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I've been wanting baby no. 2 for years but never tried as we weren't in the right place financially so this pregnancy was a surprise.
The moment I got my BFP I was terrified and cried. I cried telling OH. I cried telling my immediate family and close friends. Deep down I still feel devestated. When someone mentions the baby I feel sick and my anxiety skyrockets.
My life had just fallen into a fantastic place where everything was looking up. Now I feel like I'm starting all over again. Just like when I had my first child as a teenager. At the time I also suffered from serious post natal depression which was never treated.
It's been 6 weeks since I've found out and I still cry. I even bought a doppler to hear babies heartbeat but it still doesn't make me feel any better. I'm gonna have to tell people in work soon and I feel sick thinking about it.
I truly feel terrible and guilty writing this. All I've wanted for years is another baby. And I think about all those amazing couples ttc and how painful it must be.
Is this a normal thing to go through? Surely 6 weeks is long enough to accept it? Does this feeling ever go away? Because right now I think I need to talk to a professional (Not that I want to in the slightest)
The moment I got my BFP I was terrified and cried. I cried telling OH. I cried telling my immediate family and close friends. Deep down I still feel devestated. When someone mentions the baby I feel sick and my anxiety skyrockets.
My life had just fallen into a fantastic place where everything was looking up. Now I feel like I'm starting all over again. Just like when I had my first child as a teenager. At the time I also suffered from serious post natal depression which was never treated.
It's been 6 weeks since I've found out and I still cry. I even bought a doppler to hear babies heartbeat but it still doesn't make me feel any better. I'm gonna have to tell people in work soon and I feel sick thinking about it.
I truly feel terrible and guilty writing this. All I've wanted for years is another baby. And I think about all those amazing couples ttc and how painful it must be.
Is this a normal thing to go through? Surely 6 weeks is long enough to accept it? Does this feeling ever go away? Because right now I think I need to talk to a professional (Not that I want to in the slightest)