STG-Glad you checked in! We were wondering where you'd been! I hope they get it figured out for you and it works really soon
STG: I hope you get answers soon!
Thanks for thinking of me and for the well wishes, everyone!
I just have to really limit my visits to the boards to keep from obsessing (I can't take any anti-anxiety meds while TTC, so I have to do what I can to combat the OCD/anxiety, naturally). I look forward to my monthly check in with you guys, though.
Yay, for clean scans, Nichole!!!
Amanda- Praying for good news for you. Like I said how AWESOME would it be if they could find some spermies in there to save and try IVF?! Sending love your way, I can't imagine how DH feels. I know that has to be so hard to deal with. I'm so sorry that making babies is so dang difficult :/ Idk what you all are considering, but I think it is a fabulous idea to help an underprivileged baby out by adopting.. That would be so rewarding and DH wouldn't have to feel bad over donor sperm. Just my opinion though, FX'd for some sort of good news, I'll be thinking of you guys.
Thanks, hun. I don't want to sound selfish--and, I too think it would be amazing, I just really want to carry my own child first. I love being pregnant and I really want to give birth-- I have a really strong "craving" almost to experience that. Of course, if it isn't possible, then it isn't possible. Time will tell.
So sorry to hear you are having all this trouble, Amanda!
My condolences for the chemical and for whatever is going wrong with your DH's sperm.
What is going on with the sperm, exactly?
Anyway, FX'd and prayers for you!
Hi gals. I was away all wkd, and couldn't possibly catch up. Can someone give me a summary?
Afm, had a LOVLEY wkd with my honey. We visited friends in Boston fri-sat, then went sailing all day Sunday. I'm so in love with him, it was such a nice nice weekend.
Had a drs appt this morning with RE - he said a few things that really got me upset, and a couple good things as well. Basically, at 18 months ttc, and six cycles of clomid, our chances of conceiving naturally are low. OH continues to be supportive and positive and thinks nothing is wrong! All is well! We had a chemical so see! We can fertilize and egg! The next step would be some version of iui - medicated, monitored, etc.
The up side of the visit was he'll let me continue on clomid thru the end of the year. So at least I will continue to have regular cycles with good ovulation.
End of saga.
Sorry for the bad news
but yay for the good! FX'd and prayers for you!
That's true. I definitely would be a wreck if I had a chemical. I just wish I saw a light at the end of the tunnel.
I so feel you on that.
Take heart that one way or another, the TTC journey will eventually be over, hopefully with a desired ending. But I'm thinking even an undesired ending is better than forever in limbo. Limbo is the worst. One can always make the best of a bad situation, but the not knowing is absolutely maddening.
I've taken to breaking up my tunnel into pieces (like the natural piece, the IUI piece and the IVF piece), so that I can see the light at the end, even if that light seems like it's going to be a train (BFN). In 3 more months, I'll know if natural is going to work, I can see the light. It might be train, but I'm almost out of the natural tunnel and ready to move on to whatever is next.
I really hate this whole TTC tunnel though. Worst. Tunnel. Ever.
I don't know how it is for the rest of you still TTC, but for me, it's reached the point where each failed cycle is like the death of a loved one. It feels like each month I lose a baby that I never really had. And each failed cycle feels like the failure of all future cycles, like it's a portent of doom. And yet, I can't really know what will happen until I play out the string all the way to the end, so I'm stuck going through the cycle of hope and grief over and over and over, until I run through all my options or money, whichever comes first. Or until I get PG, but that's not been happening.
But at least I know the cycle of hope and grief will not be forever. One way or another, that cycle will come to an end and I'll be free of it. Wish it would happen sooner rather than later (by way of BFP) but whatcha gonna do. :/
girls! Still no O for me 
to everyone in this thread!
stays away and you get your
soon!
