Experience going off BCP

[alexanne89]

Congrats k8nz! Yay! So glad you are ovulating for sure! What a huge relief!

Hope you get good news too today Webby!

 

[Webby]

So I rang and left a message and sent an email and haven't heard anything!! I've been cranky all day - mainly because I woke up at 4am this morning because my breasts were hurting so much! They've been warm and sore for most of the day but have calmed down a bit now. I have no idea what it means - could be early preggers (IF I ovulated - who knows?! - I'd be 11dpo I think) could be AF coming on or it could be my hormones playing up like they were before I went on provera and clomid. I just don't know what to think. I'll see if anything happens over the weekend but am annoyed that I'm going into the weekend not knowing anything.... At least if AF shows up then I'll know what's going on lol but obviously I'm hoping that it doesn't show.

How are you all doing? X

 

[alexanne89]

Hopefully it means you're preggers!!

Right now I'm on CD10 which doesn't mean much since I don't know how long my cycle will be this time. I plan on starting to do OPKs on CD15. It sucks having such long cycles. Right now I'm just trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about babies and the depressing thought that it'll take months for DH to get healthy and get his sperm moving. We'll keep trying but I'm not going to get my hopes up. If you guys haven't already, get your spouses tested to be sure everything is okay on his end!

I really need to find a hobby. Do you guys have any hobbies?

 

[Webby]

Do you use preseed? It might help hubbies sperm along. There's no harm in keeping trying whilst he's making lifestyle changes - it only takes one sperm!

As for hobbies, I really enjoy running and swimming but I also have a dog who I adore. I do loads with her - runs, walks, outings to coffee shops where I'll go read a book and more recently I've been doing agility classes with her which are great fun and also a great distraction. What sort of things are you interested in? Is there anything new you'd like to try? Maybe a new cookery course or a new class at the gym? Maybe a musical instrument?

Hoping this is a good cycle for you xx

 

[Webby]

Just started spotting. Too late for implantation bleeding so it looks like I'm out Feeling pretty bummed

 

[k8nz]

Oh Webby I'm sorry to hear that

Hopefully you hear about your test results soon, if you O'd at least you know you have a good chance next time! xx

I don't think I had enough CM this cycle for hubbys sperm, so thinking about trying preseeed next cycle, anyone use that?

 

[Webby]

So I've just woken up and expected to see AF in full flow because it felt like that all night (plus increasingly tender boobs) and there's nothing - not even if I wipe or when I investigated further. I'm so confused. I was either 11 or 12dpo yesterday (IF I O'd) oh my - my head is a mess! Lol

K8nz - I used preseed this cycle. Only because I heard clomid can dry up your cm (but it did say repeated use of clomid). Since this was your first cycle and it sounds like you guys got lots of BD in so I think you'll be covered this cycle. Remember everything is so tiny, so even the smallest amount of cm can help the sperm along How are you feeling?

 

[k8nz]

Webby that sounds so weird!! You don't think it could be implantation spotting? I read somewhere today that implantation is anywhere from 6-12dpo.. So maybe? I can appreciate how confused you must be! Maybe take a test in a few days?

Also that's good to know re pre-seed, if we're not successful this cycle I might give it a go.

I hate this waiting and not knowing, it's driving me nuts! I've been feeling good these last few days, no possible symptoms of anything really besides more gassy, but I think that's more to do with what I've been eating!! My cervix is also still super soft and high. When the nurse gave me my blood results she said it was in the "ambiguous range" which is frustrating in itself! She said if AF hasn't arrived within a week to go back for a PT.. So I guess back to waiting.

Webby I hope things sort out for you soon and you get some answers as to what is going on! X

 

[Webby]

Thanks k8nz - I feel for you because this waiting is horrible. You just want to know either way right?!

