F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[Isi Buttercup]

You are always such a blessing, Willbamom!!!!!!

Good luck with the interview, Mrsk!!!

Hiya Dipar! Good luck with the Doctor. I pray it goes well. I'm still waiting out my 2ww. I thought I could keep away from the site, but WISHFUL THINKING THAT WAS!!!!! So, I'm here trying not symptom spot (operative word being TRYING!!).

Have a beautiful day ladies!!!

 

[cheerios]

I definitley sympathize with this. My waits between AFs are not nearly as long as yours, but during my cycles, the others have 2 cycles and chances to try and I have none. I hope yours comes soon.

Hey someday - Thanks! How often are your AFs? Do you do anything to make them come more regularly??? Funny thing is that my AFs were never so irregular. They were like yours. Once a mth or once every 2 mths. They only became so irregular ever since we started NTNP. That must have been since June 2009. I´m still puzzled over it, but oh well...nothing I can do really.

And funny thing was they also became so irregular after a friend of mine took some time to pray that God would regulate my periods..... That was the first time someone prayed for smth like that..... I felt that it was such a bad joke when that happened, but I can´t bring myself to believe that God did the exact opposite of what was prayed for......

 

[Dahlia]

Groovy - I found something online where you can work with a company who freezes sperm for you - u overnight it to them in special packaging and then it can stay indefinitely. sooooooooooooooo crazy what we can do these days. but it's pretty expensive -I think it starts at $650 and is designed for people about to undergo vasc or people with cancers about to go under chemo. anyway, I'm sure you aren't interested in this. how much is dh away? he is in the service right?

 

[somedaymama]

cheerios, the longest one I've had recently was 50 days, the shortest is 41 days. I haven't done anything to shorten them because I'm pretty sure it's still the horrid birth control getting out of my system. I've been off the pill for almost a year and a half now, and it's been over 2 years since my last depo shot. I do see things slowly getting better, I finally am getting CM after having basically none for about a year after BC.

So weird that yours went all crazy right when you started NTNP. As far as the prayers--I don't think God works like that. Sometimes he says "no" or "wait" but he doesn't cause bad things to happen. The rain falls on both the just and the unjust you know, and sometimes crappy things just happen. It's hard when they correspond to our prayers for an opposite thing, but I really believe that God is more loving than that.

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

good to hear Dipar! I'm so glad your doctor is being so understanding! It sounds like you are on your way to a BFP!

Just so you know, if she thinks Clomid would help you, Walmart sells the generic for like $9. That's where I'm going to get mine if I ever get the doc to prescribe it.

Yes Someday she was very understanding No cocky responses from her, and she seems like she is willing to help me, regardless of the cost and insurance. She asked about my previous 2 pregnancies and if I had any problems with them and I said no. And I also let her know I never had any cyst on my ovaries before “UNTIL” I took that depo shot. I told her that shot really messed me up! Big time! Yes I can’t speak for every woman who had the depo, because it affects every woman differently, but to me, FORGET IT! So she wants to check my levels before she puts me on any meds, but in the mean time, she wants me to take my vitamins in the mean time.

I'll let you know what she will do. Love ya ladies

 

[Dipar_Butt3]

This was in my email this morning and I thought I would share......

TODAY'S WORD from Joel and Victoria

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time…though it tarries, wait for it"
(Habakkuk 2:3, KJV))

God has an appointed time to fulfill the visions, dreams, and desires in your heart. Just because it has taken a long time or because you've tried and failed doesn't mean it's not going to happen. Don't give up on those dreams! Don't be complacent about pursuing what God has placed in your heart. Our God is a faithful God. No matter how long it's been, no matter how impossible things look, if you'll stay in faith, your set time is coming.

Remember, every dream that's in your heart, every promise that has taken root, God put it there. Not only that, but He has every intention of bringing it to pass. Hold on to that vision today. Declare by faith, "My time is coming. God is working behind the scenes on my behalf. I will fulfill my destiny!" As you continue to hold on to that vision and speak life over your dreams, it won't be long before you see them begin to take shape. You'll see your faith grow, you'll see your hope strengthen, and you'll see yourself step into the destiny God has prepared for you!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Father in heaven, I receive Your Word which is life and health to me today. I ask that You ignite my heart with Your holy fire so that I can pursue Your perfect plan for my life. Make my thoughts and words agreeable to Your will. In Jesus' Name, Amen.[/I

Have a blessed day

willbamom1day I so love you ! Thank you soooo much for putting this on here, that was a "NOW WORD" for me at this moment! I got this relaxing peace over me when I read this! The more you put your faith to what HE said, the more peace you will get!

