Due In May :)

[Hann12]

Just found baby's heart beat on the Doppler, so exciting!

 

[BDownmommie]

Starry - I don't think that that's a selfish post at all. We are all here to share our experiences, the good, the 'not-so-good' and the funny. I am happy you are letting us know what is going on, especially since there is a heartbeat. As for the dating/size, maybe you did get a false BFP originally and that threw your dates off. Regardless, you have a nice heartbeat and baby inside you - and that's what matters....so happy for you.

Hann - so cool. Heartbeat on the doppler - yay. What a wonderful sound, every time I hear it, it brings tears to my eyes.

I had another scan yesterday and saw the twins....DH came with me and he swears he saw them moving. The doc took a second look and yep, baby b was definately moving around. (Not that i could see it, but I will take their words for it lol). All is still well (knock on wood) with the twins - and finally got my OB scheduled and ready (my gp was concerned bc she needs to ensure that there is a neonatal clinic close by to where i deliver as i am high risk - but fortunately, there is, about 25 minutes from my house....yay = i think....)

 

[eggo preggo]

Just found baby's heart beat on the Doppler, so exciting!

Hann you got me all excited, went straight to ebay and bought Sonolineb 3mhz for 38Euro! yay, cant wait.

Starry thats such good news that you heard the heartbeat what is the next step now? do you have a follow up app?

 

[Sass827]

Fx for you star.

 

[Powell130]

FX'd for you Starry!!

Hann, I may just go ahead and order a doppler now! haha

 

[Starry Night]

I have my appointment with my doctor on the 24th. That was the earliest I could see him for the results of my emergency scan back on the 4th.

I'll be a better participant in this thread once I'm home from vacation. I fly back tonight. The hardest part right now is that DH isn't with me.

 

[Starry Night]

Starry well 110 sounds much better than 89, it doesn't sound like the sonographer was very experienced if they can't actually get the heartbeat right. I have heard from other girls that 110 can be normal for around the 6 week mark so if you are at that stage then it could be fine. You say you have a cyst, I have heard that they can give false bfp, maybe you got your positive from the cyst and then coincidentally fell pregnant? Is that possible? I have no idea just a theory to throw in! I hope it ends up with good news, the hcg is a great number though!

Afm - was up all night with DD, she wouldn't sleep, just screaming. It was awful. I feel terrible today. Both tired and sick. Sorry for the moan!

I never heard that about the cyst. DH and I stopped dtd once I got my bfp but maybe the cyst gave me an extra-early bfp. I would have only been 3+2 on the 19th if my current dates are correct.

 

[Sass827]

A week from tomorrow? Good stuff star. I know it will make it a tough week, but at least you can get home to your family and the date is in sight ad within reach.

 

[JustFluffy]

Starry, that is good news about the heartbeat! I definitely wouldn't give up when there is still a heartbeat either! I am keeping my FX'd for you dear, I can't wait to hear news from your next appointment.

 

[AerisandAlex]

Fingers crossed for you Starry I'm glad they were able to find 110bpm! That's really good actually, my daughter was around 113bpm if I remember correctly so that sounds great

That's exciting Hann! I think those things are great, they really help ease the mind


-Went to the ER this morning after a little more cramping and I swear, everyone's pulling at my heart about this baby!

I went, they didn't do any blood work, just pulled up my other blood work from last week and decided to do an ultrasound. I explained what had happened during my last one and that the blood work shows there's probably a baby there somewhere, it's just difficult to see. They said they would look everywhere for a baby to make sure.

Well, the ultrasound was LONG, I swear the girl was looking everywhere. I knew she couldn't tell me anything but I still was bugging the crap out of her about things. She kept smiliing though so I figured she saw something... and in the middle of the ultrasound she said she needed to leave for a moment to look for a second tech for a second opinion on some of the pictures... she LEFT the room AND LEFT the wand inside too.

I couldn't help myself, I had to look myself and I'll tell you, doing a trans-vaginal ultrasound yourself is NOT easy but I was able to find the sac myself and I saw my little bean!! I was so excited but it was very difficult to look at the screen (because I had to sit up a little) and hold the picture on the baby.

I felt great when she came back in and took the rest of the pictures, she looked really positive, but... she never ran the heart beat doppler, or at least, if she did, she had it muted....

