BB, You may still get cross hairs if your next temp rises. Plug in a test temp and see? I'm sorry O is frustrating this month.
STG, I can understand those feelings. I pray that God comes into your life and helps you on your journey too, just as I pray that he comes into mine and helps me. I could sure use it. Odds are such a scary, scary thing for me anymore because of what happened to us was only a 1% chance.. and even then, he shouldn't have died because it could have been detected if we looked. And we didn't. And he did. Just so many things had to happen for it to turn out the way it did.. so I struggle believing that it's going to happen for us, too. I mean statistically speaking, clomid causes 80% of women to ovulate. Okay, check. Got that under control I think. The chance of getting pregnant on clomid is 30% per month. Without it, chances are around 25% per month on any given month. Again, numbers in my favor. 40-45% of couples get pregnant within 6 months of treatment. I'm still just so terrified that it will be in that 55-60% that don't get pregnant within 6 months. The first 2 cycles haven't worked.. so anyway, the moral of all that rambling is that I completely and totally understand the fear of being in that slim percentage that it won't work for. I had a friend at work who had literally tried EVERYTHING. She had endometriosis, no tubes anymore, and she got pregnant on her first of second IVF round. I think it was the first. She had no problems with her pregnancy, and she has a perfectly healthy and beautiful little girl now. I'm very confident that it will work for you.
AFM, temp dropped a decent chunk so I didn't bother to test this morning. Light bleeding. I'm sure AF will arrive full force afterwhile. You know the worst part about not getting pregnant? Telling hubby we failed again. Well me. I failed because it's my stuff that doesn't work right, not his. My clomid is waiting at the pharmacy for me. I'll start it Tuesday or Wednesday, depending if AF gets heavier today or not. It's just so frustrating because we were able to get pregnant on our own before.. granted it took 10 months but still.. We've already been kinda trying for 5 months, and actively definitely trying (temping, OPKs then added clomid in October) for 4 months. I don't know what to do differently. Doc doesn't want to increase the clomid because as long as you're ovulating, she says, more won't increase your chances. And I've read that in multiple places.. it's just hard. I don't want to go out and pretend to be sociable today. I want to stay in my sweats, drink my coffee, read my Nook, snuggle with my hubby, and let him convince me (AGAIN! just like every other month for the last 6 months) that it's going to be okay, that it's going to happen for us. My MIL made the comment twice yesterday that we need to get busy.. ugh. She means well and forgets that I have troubles. I'm trying as best I can. My SIL wants to do family pics, which I think is a great idea, so when my in-laws get back from Florida in 3 months, we'll probably do those so that means I have 3 months to lose some weight. Maybe focusing on that and cleaning up my diet (holiday time is the worst for eating crappy food!) will help. It seemed to do the trick for our last pregnancy.. I just feel so damn broken. I mean I tell the world that it will be okay, we'll get pregnant or we'll adopt or something, but only part of me believes that. I need a little more Faith in God maybe for starters. I just want a little family so badly.. just like we all do! Sorry.. end of rambling post!
Thank you so much for the prayers and understanding,
I will pray the same for you. We will be prayer warriors.
Too bad they can't give us 100% odds, then we could be worry free, lol. Thank you for your confidence and sharing that success story (makes me feel better), and I have a feeling it will all work out in the end for you, as well, and you will get your rainbow.
Sorry you are getting a temp drop and bleeding, boo witchlets!
I know exactly how you feel about having to tell DH. His body is totally fine and it's my body causing all the trouble and expense. And I know what you mean about feeling like maybe needing more Faith - I feel like God is telling me it will be all right in the end, but I want it to be all right because I get a baby, and it's hard to believe it will be all right (that I'll get a baby or find peace with wherever my journey takes me). It's such a hard journey to go through.
I'm so sorry Sandy
I feel the same way but we aren't failing. We are giving TTC one helluva fight and doing everything we can. Failures don't do that. Failures sit back and accept defeat. We will get pregnant one of these days and we will be the best mommas ever
I've temped the last 2 days and it's dropped a big chunk so I'm expecting AF tomorrow. I'm stopping the progesterone today so hopefully af won't be delayed. I just want to move on to next cycle.
That's a good way to look at it Nichole!
I'm sorry you are getting a big ol' temp drop and are expecting the witch.
If AF is gonna get you, I hope it won't delay, so you can move on to that next cycle. FX'd.
FX'd for next cycle (or for beating the odds and AF not getting you and you getting a bfp anyway)!
Here's a question for everyone: Does anyone else have a tummy that looks like an early baby bump (whether you are thin or not)? Many of the ladies on my mothers side have it (even when younger, although it gets more pronounced as we age), and so do I, and I notice most early bump pictures on here look how I look now. I know there are plenty of other women with this kind of tummy, esp. if they have endo, but I wonder if I'm alone here on that one or not.
I feel like I have that. I've always carried most of my fat on my tummy. I'm not thin. I never have been, and I know and accept that I never will be. Hubby likes me just the way I am, and he always tells me that, BUT I would like my belly to not look so fat. I don't have endo that I'm aware of though.
I'm so sorry Sandy I feel the same way but we aren't failing. We are giving TTC one helluva fight and doing everything we can. Failures don't do that. Failures sit back and accept defeat. We will get pregnant one of these days and we will be the best mommas ever
I've temped the last 2 days and it's dropped a big chunk so I'm expecting AF tomorrow. I'm stopping the progesterone today so hopefully af won't be delayed. I just want to move on to next cycle.