 

[Guppy051708]

I agree with Someday on our prayers and God "answering" them. Sometimes, he answers our prayers the way want them, other times, he is waiting until His perfect timing. however, I do not believe that God causes anything bad. Our God is just and righteous. He is a sovergn God, who loves and heals, One who is understanding and sympathetic. With that said, i believe that the bad stuff that happens, is because of Satan. Satan is the enemy, he is the one that causes the problems. Sometimes we make dumb choices and those choices result in a bad event, though we do need to take responsibility and we do have free will, Satan put us in that place. Satan is against, but God is for us. How great is that for us? (the God part i mean, cant wait till Jesus kicks some serious Satan butt! LOL)
At any rate, i do NOT think, for one minute, that TTC is due to something we did wrong or some dumb choice we made. The Lord calls us to have babies and calls us to a life of relationships. God is good, he doesn't cause the problems. Jesus is working a great deal in all of us, even in our babies (even in the babies to come). And i know TTC is tough and takes a mental toll, but know that God is in our favor, Jesus has said that we will be given these babies. This is Satan's way of defeating us. God will Prevail. We will ALL have our babies

 

[groovygrl]

hi dahlia - thanks so much for sharing that info re: freezing but you're right, prob not the way DH and I will go. yes, he is in the services and sadly, he has been/is away a lot at the begininning of this year makes it really hard to TTC and well...I really miss him. I have him for a couple more nights and then he's gone again for three weeks. It just is the way it is and I have to hope and pray that the later part of the year has him home a lot more.

oh cheerios - i'm with someday sweetness. it's hard to wrap your head around why bad things happen when you're trying so hard to walk a Christian path. God hurts when we hurt babe - just like the Gaitiher song you shared with us awhile back. I will pray that you find peace. Can you pray for me in this regard too? I'm finding it so hard to understand why I MC'd I need to find peace too.

willbe - devotional so perfect...again. I was crying and praying as I read. thank you.

take care everyone, love

 

[Guppy051708]

Groovygrl, i am so sorry about your loss Having experienced a loss myself, it brings tears to my eyes hearing of woman and their babys Satan had his hand where it shouldn't have been. I wept for days, crying out to the Lord, just visualizing Jesus with my head on his lap, just being there and crying with me. I also found strength in scripture.
Specifically in Psalm 139:

"...your hand will guide me and your strength will support me...even in darkness i cannot hide from you...You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body, and knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous- how well i know it. You watched me as i was being formed in utter seclusion, as i was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before i was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed...when i wake up, You are still with me."

I pray that amongst the darkness, the Lord will reveal himself to you. This is a terribly sad time. The Lord WILL give you strength and He WILL get you through this. A great gift awaits us in heaven, Low, our babies will be there and we will meet them and love them and they will be beautiful.

 

[groovygrl]

thank you, thank you. a million times thank you.

I appreciate you Guppy and your story is one of faith and believing. It inspires me and reminds me that there are happy endings OR shall I say beginnings?

As you know, it just takes time for this hurt to heal and it's all still pretty fresh. I believe that because I was pregnant once that I (we) can do it again by the good grace of God. Amen

love you thanks for taking the time to warp your cyber arms around me. xo

 

[somedaymama]

At any rate, i do NOT think, for one minute, that TTC is due to something we did wrong or some dumb choice we made. The Lord calls us to have babies and calls us to a life of relationships. God is good, he doesn't cause the problems. Jesus is working a great deal in all of us, even in our babies (even in the babies to come). And i know TTC is tough and takes a mental toll, but know that God is in our favor, Jesus has said that we will be given these babies. This is Satan's way of defeating us. God will Prevail. We will ALL have our babies

Thanks for bringing this up. I have a hard time with this sometimes, thinking I am not getting pregnant because of the birth control choices I made. I never knew they had such side effects! I know I should have done more research and found out more about how they really work and what they can actually do to a woman's body. I'm kicking myself because I'm an academic--studying and researching is what I do! What can I say, I was young and dumb? When I talk to my sister about TTC, she always brings up the depo shot and says that it's only because of it that I'm not getting pregnant. She is trying to be reassuring, I think, by telling me that it's not that my body can't do this, it's just the lasting effects of the shot. At least I like to think that that is why she brings it up--I'm not sure because she is very anti-BC and has never used hormonal methods.

It's good to know that God can overcome anything we do to ourselves. The barren women in the Bible, Elizabeth and Hannah, are not mentioned as having done anything wrong. Actually, the story of Hannah has been such a support and inspiration to me through my TTC journey. I'm thinking of naming my first daughter Hannah as a reminder of all God has carried me through.

 

[willbamom1day]

Good morning my blessed friends

I went to church lastnight - I usually never go on Wednesday but was drawn to this service. As I sat there and listened to the praise songs we sang and the people giving a testimony of how good God has been to them just this week I walked away truly blessed for going and hearing their testimony and Pastor's word on how good of a God we serve .

God is good!!!!!!! 24hrs a day 7 days a week - just because I don't have my bfp yet and who knows I may never get it but I can stand strong knowing that God is on my side and He knows what is best for me and will never give me more than I can handle.