I'm kinda resolved that AF is going to show (cramps are getting worse), but if it doesn't by Tuesday then I'll test. My hubby is going in for surgery tomorrow so I'll be at the hospital all day tomorrow. Hopefully I'll also get a call from my obgyn so I can always ask her questions if AF hasn't fully shown by then. Hope you're able to have a nice day and distract yourself. That's what I'm going to try and do.

Alexanne, how are you doing? Have you been to acupuncture yet? X

 

[k8nz]

Webby how did hubby's op go? All okay I hope. Have you heard back re test results??

I'm about 10dpo and I'm giving up hope for this cycle, don't think it's our time. Had really odd sharp and crampy pains in my right abdomen yesterday, and had cramping all night feeling like AF even though she isn't due for another 5 days. I was also really moody last night - MASSIVE mood swings of being unbelievably grumpy one minute, then playful and happy the next. That's quite typical for me before AF. I took a HPT (first response early) with FMU and it was BFN. I know it's still early but something in my gut tells me not this cycle. Trying to remain positive that at least I O'd so maybe next cycle we'll have better luck!

 

[alexanne89]

Hello ladies. I've come to say good bye. DH took his test again and the results were even worse. The doctor told him that we'll have to look into IUI and IVF. After doing some research on the results it looks like we only had .5% chance of getting pregnant on our own without help. I'm relieved to know why we weren't getting pregnant and glad we have a plan now. We plan on doing infertility treatments until insurance won't help us anymore and then we'll move on to adoption (we've always wanted to adopt anyways). We need to save a little money and since we are both accountants (months December - April are very stressful), we will start the next lag of our journey in April 2017. For now I plan on turning the "nursery" into my hobby room where I can scrapbook, play piano, and anything else I can distract myself with. Maybe I'll also get another fur baby!

I hope the best for both of you! Hopefully your journey to a BFP is much quicker! Thank you so much for listening to me so far during this journey! Good luck!

 

[Webby]

Alexanne, sorry to hear about the challenges you're facing but I have to say that I think your attitude is amazing and I love your outlook. Please know that we're still here for you and anytime you want to get stuff off your chest or let us know how you're getting on, then come on and send us a private message. I really hope things work out for you and that you're able to achieve your dream of having a family, whatever route you take.

Sorry I haven't been in contact for a while. I've been a bit distracted with hubby's op. It went well but he had to stay in hospital a bit longer than expected. I'm now playing full time nurse! It's been a good distraction since AF did eventually show her face, though, the witch teased me for a whil with random spotting, brown discharge and even EWCM!? Hoping it's nearly over. I did also hear back to confirm that I did ovulate so that's good news. I won't be trying clomid straight away yet as hubby needs to recover from his op first, but I'm actually pleased because I'm interested to see what my body does on its own this cycle. I'm hoping maybe the clomid and all these hormone supplements might kick my body into working properly again (that, or screwed it up even more lol!)

K8nz - sorry to hear about the mood swings. That's always a pre-AF sign for me too, but I'm still holding out hope for you!! Keep me posted! Xx

 

[k8nz]

Alexanne I am so sorry to hear that DHs results weren't more promising. I completely agree with Webby - your attitude and outlook is something to be admired. We could all learn a thing or two from the way you're approaching this. Please do reach out if you ever need an ear. I find it sometimes helps to vent to people you don't closely know.

Webby, glad to hear DH op went well despite the extended hospital stay. Sounds like the witch wasn't very nice to you this time, but it's good to see your cycle resumed again without more provera. I'm interested to hear how you go off clomid this cycle.

So I've had a bit of a roller coaster these last few days. I took a HPT a few days ago on 10dpo and got a really faint positive. Not wanting to get ahead of myself, I did another test the following day.. BFN! I've done several tests since and all BFN. I called my fertility nurse and she's sending me to get a blood test tomorrow just to check as they want to be sure before my next round of letrozole/clomid. I feel 99% sure it'll be negative. I really struggled this cycle with symptom spotting, I think because it was my first proper cycle TTC. Going into next cycle, I want to try and calm down and chill out!!

