Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[LucyJ]

lovely ladies just popping in quickly to say hello and check how you all are as I'm at my parents today I had my flying lesson this morning and it was amazing it was a beautiful if chilly day just wonderful being in the sky flying a plane just what I needed so I am now feeling very hopeful at the moment so steve and I have decided to try again this month a little scared but as I said hopefull today.

Dawny I am so sorry massive to you to jenny as well hope the witch doesnt hang around to long.

Hearty at your spillage story but it would make a great conception story just like sassy (who I thought about when reading it) and amy. I'm glad your thanksgiving meal went well the food sounds gorgeous. I am keeping everything crossed for you that this is your month and the blanket you made is beautiful.

Megg ow to the three needles and I'm with the other girls you need to put yourself first and look after you you have a lot going on. You need to be your number 1 pirioity at the moment to you. I like the blanket idea as it something warm, comfy and protective you could choose a fabric that means something to you if that makes sense.

Mone congrats on being headhunted as its always nice if you dont feel up to it then dont as I said to megg you need to look after yourself. Yes I know what you mean about going out I found it very hard was inscure and nervey after my losses after my first loss I would only leave the house if steve was with me it was 4 weeks before I really ventured out on my own and thats because some supply work came up. After the most recent loss steve had to make me leave the house and I'm glad he did as I was getting to the point where I was starting to feel scared and I knew I had to start going out I did it in small steps literlly going to the corner shop and home then going a bit further the more confident I got for me my supply worked helped but I was working in a school I knew and felt confortable and it was only one to a few days a week and not every week. to you here if you need anything take it at your own pace what you feel confident and comfortable with.

Allie that must be such a difficult situation and I know you must want to be there for your parents to help them through but please look after yourself as well

Nato I am keeping everything crossed for you aswell as its not over till its over so no more talking of being a chirstmas lush!! Your class sounds very heavy and someone being mean to you not on do you want me to come over and sort her out

Vicky I hope you manage to get some sleep and with no bad dreams I cant imagine how you must be feeling you are in my thoughts sounds like alex is being wonderful just what you and your friends wife & children need.

Much love to all the disco derailers

 

[dawny690]

She is here now fully Light flow im happy she has come without needing any help xxxx

 

[Megg33k]

Oh my, I wake up to all sorts of ho bag complaints. I'm sorry Jenny, Dawny and Meggles. She just sucks so bad!!! I wish guys got her too so they knew what we go through. Uugghh.

Nato, your chart looks amazing chick. I know, I know, your chart always looks amazing. So we won't get prematurely excited in the Disco thread (but secretly we will). Good luck getting beat up today. I hope you hit them back with "I" statements, and owning your own feelings, and boundary setting. Ahhh therapist talk, isn't it fun?

Allie, love the picture. I grew up with snowy winters but now living in the Bay Area, the only winter weather we get is rain. And boy is it raining right now. I kind of love it. I miss the New England seasons, so any shift in a season makes me happy. Yes, Megg is right about your CBFM. It will most likely ask you on CD 9 for your first stick, given you Ov'd fairly late. If you Ov'd on CD 14, it would ask for the sticks on CD 6. As for your family, that's a lot of responsibility you've taken on. There's only so much you are required to do for your parents. Of course you want to help them both, but remember, this is their relationship and their roller coaster. They chose to be with each other which includes good times and awful ones. Bipolar is no fun though and if she isn't taking meds, it can be impossible to deal with sometimes. I hope they are seeking out professional help.

Megg, I love the idea of a blanket. I made one for my friend's baby a while back. Her child is 3 now and still uses it as her number one blanket. It makes me feel so good! I'm attaching a few pictures of it. If you ever wanted one like this, I'd totally make one for you. You could pick out your own fleece and send it to me and I'd sew it. Food for thought. Thinking of you today. Hope all goes well with stimming and the EDD.

