man you ladies are writing looooads! didn't read through anything from yesterday to now, but just wanted to announce that i broke up with FOB!!!!! i feel soooo much better!
i sent a huuuge email explaining things as i know how he gets and didn't want the face-to-face conversation for my well-being. right after he received the mail he called and i had to listen to hundreds of F-bombs. he decided to leave work and come home to talk about things and i made clear to him, that i wouldn't talk to him if he won't calm down. he did calm down, the talk wasn't pretty though, but it's all out now and as my retreat i'm now booking a private scan for the first july weekend. he apparently committed to paying half of the medical expenses, so my burden goes down by over $2000,-. i'll see if he really does, but he knows what is at stake!
thanks for your kind words again yesterday!!!!
off to work now.