F.A.I.T.H. (Forsaking all, I trust Him)

[Rdy2BaMom]

Hello all!

I haven't written in a while. . sorry for that, but I have been reading and trying to keep up with everyone so I know how I can pray for each of you!!

Mrskc-sorry you are having such a hard time hon. I pray for God's grace, strength, and wisdom for you and your dh.

Deb. . . sorry AF got you!! Hope you are doing okay.

someday-how was your test??? Hope you did well!!

Everyone else-hope you are all doing well and having a very blessed weekend so far. Mine has been pretty good. Had a rough week just b/c DH and I haven't been getting along so well, haven't even in 12 days now!! He's just been soo angry all the time, and I have been feeling unwanted and not needed. We had a chat and things seem to be getting much better.

I am in a musical tomorrow at church that our worship pastor wrote last year called "I Will Rise." He dedicated it to his FIL as they are very close and last year his FIL was battling cancer. Well, now, as we are premiering the musical at church, his FIL is going to heaven to be with Jesus. It's sad, but so neat that we will be singing to him in heaven.

Well, IF I start my period, it will be tomorrow. I don't really have any symptoms of af or a bfp, so only time will tell. DH and I have been confessing over the past 2 weeks that I am pregnant (only to each other of course) just to keep our spirits up and to "make it happen." Like the word says. . . the words of our mouth are extremely powerful.

Wow. . . I am wordy tonight! Hope you all have a blessed Sunday!!! and great week in case I don't get back in here until later.

 

[somedaymama]

Mrskc--I was just reading about Provera online, and from what I read your period should come within 2 weeks of taking the pills. The pills don't bring on your period, the withdrawal from them does. (Again, from what I understand from reading about how it works.)

I hope you get AF soon.

 

[somedaymama]

Rdy2, sorry it's been a rough couple weeks for you, but I'm glad you and your DH could talk it out.

I try to keep positive too and "pretend" I am pregnant for the 2 weeks just to keep some hope. DH doesn't like it though, he gets too sad when I'm not.

Hopefully AF won't show tomorrow!

 

[willbamom1day]

Hi everyone! Hope you are all having a blessed Sunday.

mrskc enjoy your spring break and your trip - try to clear your mind and hopefully things will fall into place

rdy2b any sign of a bfp yet? praying for you

someday how was your day yesterday with the GMAT?

as for me no sign of af yet - praise God! if a no show I will test in th emorning.

getting ready to head to the movies with hubby

have a great day!

 

[somedaymama]

willbamom1day, I hope stays far away from you! Let us know!!

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Willbeamom- we are both testing tomorrow!!! I am so excited and anxious at the same time!! Blessings on you

 

[mrskcbrown]

Hey all! I know I have been a whiny baby on here lately. Guess I have been feeling down, and crazy.. I believe my cycle is on her way!! Yay! I had some reddish-pinkish spotting this morning. When DH and I get a good in, it usually brings it on. I wonder why that is?? Anywho, so I was debating on Femara or Clomid this month and I think I will probably stick with clomid. I am also geared to start everything I can do humanly to get this baby this month.

Next church was awesome today. We had Priscilla Shirer at our church todayhttps://www.goingbeyond.com/! She is an awesome woman of God. I learned a lot through her today and I wanted to share it with you all.

Her sermon was entitled: Sleepwalking. Basically she was talking about being content in this season, and to stop rushing life. Dont be so consumed with your own life that you miss Jesus. We are at a "certain place" in our lives right now with this TTCing. A "certain place" as it is referred in the bible is a sacred place. A place where God will have an experience with us. Now in life we will have "stones" or hard times and frustration when it comes to TTC, but we must remember that "good stuff is hidden in the hard stuff". Ask God to give you spiritual vision to see the treasure within the hard stuff. Now when I heard this, I immediately thought of the great testimony that I will have of how God has blessed me with this baby.

Just a little inspiration for your day and for you and me to know that God is in our corner and when those "stones" of TTC come our way, we should know that God has something special for us on the other side. So smile and know that God has NOT forgotten about us!

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Thanks Mrskc!! That is so encouraging! You always have such great wisdom to share with us and I really appreciate it. Hope you have a blessed week and are blessed with your little one soon!!

 

[Rdy2BaMom]

Well, still no AF and a BFN this morning. I've had such an emotional day, any and all prayers are much appreciated. Thanks in advance!

 

[somedaymama]

aww, sorry about the BFN. praying for you.

 

[somedaymama]

mrskc, has AF come fully yet?

 

[Dahlia]

sorry rdy. prayers your ways.

and thinking of you mrskc!!!

 

[willbamom1day]

Good morning

mrskc hope your af shows and you can move on to getting your bfp

rdy2b hope you get your bfp

My af showed

I shared this in my journal and wanted to post it here - I believe you can relate .......

I did have a bit of a situation yesterday - I was so upset, hurt and mad that I didn't want to do my bible reading and prayer time almost like I thought i would punish God for punishing me and not giving me my bfp yeah because it works that way right? NO I was only punishing myself by not doing my prayera nd bible time - I didn't get my bfp because it's not my time - I am not ready.

My time will come in God's time and not a minute sooner. The quicker I can realize that and let go and let God the sooner I will be a mother.

I came across this on my calendar (past few days)and wanted to share.......