Well, I managed to get in a session with Tim last night, old fashioned style. No cups. No spillage! But, to be honest, I think I already ovulated. Oh well, better to try than not try. One more temp will confirm that I ov'd on CD 16 which is a miracle for me. I had a talk with Tim last night and told him if I don't get pregnant this cycle, then I'll be Ov'ing again on Christmas. I told him he needed to make BD'ing more of a priority next cycle. He agreed. Luckily we don't do a big Christmas celebration, so we can really focus on baby making. In some ways it would be poetic as I had my first 2 mcs around that time. Anyhoo, I hope I don't even have to think about next cycle.

Oh, Amanda... That's gorgeous! I'd love one! If I sent you the stuff, you'd really make me one? That would be amazing!!!

I think your bases are probably covered pretty well, even if you did ovulate already. It only takes one!

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Amanda - Ahh I love that little blanket, I could never do anything like that! Glad you and Tim managed to BD, I hope you caught this month hunny, how amazing would Xmas feel pregnant?!

Megg - Sorry the witch is still around, I cannot believe how quick your IVF is coming around, I love love love that you put pics etc on FB, poeple are so secretive about things like that so I love that your so open with everyone. I'm so exicted to follow your journey.

Lucy - WOW sounds amazing, you sound like your really buzzing from it, can't wait to see the pics. OMG I am so so so happy that you have decided to try again, really excited for you, will be watching you closely hunny.

I'm feeling alot better and today will be day 3 with no sicky so I'm literally feeling like a new woman.xxxxx

 

[MinnieMone]

Megg, I think your friend may have just posted in TTC.... I think a blanket is a lovely idea. Do you have a charm bracelet? If not maybe you could start adding charms for your angels as well as your (soon!) lil one.

Dawney - I'm so sorry hun, I don't know what to say, take care of yourself.

Lucy - flying lessons sound fantastic, that must be an amazing feeling, and so glad you feel up to trying again. What you said about going out is exactly how I am feeling, just really scared and anxious of being out, especially around lots of people, I'm ok in the park but just feel I want to be home as it seems safe somehow. Think Nato was spot on when she said because I wasn't working when everything happened, it's almost like I didn't have the normal people interaction that I had with the other mc's, so I've become very insular and isolated. I do need to go and see this agency next week tho' so will have to pull myself out of it, sure if I do it once I'll be ok. I'm down to Kent to stay with my folks end of next week as well so I'll be away from M as he has to work, that might help.

Sugar - I'm a PA hun, I worked for a quite well known entrepreneurper years ago, so all the agencies call me straight away now if they have anyone who is even semi-famous looking for a PA... even tho' i've said I don't want stress!!! and working for those kind of peeps brings loads of it. I could stay off work for a few more months yet, not well off but got quite a good redundancy last year which can keep me going, plus my outgoings are pretty low now I live with M. I'm stressing a bit though because last time I got a full-time job in Feb, I found out I was pregnant the day before my first day, so felt I had to tell them, which in retrospect was a huge mistake as I lost 3 weeks later and of course it put me in a bad light straight away - my boss was such a prick that he would ask me practically every month if I was pregnant again (which I usually was!) and it really got me down. I was office manager and had 4 PA's that reported into me and it just got very difficult - hence why i left. I don't want that to happen again, which is why I'm thinking just some temp work or maybe a 3-4 month contract..... god I'm rambling!

Nato - it's still early days, and if your temp is looking good then I don't think you should give up hope this month..... but it does sound like you've had a shit week hun. hope you had a better session today.

Hearty - I do think I'm probably depressed, but I get good days and bad days so I don't think it's become clinical. Glad you and Tim managed to get a BD in, and ha ha to your spillage!! that's dedication for you..... made me think I need to dust my bedside table!

I am having a thai chicken curry made for me as I speak with naan bread and basmati, M is a fab cook So so hungry, it feels about -10 here in London tonight, can't wait for X factor and have a snuggle down, am 5dpo today and feeling very tired, tingly boobs, and heartburny (maybe curry not such a great idea)....going to test Weds!

Have a lovely day/evening everyone...