Well afterwards I went back to the room and I was so positive and the doctor came in and he just sighed and I instantly prepared for the worst... He told me he did find the baby but it wasn't developing correctly, probably a chromosome problem... I asked if he could find any heartbeat and he said no... I asked "Could I be earlier?" and he just shook his head and said no... that I was probably going to miscarry very soon. I instantly broke down and he patted me on the back and told me he was so sorry and left the room...

I was able to pull myself together while I waited for the paperwork and the nurse came in and said "Are you okay? I'm so sorry" and I broke down again... I wish she wouldn't have said that She gave me the paperwork and they called it a 'Spontaneous Abortion" I hate that term, I can't believe they call miscarriages such a thing...

I begged to see a picture of the ultrasound of the baby but they said that's the one thing they can't see on their computers in the ER, only in radiogoy but they would fax all the scans to my OB...

So I came home, DH and I cried for little and then we called my doctor....

and low and behold, she's annoyed with what the ER said... as soon as I talked to the secretary she waited for the nurse to be off the phone and then just passed it over. She told me that those techs and ER doctors have nothing to compare their scans to and that she thinks I'm just early. That she's not going to go by their diagnoses and will look at the scans herself and call me back....

So I'm like, all over the place... I came home and was starting to accept I'd lost the baby and now my doc thinks they're wrong and everything's okay until she says so... soo... I don't know... I'm still waiting for her phone call... I'm trying to prepare for the worst this time but there's a tiny bit of hope still...


Update: Nevermind, that little hope is out the window. My doctor called back and said "I'm sorry but it looks like bad news." She said suddenly that there was just a 'sac', there was no fetus and it looked like it stopped developing weeks ago. I'm so confused now... If she would have said "The fetus stopped developing weeks ago" and not that there was no baby, I'd feel better, but they're saying there is no baby, so what did the ER find that my doctor isn't seeing now?

I'll okay and handling this as it is but I just wish my doctor would tell me why the ER thought they saw something and now she's suddenly not seeing anything!

I have my appt tomorrow still and she doesn't even want me to go for bloodwork in the morning, just to come in for the afternoon appt... It just sounds like there's no hope and I'm willing to accept what has happened but I wish my doctor would just say there was a baby at some point

 

[nearlythere38]

so sorry AerisandAlex xxx

 

[Stevensmummyx]

So sorry to hear what you have been through AnA, big hugs hun xx

 

[JustFluffy]

I am so sorry for this mess AnA, what a horrible roller coaster you are on. Please let us know how your appointment goes tomorrow, I am still holding onto some hope for you!

 

[Hann12]

AandA I agree with the others it sounds like an awful mess and very confusing what they have told you. I hope that either way you get all the answers you need tomorrow. I hope they can explain it all to you do that you know in your mind what is actually happening. and thinking of you

 

[Sass827]

What the hell? This sounds crazy. Let us know what happens tomorrow. Maybe you should come down to Pittsburgh and go to Magee? They're supposed to be the best.

 

[AerisandAlex]

What the hell? This sounds crazy. Let us know what happens tomorrow. Maybe you should come down to Pittsburgh and go to Magee? They're supposed to be the best.

Magee? I've never heard of them honestly and we're not that far from Pittsburgh, about an hour I'd say, is it like an OB or a clinic or something?

 

[Sass827]

It's the number 5 women's hospital in the country.
https://www.upmc.com/locations/Hospitals/Magee/Pages/default.aspx
It's really easy to get in and get an appt and they have all the best technology on site.

 

[Jary]

AandA so sorry you are going through this. My first thought is how awful the tech was for leaving the rod inside...the utmost important thing you should do for a patient is respect their dignity. That must have been awful...if I need to leave my patients in the middle of something I make sure they are properly covered and comfy.

It sounds like the communication between the medical staff and you needs to be improved; they seem to have been very vague and giving you all kinds of different answers.

Hope they give you a definitive answer soon so you know where you are and what's happening

 

[Powell130]

I am so sorry to hear this AnA! I hope everything works out for you hun.

 

[shellgirl]

A&A, that is just terrible what all these doctors are putting you through. I really hope they are wrong and I'm also holding onto a little hope for you too. Hugs & prayers sweetheart.