Any signs of growth in the garden - The glory of the Lord shall be revealed (Isaiah

Any signs of growth within you - The glory of the Lord shall be revealed (Isaiah 40:5)

I can help you with the garden - His heavens shall drop down dew (Deuteronomy 33:28)

And I can help you - I have heard they prayer (2 kings 20:5)

The garden is my womb, the dew is my seed and God is telling me that he has heard every single one of my prayers and has not forgotten them however until I work on me/in me wil I receive His blessing.

God bless you all - you each hold a special place in my heart and I know that God has answered my prayers that I have prayed for some of yall and others he is still working on but has not forgotten. I am going to step back from the computer and ttc and work more on me. and prayers for you all.

 

[somedaymama]

I may have mentioned here that if I'm not pregnant by summer, we are going to pay out of pocket for the tests I need for the doctor to prescribe me Clomid. Well, after talking with some other girls here and my DH, I think we have a new plan. Every other cycle that I've been charting, I haven't had a clear ovulation pattern (such as last month, my temps shifted but not in a real ov pattern--high temps for 18 days, obviously no pregnancy).

So, I'm think that instead we will pay OOP for me to have an hsg done. If I have a blocked tube or something that is keeping me from ovulating every other month, Clomid isn't going to help. My campus doctor, the one that originally told me to start charting and referred me to the RE, told me that if I have this test done and there are issues, it can be easier to get pregnant for the next few months after the test because the dye pushes through blockages or something like that.

thoughts? opinions?

 

[mrskcbrown]

Well, still no AF and a BFN this morning. I've had such an emotional day, any and all prayers are much appreciated. Thanks in advance!

Im praying for you RDY! Its always tough isnt it! Hopefully you get BFP and AF does not come!!! I know you said you didnt get much BD time in but remember it only takes one time!

@someday: Yes it has, but not real heavy as usual but its here. So tomorrow starts clomid, then 5 days after last clomid pill OPK's and Guanefisin for 20 days. Going to pick up that Preseed while Im in Chicago as well, that way I dont have to pay for shipping. Where are you in your journey?

@willbamom1day: Sorry about AF! I know its easier to take a step back from this because it can become so confusing. Remember this is a stone for us and one day we will get the glory out of TTC. He has us in a certain place so that we can be in His sacred space. Prayers coming your way! Yes my AF is fully here.

@Dahlia:Thanks for your thoughts and prayers. I am doing great. AF here and in TTC mode for now. It may change later. It isnt my true focus anymore because of all the pain. One of my friends had her baby at 515am today. She sent me the pic and everything. I just stood there staring and saying, Wow, I wish it was me. But I cant get consumed in it. As the saying goes, my time is coming and I just got to weather the stones right now!!

 

[mrskcbrown]

I may have mentioned here that if I'm not pregnant by summer, we are going to pay out of pocket for the tests I need for the doctor to prescribe me Clomid. Well, after talking with some other girls here and my DH, I think we have a new plan. Every other cycle that I've been charting, I haven't had a clear ovulation pattern (such as last month, my temps shifted but not in a real ov pattern--high temps for 18 days, obviously no pregnancy).

So, I'm think that instead we will pay OOP for me to have an hsg done. If I have a blocked tube or something that is keeping me from ovulating every other month, Clomid isn't going to help. My campus doctor, the one that originally told me to start charting and referred me to the RE, told me that if I have this test done and there are issues, it can be easier to get pregnant for the next few months after the test because the dye pushes through blockages or something like that. thoughts? opinions?

Yes I have heard that before but Im not too sure of the success rate with it. I have had an HSG, and my copayment was $250 but the total procedure was about 1000-1500 without insurance. I didnt have any blockages and the died flowed right out. I had that test in July 2009 and I have yet to have a pregnancy. Not to pour salt on your parade, Im just telling you my experience. Ive also taken clomid on and off for the last 2 yrs and nada yet. Im taking it again this month but i think if no BFP, next month I do IUI and go on to injectibles. She has already prescribed me ovidrel, which is a shot I give myself in tummy but I havent tried it yet. So that has been my experience.

When I got BFP with my daughter, I was on BC and had just stopped taking it for a few days and I got pregnant right away. DH says we should try that but I think its counterproductive to take birth control which prevents pregnancy to get pregnant??

 

[somedaymama]

Well, I'm only thinking it will help if I have a blocked tube. It does appear that one side of my reproductive organs isn't working just right, and I'm thinking a blocked tube is probably better than a non functioning ovary. I want to wait for at least one more cycle before I start to really think that there is a problem though.

 

[somedaymama]

Oh, and about taking BC--I know it happens that way for a lot of people, but I agree with you that that sounds counter-productive. You just risk messing up your hormones if you go on the pill.

 

[Guppy051708]

I agree that taking BCPs is counter productive. In the long run that may set you back even. (it may not, but it could). It would at least set you back a month because for BCPs to be effective, it takes about 7 says to start working and then who knows what the last 3 weeks of that month would be like. Another thing is, BCP dont allow the uterus to get fully all of the tissue (partly why periods are so much lighter when on BCPs). And since your TTC you would want your uterus to be as thick as possible for baby to really get snuggie in there.
Totally up to you though.

 

[rubygirl01]

Good morning everyone, My name is Kate and was wondering if you mind if i join ya'll? I live in the sunny state of Florida. I have 2 boys that are 11 and 5 and we will be trying for baby #3 in May. I had a MC Feb 14th and we are waiting 2 cycles before ttc again. I go back to my doc on April 12th to get the all clear and get off BCP. I found out i had PCOS in 2003 and so i am metforum currently to help the process along when we TTC again. Anyways you all sound so wonderful and cant wait to chat with you guys more.