The devil is what puts the negative and defeat in us - he would love for you to turn against God and to not trust and have faith in Him - we need to let the devil know that our God is bigger and stronger than he is and we are in good capable in hands in Jesus.

I found out the other day that the lil girl we were real close to adopting a lil over a year ago (her mom decided to keep her) was taken from her mom and put in state custody (the dad is in prision which is one reason she was going adoption route) and this made me very sad but I had to remember I prayed to God that his will be done in our adoption situation and in everyones heart and he answered my prayer - God uses all things to his glory. My hope is that this situation will bring that mom and dad to God and they will be a family again.

Sorry for all the ramble this was just on my heart this morning - every morning I pray God leads me so that I bring glory to His name. The things I write or share on here are straight from the heart that He has out there - each and every one of you are in good hands, keep praying and believing I know God has many blessings in your life yo come.

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hi all. Havent been on in a while. I have to pull myself away from BNB from time to time. Seeing all these BFPs and everything just gets to me most times. I finished my last provera pill about 3-4 days ago. When should I get my period? Why am I so afraid that I am not going to get my period even though I have taken these pills???? I am so afraid of that. DH asked me why havent I gotten it and Im like I dont know?? Because when ive taken it before I would get it either during taking the pills or right after. I dont know why my body is acting so stupid now after being so regular. It just makes me sick.

Yes I know God is in my corner and I know that He will give us the desire of our hearts and I know we are to love him and be grateful, so why do I feel like I dont care?

Anywho, thats my rant today. I hope all is well. Going to a gospel poetry thingy at a nearby church tonite, hopefully that will be fun.

 

[groovygrl]

Gospel poetry thing-y sounds cool mrskc. Do you write as well? And... how was that interview?

I am so sorry that you haven't seen AF yet? AAAARGH! This whole TTC thing can be a bit much sometimes right? Please come AF, please don't come AF and round and round we go

I don't know whether or not you and DH believe in TCM or acupuncture? I know my circumstance is very different but... I have always been a 28 day girl but this month I went to day 32 and still nothing but tiny bit of spotting. I went to my TCM practitioner on Tues. and said, "help! I need someone to 'pop' me! I need to bleed and this tension needs to release" I felt like a volcano ready to erupt. Anyhoo... we did acupuncture and massage and voila wed. am (@ 3 am ) I woke up to terrible cramps and the blood was seriously flowing (sorry TMI)

Now, I know that being 4 days late is a whole different ball game to being 40 days late and taking metformin. I'm not trying to downplay your situation 'cus Lord knows you must be soooo frustrated and worried. But... just wanted to tell you about my acupuncture experience. You can give me a big cyber raspberry if you want. It's cool, I might deserve it!

I pray you get AF soon. Enjoy your evening! Maybe write a crabby poem about what a silly cow is? probably won't go down very well at the Christian poetry night tho heh? But you'd be keeping it real!

 

[groovygrl]

Someday -

Good luck on the GMAT sat.​

 

[somedaymama]

Thanks groovygrl!! You're the best! I was just coming here to ask y'all to pray for me. It's tomorrow morning, and I'm so scared. I took another practice test tonight and did well, so I am hoping and praying that will be the case tomorrow.

The acupuncture idea is a good one. I had acupuncture for awhile, it didn't work for me (obviously) but my acupuncturist said she had seen a lot of success with it. It's worth looking into, at least. Mrskc, I hope you something happens soon. It is so stressful to wait.

 

[willbamom1day]

mrskc I am so sorry your having a rough time and that crazy AF still won't show - I am praying for you. Try and relax and enjoy your weekend and maybe she will show than. As far as the accupuncture I know of a few who have used it with fertility issues and have gotten a bfp.

Hi groovy have a great weekend

someday prayers are sent up for you today for your GMAT

Prayers and blessings for everyone. Have a great weekend

 

[Deb111]

So that's me out for another month

My cycles seem to be getting shorter I've always been 28 days give or take a day and this one's been 24 which is crazy!

I have to admit I went off track with my pregnacare the last couple of months for various reasons and am sure I've read about people's cycles been lengthened when they're taking pregnacare and must get back on them anyway.

Anyone had any experience of this?
Deb x

 

[willbamom1day]

So that's me out for another month

My cycles seem to be getting shorter I've always been 28 days give or take a day and this one's been 24 which is crazy!

I have to admit I went off track with my pregnacare the last couple of months for various reasons and am sure I've read about people's cycles been lengthened when they're taking pregnacare and must get back on them anyway.

Anyone had any experience of this?
Deb x

lots of for you

your time will come

 

[mrskcbrown]

Thanks ladies! I just dont understand why its not here or how long you are suppose to wait for it to come when on provera?? Some say 5 days and some say as late at 14 days. Its all so confusing. Enough about me, Ill sulk to myself.

Someday, I hope your test went well.
Groovy and willbamom, you are the greatest and the poetry reading was very nice.

Im on spring break and going to Chicago weds so hopefully my period comes while there.