Disco Derail! - TTCAL/PAL Discussion and Support!

[Megg33k]

I just feel so stupid that I didn't realize how hard it would be to see it. I thought worrying that it might not work would be worse. I wish I'd just worried instead.

Ya know the stupidest part? If it weren't so perfect, I wouldn't care so much. In real life, its just absolutely stunning... both lines of the same exact color, strip positioned perfectly (which they sometimes aren't), just the brightest, clearest pink ever. I was silly enough that I took a video of the test result coming up. I was already almost crying by the end, and the only thing I could manage to say was exactly what I typed on the picture... "Maybe next one will be real..." And, I think I said it in the smallest voice in the world. I barely managed to get that out. No one will ever see that video!

 

[heart tree]

What you are going through, what we are all going through is powerful and can sometimes overwhelm without advanced notice. I've found myself to be strong during times I never imagined I'd be strong. And then I break down during times that are completely unexpected. It's all par for the course babe.

 

[Megg33k]

Well put, Hearty! I totally sopped up my tears with my journal! LOL Just fell completely apart. It was nice to get it out "on paper"... so to speak. I'm slowly starting to breathe through my nose again too! LOL

 

[Allie84]

Amy, I really like that couch. I like the 'Mad Men' style Hearty was talking about as well (especially in clothing...I looooove vintage dresses but haven't found one anywhere to fit my big boobs, sad). I hope you enjoyed Six Feet Under and are now sleeping soundly.

Megg, blame those hormones. I cannot even imagine how you are coping with the anticipation.

I know it's daft but I'm currently wondering if I even ovulated. I didn't feel any pain...and it was sooner than the Dr. said it would be so I'm worried the follicle didn't mature....and he only saw one follicle maturing, or one dominant as he said, that doesn't seem like a lot...and now my cervis is low so it's over now...I did get a peak on the monitor but I didn't use OPKs so who knows if the monitor is correct. I'm just feeling really unsure about it for some reason.

 

[Megg33k]

How big was the follicle and what day did he see it? You normally only should have 1 dominant follicle. What I'm doing isn't "normal"... Don't let it confuse you. Your chart suggests that you haven't ovulated yet. But, some people don't ovulate until a few days after their Peak. Just keep temping!

 

[heart tree]

Remember Allie, your peak is your LH surge. It acts just like an Opk. Bearing that in mind, you should ov 12-36 hours after your peak. I agree with Megg. Your chart doesn't indicate ov yet but I bet you'll see a rise in temps soon. Don't fret, you are about to ov.

 

[vickyd]

Completely random post here but i just want to say how great everyone in this thread is....Hearty you helping Amy get through the night brought tears to my eyes....Im so happy and proud to know you all!

 

[cazza22]

I agree Vicky darling, amazing bunch of women in here I love it!!!

Meggles mahoosive hugs to u Babe it us soooooo gonna happen for you ok! Xxxx chin up xxxx lov Caz

 

[prgirl_cesca]

Prego, I hope you feel better this morning. I never went to our ER either as they don't scan unless you're heavily pregnant which is a shame. I hope it slows down today. Enjoy cuddles with your cat.

Megg - I feel sad looking at that test too because it's so perfect. You will have a test looking like that soon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Off to scan in 30 mins...terrified...

 

[vickyd]

Cesca good luck at the scan!! Everything will be fine hun!

 

[sugarlove]

Bless you Megg, that will be a real BFP soon sweetie

Hearty, that is so sweet of you to help Amy through the night

Amy, hope you're doing ok

Cesca good luck at the scan

Hi to everyone else

I tested this morning at 8dpo (far too early I know!) and got a glaring white BFN. My temps took a nose dive this morning too, so reckon I'm going to start spotting soon as usual, and then AF will arrive. My gynae has also cancelled the appt for this morning as she's off sick. I totally lost the plot and bust into tears. It's rearranged for next Thurs, but I'm so sick of the waiting and even when I see her, I could be waiting weeks for the lap.

 

[vickyd]

Sugar boo for the temp nose dive....Is this a definate sign that AF will be on soon???
Totally understandable that you lost it hun....I always feel better after a good hysterical cry..

 

[grandbleu]

SugarLove - So sorry for you low temp this AM...I totally burst into tears each month I get a nose dive so you are not alone in the monthly crying episodes...who knew we had this much water built up in us! ...

I'm always one for hope though until there is actual blood...how long is your LP usually? if it's like 13-14 days than a temp dip at DPO8 might not mean anything and just be a funky temp...maybe even implantation dip??? I don't know your normal cycle but just wanted to inject a bit of PMA into your morning...Good luck with getting an APPT. with your doctor soon!

 

[NatoPMT]

I thought the same as Vic, I’m so glad hearty was posting overnight

Amy, how are you today? I hope you got some sleep last night, and that your lil cat kept your feet warm.