 

[heart tree]

Lucy, flying terrifies me. I'm so envious that you are so fearless of it. I get a huge amount of anxiety when I fly to the point where my heart beats faster and I start to sweat. I don't know where this phobia came from, but I hate it. Good for you for finding something you love. I'm glad it instilled hope in you. And yay for your decision to start trying again. I know how scary it is, but my feeling is that I'll regret it if I don't try, regardless of the result.

Dawny, I'm glad you are finding the silver lining to getting AF. Good for you.

Megg, I would absolutely make a blanket for you. We can PM about what I'd need. I love sewing and have been trying to think of a new project. I've only made one of these blankets, but really want to make another. I've been waiting to have my own baby to make one but you know how that is going. At some point I was thinking about selling them. I got the idea from a blanket that a baby I babysat for had. I examined it and recreated it with fabrics that I liked.

Sassy, I'm loving that you aren't sick! It's because you are moving into the second trimester soon and the sickness start to wane. Can you believe you are almost in the second tri???

Mone, sounds like your last job was extremely stressful. It's no wonder you don't want to start a new job. It sounds like it could be a trigger for you. I know you'll pull yourself out of it though. I think taking it in small doses is an excellent idea. Enjoy your delicious sounding food. Mmmmm

I don't know when I last dusted my bedside table. Now I'm disgusted. I'm going to clean it now.

 

[Sassy_TTC]

OMG Hearty you just made the story 1 million times funnier as I imagined Tim's swimmers among the dust on your bedside table that you then inserted into your doo-dah

I cannot believe for 1 second that I will soon be in 2nd tri, it doens't feel real, it doesn't feel like my life!! My pregnancy has flown by soooo fast already, feels like only yesterday I found out, I think in all my other pregnancies I have wished away everyday, I made a huge deal out of every week we passed, I think I always knew deep down we were on borrowed time! I haven't thought about the weeks at all with this pregnancy, I just look forward to appointments, maybe it's going so quickly because for once I don't feel on edge all the time.

I think once everyone knows it will feel alot more real.xxx

 

[heart tree]

When are you going to start telling people? And when did you officially realize you were pregnant? I was trying to look back to see how far along you actually were, but I couldn't dig through all of the pages. It's amazing to me how quickly it has gone by for you too. And you do seem very relaxed about it. I'm amazed by that.

Oh god, dusty swimmers, that's all I need! LOL!

 

[NatoPMT]

Good evening. Mone, minus 10???

Im agog. And cold.

Im watching Top Celebrity Feuds and i have a box of M&S chocolate rounds. Best chocolate biscuits. Sod them, come and be my PA. I will pay you in chocolate rounds. And all you'd have to do would be phone in work sick for me. Sum of my PA needs.

Had another bfn, but only 11dpo. Im notbothered.com. Im sulky and defensive. Its like im in a huff with my own ovaries - im not talking to them.

Hearty, class was ok cos we didnt process at all, just checked out. A few of the other students havent realised thats were processing lies. They talk on behalf of the group and talk about what happened rather than how they felt about it. Im glad Tim has made a commitment to prioritising, hopefully your super strong medicated egg will attract disorientated dusty sperm this time round. Your so clever to be able to make that blanket, i cant even sew a button on.

Ah Luce, thanks for the offer but apparently i have to actually talk about it rather than scream, run off and hide behind you. More's the pity. Cor, go you on the cessna piloting. Are you Mones celebrity client? Gotta at admit, you are way braver than I too.

Dawny, glad to hear that things arent being made more difficult.

Hi Sassers, get you and your healthiness. I have a cold sore and the sniffles. Im jealous of your immune system

 

[Sassy_TTC]

We won't be telling anyone until 20 weeks, I have a scan at 16weeks to check heart etc so after that we may tell our group of best friends but nobody else!