If the test is negative, when af shows (due tomorrow), I will be on a double dose of letrozole as the doctor wanted my CD21 progesterone level to be higher. I also plan to use pre-seed as I wasn't happy with the amount of CM during O (heaps afterwards tho, ironically!)

 

[PuppyL0ve]

Hey ladies I'm glad you're all getting more answers on whether or not you're o-ing and on fertility. Sending you good vibes alexanne and hoping with the help of medicine you'll get your sticky bean. Keep on with your positive outlook.

I was suprised today to find ewcm on cd 11 of my first real cycle since my real period. Last cycle coming off the pill I also had ewcm for 3 days that started on cd15. DTD with my OH and plan on it everyday as long as I continue seeing the ewcm and a couple days after.
I went to a baby reveal party to see what my brother in law is having and also my other brother in law has been half living in the icu because him and his lady just had their son at 7 months. (Baby and mom are doing so well)
I guess my point is I can't wait to experience carrying a lil bean and being a mommy. And watching everyone else in the family have it makes me anxious lol. It helps I've gone back to work. I'm an aide for special needs and school went back into session today. So I'm keeping busy then to tired to think once I get home. Haha anyway sorry for the long ramble.

Baby dust to all and to all a goodnight lol.

 

[Webby]

K8nz - that does sound like an up and down few days. I'm with you on the symptom spotting. I went a bit mad this cycle especially with my breasts being so sore. I think it was the progesterone tablets I was on. AF is nearly coming to an end for me. It hasn't been pleasant but in some ways I'm glad to experience a real period! Obviously I'm hoping your blood tests are positive but if they're not, it sounds like they are monitoring you well.

Puppylove - pleased to hear your cycles are going well after BCP. That's great news! Good luck this cycle! X

 

[PuppyL0ve]

Thanks webby! I'm hoping this is the one. Plus if tracking my cm turns out to not work I'm afraid I'll obsess over temping and opks and I don't want it to come to that lol. (Not that there's anything wrong with that) I just know myself and know I'll stress out.

 

[k8nz]

The most bizarre update from me. I had my blood test for pregnancy and it was negative (as suspected) but my progesterone was 54! That's up from 18 last week. So odd. I'm on CD28 now so they think I O'd really late. She said to call back if AF hasn't arrived in 7-10 days but hubby and I haven't been BD nearly as much as I wasn't even thinking about it! So confused!

 

[Webby]

Wow that does sound confusing! Frustrating that you've got more waiting to do but you never know as sperm can live a few days so I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! Keep us posted!

Puppylove - hopefully your cycles will stay regular and you won't have to do temps or OPKs. The reason it was recommended to me was because of my irregular cycles and it's one way of helping you know when you might be close to ovulating and then a confirmation of ovulating as well. It's also a good way of getting to know your body signs during your cycle off BCP.
It will be interesting to see what my cycle is like this time round with no clomid or hormones. I'm hoping that it's kicked my body into gear so it will work on its own!

 

[k8nz]

How's it going Webby and puppylove?

I'm on CD33 now but have started spotting and cramping this afternoon so actually hoping af arrives! I'm keen to start this cycle fresh

My obgyn wanted to double my dose of letrozole/clomid given my earlier bloods said my progesterone was only 18, but since that second round of bloods said it was 54 I'm not sure if they still want to double the dose, so waiting to hear back about that.

Looking forward to starting this cycle with a hopefully more calm and relaxed approach, and no symptom spotting..!

 

[Webby]

Hope your AF isn't too bad. Mine was horrible - lasted about 8 days, including spotting, and it was mainly brown (one day it was black!) and I felt crap throughout!

However, I'm feeling good now and pretty chilled right now. I think it's because I know we're not actively trying this cycle. Any BD we do get in will be a bonus after hubby's surgery so I'm more just using the cycle as an experiment to see what happens naturally...will keep you informed!

It will be interesting to see what they decide to do for you dosage wise this cycle. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

Puppylove - hope this cycle goes well for you too x