I have to say (in my limited experience), the cramping and pain came first for me too. Most of the disco pregnancies have had difficult moments and as often as not, the problems have passed. I know you feel it’s over, so I shall respect your instinct and feelings, but I am still hoping for you here.

I’m really shocked at how difficult it is to get a scan arranged, I don’t think you had any option to pay for them.

Yogi – that’s a bfp - I see it I see it!!! Congrats to you, massive ones.

Cazza, the pic is amazing. Im agog with amazement. Congrats to you too

Sorry about the bfns to sugar and hearty. So crap. I hope the appointments get sorted soon, if you do start spotting, then you have an extra month of evidence to demand some LP answers

 

[vickyd]

Nato its the same here, if you walk into an ER in early pregnancy requesting a scan you wont get seen as they consider that they cannot do anything to prevent the MC. To get a scan at a private clinic here is very cheap though 40-60 euro so no one even tries to go through the National health.

How you feeling sweetie???

 

[prgirl_cesca]

All was very well with baby at the 20 week scan!

It was being a little tinker though and sitting very low and awkward for the measurements but we got there in the end. She said everything looks fine and nothing to suggest anything is wrong.

Hubby is convinced it's a girl, I am 80% sure I saw a penis, so we'll see!! Even moreso after googling boy 'potty' shots as it looked exactly the same on the screen.

So relieved and can't wait to meet him/her!

 

[prgirl_cesca]

And here is its little face

 

[LucyJ]

Amy I am thinking of you I understand that feeling of thinking its over but I so hope that everything is alright, here for you. Glad you are with family and they are looking after you.

Vicky I completely agree about how wonderful the women are in the disco derail I would have been lost without all of you and feel hounoured to know each and everyone of you. So glad hearty could be there to support amy through the night.

Sugar that totally sucks about your appointment and I understand you breaking down over it you want answers and dont want to have to wait any longer for them hope at you next appointment they do everything you want. Oh it is to early to test so I'm not giving up on you and staying hopefull (if thats ok with you)

Dazed so sorry but your not out untill the witch shows her ugly face.

Hey nato how you doing?

Cesca I am so happy for you how are you feeling? Do you feel like you can relax a bit more now? Gorgeous pic.

Megg I am so sorry you were upset and understand why but it will be real very soon I am sure of that. I am so exicted for you tomorrow your one step closer to your forever baby.

Allie keep and hopefully you will ov in the next day or so as its normally 24 to 36 hours after you get your peak I believe.

Love you all

 

[sequeena]

Cesca that's brilliant! Love the scan pic

for all those who need/want them xx

 

[Razcox]

Morning all! Well its another chilly one here burrrrrrrr!

Amy - Sorry you are having a rough time, how you feeling this morning? Hope there still isnt any pain and the bleeding hasnt got any worse. I really hope you are wrong and everything is fine in there for you. Its hard for us to think on the the bright side after so many knockbacks but sometimes it can be ok in spite of things like bleeding. A girl in another thread had a huge clot after weeks of bleeding and a scan showed everything was ok xxx

Meg - Sorry the BFP upset you hun but remember that its a good thing and gets you one step closer to you real BFP

Sugar - Thats really shitty about your appoinmtment, i love the fact we have the NHS but the waiting around all the time is a nightmare. I sometimes wish we could afford private! Fingers crossed once the ball gets rolling things move a bit quicker for you x

Cesca - So happy that the scan went well for you hun, its mad though that you are 20 week already!

Cazz - Thats a wonderful scan pic you must be so happy xxxxx

Dazed - Sorry about the BFN and hope its just taking a little longer to come up for you, will try and order the to stay the hell away!

Nato - How you doing chick? cant remember where in your cycle you are???

Allie - If your temps havent gone up yet i would keep BDing, i got a peak the day before i got the rise on mine. If you were not going to OV though i dont think you would have gotten a peak just a lot of highs. Well thats what mine did after my last MC when it took a couple of trys to OV. Fingers crossed for you.

Yogi - I want to see your ! Stupid work monitor is crap though so will have to wait until i get home!

AFM - Well despite all the PMA i am trying to throw Amy's way i am being a right hypocrite when it comes to myself! My symptons seem to have gone, *Poof* i havent felt sick for over a week, there is no bump or anything that some girls seem to be feeling just fat. My clothes are not getting any tighter and i dont have to pee as much. All this is worring me a bit with the brown spotting/gushes i have had. I know these have stopped and i have normal CM now and i also logically know that your symptons do start to ease at this point and i am a bigger girl so wont show as early as my skinny counterparts. I do still have tender boos, mood swings and i feel sleepy as well as getting tired easy but it doesnt help with the paranoia that the scan is going to go badly. Why cant i be like some of the other bright shiney people and look forward to my scan?

Sorry will stop the wallow now i promise!