Good morning guys! (at least, it's morning here!) I woke up at 6am and lost my mucus plug! Big ol' gross blob of yellow cm. TMI I'm sorry, and very gross, but I wiped and somehow it flung onto the floor! LOL!! Don't ask me how that happened!!
Went back to bed, but I couldn't sleep because I was getting periody crampy feelings in my lower belly and a bad ache in my lower back. That seems to have gone away now that I got up and am moving around a bit. I just feel very strange and exactly like I do when my period is starting. Okay, so just as I type that I start getting another cramp, lol! I'm really thinking something is happening, as it's so different from anything else that's been happening with me. Pains were pretty bad in bed, not so bad now so we'll see.
What's really got me surprised is how I'm feeling emotionally right now! I've been wanting SO badly to go into labor on my own instead of having to have the c-section, and now that things feel like that might actually happen (if not today then soon), I am seriously freaking out. I am so scared that baby is really big and will get stuck, or I'll go through what I did last time. I am almost considering just going in and saying, give me a section! I think I could do that if I chose, since I had one previously. I think what I'll do is go in, explain my last birth, and tell them that if when they check me they think baby is large again or might not come out to please give me a section. It was so stressful and worrying last time I don't want to do that again. It's not the thought of contractions and pushing her out that scare me, it's what might go wrong. I feel like I don't know what to do...
Oh, and Gen, so glad Summer is gaining weight!!