Aww
@Teafor2 - Sorry about those news honey, but at least now there are definite steps toward removing any possible issue that might have been the reason for not getting your BFP so far. I think its really good news that now you have a plan of action!
And I totally get you with the language barrier. I am slowly learning Portuguese, but dang it is a difficult language to learn so its a process. Some doctors do not speak English well here, but so far I have always been lucky in terms of my boyfriend being able to be there with me to translate.
Also - I had a bit of a crying breakdown myself today...
We are in my Bf's hometown, and ran into some old friends of his who had a baby with them. It's crazy how not too long ago it used to not bother me to see a baby, it used to make me happy and I would always interact with them.
But today, it was so hard to even look at that baby and I immediately felt myself tear up.
Once they left and we entered the coffee place and sat down at the table, I couldn't help but cry. This never happened to me before.
I'm 6 DPO today and just feel hopeless about this cycle. I have had some light spotting all day which I personally dont believe can be implantation spotting. I think it's a bad sign to be spotting this early, which of course had me vulnerable today and then seeing that baby... ugh
On a bright note however... my bf is such a darling. When we got home I broke down crying even more and he spent a good hour just comforting, hugging, holding me. He then proceeded to put on the song "Hakuna Matata" on his phone, whilst making theatrical gestures and facial expressions and little dances. Couldn't help but smile and giggle at that.