen to these videos while I work.

Here's a good one about prayer.


https://www.joycemeyer.org/BroadcastHome.aspx?video=Seven_Hindrances_to_Prayer_–_Pt_3

 

[Crownjewelz]

Thanks for the prayers , unfortunately it is bad news. No heartbeat and judging by the development of the baby, the heart stopped beating just a day or two ago. I'm now praying for a natural miscarriage because I really do not want to have a D&C.

I'm heartbroken, but I know God has other plans for us.

I totally just stalked you on here to find out the final out come and I am heart broken for you. Just remeber that God cries with you when you grieve. Crawl up in his lap and cry, then let him wipe away your tears. You are so right he does have a plan for you. Try to think of it like this, God was short angels in heaven that day and required a new one.

Father, hold my sister Becky as she cries with grief. Hear her cries and fill her with an over whelming feeling of your presence and your tender love. As she leans not on her own understanding, help to know that the secret things are yours God. May her heart rest today in peace. Love her and comfort her in this time. In the matchless name of your son Jesus Christ, Amen!