Thanks, Nichole. I didn't think about it like that. I like you're outlook. And you're right-- we will. This waiting part just sucks. I'm sorry you're in the same boat as I am.
Damn TTC.
I guess instead of complaining I should be thankful that the clomid seems to be working and my hormones seem to be doing what they should.. it could always be worse I guess. Maybe this is gonna be our lucky cycle.
I just had my heart set on a Christmas BFP.. but hubby said, yeah, it would be neat, but wouldn't a New Year's BFP be awesome? Or maybe a Superbowl BFP. Or even Easter! He's so positive. I'd be lost without him. And you guys.
Aw, your DH is great like that!
Ah, I'm glad I'm not alone, thank you.
(I've read the tummy is common in women with pcos, too, btw.)
When I'm not having a toady day (where I just feel unhappy with the way I look, even though yesterday I was happy with the way I look or fine with it) I actually like the way I look* (just my taste, I suppose - I always thought the ladies with tummies in paintings and pictures were pretty) until I start comparing myself to what the media presents as ideal or normal, now, and then I feel self conscious (not because I think flat tummies look better - they are no better or worse IMO, just different, and I find lots of different body shapes and sizes lovely and think the media could definitely stand to broaden it's definition of beauty) but because of the messages sent by the media that I am not normal or need improvement, which is hard not to let bother me. DH likes my body, as well, but on a toady day, or when the media gets to me, I have trouble not wishing for a flatter tummy. Although, regardless of the media, when I think about being PG I do wish for a flatter tummy so I could have a more striking transformation, LOL
What bothers me most now, is that one of the scars from my lap surgery is bigger than the other. I don't even mind the scars so much, but it bothers me they aren't even
*I still don't like the thinned hair on the top of my head, though, as I thought I looked better before and my hair was my favorite feature. I've been trying to make peace with it and appreciate it as another kind of beauty, but that's been a tough one for me. (Thinning hair is something most of the ladies on my dad's side of the family got around my age, and it's funny, I never noticed or thought it looked bad on them, but I don't like it on me.)
I've had a headache for nearly 2 days that is gradually getting worse
I have searched high and low but can not find paracetamol anywhere. I can only find sinus capsule that have paracetamol in. They have something else in aswell that I think dried up EWCM so can't take them.
Sorry you are having a headache and can't find relief, BB!
Can't you find paracetamol in stores, even?
Stg, I DEF have a "baby bump" with no baby (I mean, I can't count it at the size of an Appleseed). I'm still taking my weekly pics, but I think it's gonna be like week twenty before there is a difference. I *may* post a reference pic for you guys over in the mamas thread, but we seriously have some skinny-Minnie's in our group! Not pregnant, I am a size 10-12. Yes, I work out, yes, I'm the healthiest I've ever been, but for me and my body, that does not equal a flat belly.
Firsttime, fwiw, keep in mind that I was on the negative side of those clomid stats. I mean, I am a clomid baby - how did it not work for me!? And at my last appt with my RE he said, "if it doesn't work after six cycles, it won't work". He wanted me to do aggressive IUI - shots, triggers, monitoring - and I just didn't think that was right for us at the time. But I DID make the switch to femara, again, against his medical advice. FIRST cycle - pregnant. I'm not saying the clomid won't work, but I am saying that if it doesn't, there are other ways. It *willi happen for you. And Nichole. I feel so sure of it. And let me tell you, I hated when ppl said that because there is no way to know that, but I just feeeel it. Hugs, ladies. Hugs!
Ah, I'm glad to be further not alone, thank you.
Yes, please post your pics in the mamas thread! - I'm the same size as you (which is healthy for me and I worked hard to get up to per docs orders). I wanna see what will happen if I'm lucky enough to get PG, and viva la diversity!
Hugs!
Thanks Mirolee. I appreciate it. We will get there. Just not sure how or when quite yet.
One of the ladies that often follows along on our thread suggested insulin resistance as a problem, even with the clomid. I'm thinking she may be right. I had been on a low carb diet for 5-6 weeks and lost 20 pounds then I got my BFP. I am going to talk to hubby about it, and possibly call tomorrow and ask about metformin with the clomid. Getting ready to research it now.
That reminds me, I need to remember to ask about metaformin and diet at my IVF edu day calss, since I have reactive hypoglycemia. Note to self.
Definitely call and ask, Sandy
Maybe it will be the thing to put you over the top, if you need it!
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Glad you had a great weekend, Katrina!
It looks so cozy and inviting!
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AFM: Finally getting DH to sign the loan paperwork, now. Then I need to eat (so I have the energy to do battle with my computer if it doesn't want to play nice when I go to scan the paperwork back in), take my cabergoline, and scan and send.
Got our bunny day in today (just for fun, since I already O'd).
It looks like a Christmas card, outside, with all the snow, so we stayed in the warm house, today.
). I know that it's stinky now, and it still kind of is for me too. I just want this baby, alive and well, so bad. I feel like I'm at this standstill with my faith because I need a baby to move on. But we can't waste precious hours stopped in time, waiting, waiting. Trust me- I'm no pro either but just remember that *sooner rather than later* you'll wake up, POAS, and see those 2 pink lines and things will feel a little better. And you'll be a little bit more "okay" everyday. Enjoy your healing time and stay strong love. I'm glad you have an awesomely supportive DH too, that makes it so much easier. Oh and enjoy the holidays too, or at least try. Trust me, ours is quite bittersweet too this year :/ 
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