SO just finished and calmed down from crying my eyes out for like 3 hours.
Hate pregnancy hormones but I dunno if I would of been the same pre pregnancy to be honest.
It's bonfire night tomorrow and me and other half bough £55 worth of fireworks, at first it was just going to be me, little man and my fella. He decided he wanted to take them to his parents house so his parents and brothers could enjoy the night with our little boy. They were happy for this and gave us £20 towards the fireworks.
I struggle enough going places and doing things and everything has to be planned out or I get panic attacks and it's just awful. I still get anxious going to his mum and dads as it is, never mind if there are people I don't know.
So what do his parents go and do? Invite two people and there two kids I have never met properly to their house to enjoy our fireworks. I am so upset I really don't feel like I can go now. Because the people invited are my fella's Auntie and her family he doesn't understand why it's a big deal. Last time they went to his mum and dads we popped round for a brew and as they were leaving she said hello to Patrick ignored me and got in her car after giving me the dirtiest look. Not to mention the fact that they had clearly been taking drugs and had their children with them. So basically tomorrow night is going to turn into a party for them, people I don't know drinking and taking drugs and I feel so let down by his family. I know it's in their house and they can invite who they want etc. but this was supposed to be a night about my little boy and now I'm not even gonna be there and he's gonna be surrounded by strangers... I thought considering they know how I feel about these kinds of situations and struggle so much they would of asked us first is this was okay? Am I really out of order for thinking this? I think I deserve the right to be involved in making decisions about the people and situations he's put in and that is not the right situation for him.
My other half says i'm really over reacting but this was proper sprung on me, as she was leaving she just went "oh and by the way alicia is coming tomorrow with her family, bye" WTF?! I bet they wouldn't of said anything if they hadn't of dropped off our mail...
xx
Im with you I wish it was August!
DH should stick up for you really.... you shouldnt miss out on the fireworks. Are the fireworks already at their house? You could always give them their £20 back and say you have changed your mind.
OMG!!! 
