Sorry this might be a bit of a ramble as I’m not quite sure how I’m feeling and need to get it out and see if anyone can relate? I have two sons who I absolutely adore. They’re very different from each other and I’ve never been one to conform to gender stereotypes myself and don’t want that for my sons either. I’m pregnant with my third very longed for baby. This one took us two years of TTC. We’ve decided not to find out the sex this time. We’ve been back and forth on it though! I am keen for a surprise because we’ve always found out with the other kids. At the last scan we were even told that we couldn’t find out if we wanted to as baby wasn’t giving anything away so obviously it’s meant to be Every time we have a scan though, I find myself obsessing over whether this baby is a boy or a girl. I think deep down I’m hoping for a girl but I hate admitting that as I’d never want anyone to think I’d be disappointed with my baby if it were a boy. I want this baby so much no matter their sex! I don’t even know why I’ve got that hope this is a girl. I’m not sure it would make any difference really? This is more than likely our last baby and I guess there’s that feeling that I’ll never have a daughter. I don’t know, I think I just need some help to figure out what I’m feeling and prepare for whatever happens. Has anyone been through this? Any advice?