I can't believe today is exactly 6 months from my EDD! This coming Tuesday is 4 months from the day I can start my maternity leave.
Had a pretty crappy night last night. I've been having horrible headaches, where I can't do anything. I've been resting and/or crying for the past 3 days. I won't allow myself to drive because of how dizzy I can get all of a sudden. I went to the doctor on Tuesday and he said that headaches are pretty hard to diagnose the cause of. He thinks it may be my sinuses so told me to take anti-histamines and use a nasal spray (nose is stuffed up, but not runny).
I was panicking last night. Thinking about how I could convince my doctor that I am too stressed out and sick (which is true) to work, and so to go on sickness leave. But then I was getting sad about that idea because as much as I would appreciate being able to be at home resting, I am the only one working in our house right now and we can't afford the pay cut!
I was trying to explain my worries to DH last night and all I kept getting was "just try to relax", "it'll all work out". I just started bawling, threw in a curse word, and went to sit on the couch and read up on maternity and sick leave.
Woke up this morning in a much better mood, although at 330 I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep for an hour, with my alarm clock waking me up at 620 to go to work. YUCK!
I'm just counting down the days when I can stop working and start focusing on myself and my family a bit more.
Thanks for reading, I really needed to rant!!