Hubby's Dad is having a huge party in January when I'll be 20weeks so we will be showing up with the bump on show (tight dress), can't wait to see everyone's faces!!xx

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Oh I was 5 weeks when I found out so still know for 7 weeks, I feel so calm and relaxed and to be honest Hubby is alot more of a mess than me, I just think what will be will be I don't want to be a crazy preggo, I want to enjoy everday of this pregnancy feeling like I've never been through a loss, I love that innocence that got taken from all of us. I still think of our babies everyday and so thankful to them, as without them we would not be where we are right now. Sounds stupid but I'm soooooooo proud of this baby, he/she is our little fighter and a total miracle we never thought would happen. xxx

 

[heart tree]

That sounds perfect Sass. Can we see pics of the 20 week tight dress bump??

Nato, so glad you didn't get that emotional beat down. Your class needs some more lessons, don't they? I don't believe in bfn's at 11dpo. Glad you aren't concerned, because I'm not either.

 

[NatoPMT]

are you watching X Factor? I really enjoyed wagner's song (maybe im just relived i wasnt cringing) . What a fucking idiot Louis is though. "im a winner'. Durr.

 

[Sassy_TTC]

Me too Nato, I think he sang that well, he will no way win though!!

Yes of course I'll show you pics, just need to find a gorgeous dress now but I'm going to wait until Jan to see how fat I am then!xxxx

 

[NatoPMT]

I don't believe in bfn's at 11dpo. Glad you aren't concerned, because I'm not either.

bfns at 11dpo are like pixies and goblins. Mythical. Thats what i like to think.

 

[NatoPMT]

Im not sure Sassers, he is getting massive numbers of votes. Rage Against the Machine got christmas number 1 last year too.

 

[MinnieMone]

-10 may have been a slight exaggeration. Payment in chocolate and the odd bit of phone work sounds like my kind of job, and you won't get grumpy with me when I get preggo again, we could just be on bnb all day, try on shoes and watch celebrity programes. i think the famous person might be sarah beeny actually,they said it was a famous property couple, and i can't think of anyone else apart from the candy brothers and they're not a couple, natch... mmmh she couldn't get pissed off with me she's always pregnant.

Hearty - maybe we'll find dust improves chances of conception, they'll start stuffing handful's in tubes for 'easy insertion'....

I have just scoffed a crunchie ice cream and whoever created it should have won some sort of peace prize or something....honeycomb icecream, chocolate and popping corn - or space dust to those who are old enough to remember it originally, and it was as m said 'a taste sensation'. with a serious face.

Sassy - i'm so happy for you that you have been able to enjoy this pregnancy without worry or anxiety and to not tell everyone till 20 weeks, wow, you must be a great person to tell a secret to, the faces on everyone when you turn up at the party will be priceless!

X factor is annoying me tonight, though i'm glad cheryl has whipped off those tacky polyester hair extensions, much classier now.

also nato - could your cold sore not be a good sign? whenever i've got a BFP i've felt like i'm coming down with a cold in the TWW... just a thought, I'm happy to stick two fingers up at your ovaries along with you if you'd rather.... but i still think it could be early (does that get annoying, tell me if it does, because I know when you know you just know).... i think i might be slipping into a honeycomb sugar coma i can't seem to engage my brain)

 

[sugarlove]

Hey all. Just watching X Factor. Creep is one of my fave songs of all times and yes Nato, Louis is a knob for not knowing the words! Thought Mary was a bit boring this week, but loved the lads. They may win the way they're going!

I've munched my way through a bar of Resses peanut butter cups. I bloody love em but can't find them in any shops. I ordered a batch off the internet as I think I may be addicted to them! Got to have something to treat myself with as I'm on the wagon at the mo

Lucy, sounds like you've had a fun day. Hearty, I hate flying too. Got a proper phobia and haven't flown for over 5 yrs now. I'm such a coward! That blanket looks fab Hearty. Reckon you should go into business making the blankets for people off BnB

Nato, sorry about BFN, but it is still a bit early and your chart looks fab

Mone, sounds like you have mixed with some right names! Good luck this month, the symptoms are sounding promising already

Dawny sorry the bitch got you

Sassy, can't believe you're nearly in the second tri already. That has flown by!

Hi to everyone else x

 

[sugarlove]

Megg, have you started the stimming hunny

 

[sugarlove]

God Cher is rock hard! I wouldn't mess with her!