February Cherubs | Testing Thread

[HalfricanMa]

I guess i couldnt put away the testing. Ugh.
I did cb again and it said low fertility now. I really hope my body didnt rev up for o, tip the cb to peak then fail to o.
I pray God makes my heart content. I dont like wanting to be pregnant this badly. I believe it to be a false idol and questioning God’s plan. We gave it to God and I need to leave it that way because i believe my prayers have become as a wish you ask from a genie rather than respectful of what God calls me to. That sucks. I want to be a servant of God, not the other way around! I feel horrible about that.
I heard a sermon recently that said “God is not your co-pilot. God pilots and you need to be so accepting of that that you’d be willing to sit in the back seat of the airplane- the one that is stinky from the toilet being too close!”
Anyways, dh & i will keep trying but im being more aware of how im keeping my relationship with God. It’s ok for ttc to effect me emotionally, but not spiritually. That’s just sad! Lol
sorry for the rant ladies! 2 weeks ago was son’s flu (so sleepless nights), then our ram died suddenly in the evening so we had to butcher at night when it was freezing (lost sleep) and now ds has a cold and is so snotty he doesnt breathe while nursing, poor boy (up all night). But….plenty of mutton for dinner!

 

[Laurabub84]

@NDH what day will you test hun. I’d be testing by now if I were you, lol. Hope it’s positive when you do

@Suggerhoney i wouldn’t be able to take time out from trying either. Please don’t feel guilty about wanting a baby. It doesn’t matter how many children you already have. You can’t control how you feel and it doesn’t make it any less painful when it’s not happening. I still believe you’ll get your beautiful rainbow hun and I hope it happens very soon.

@Saradavies89 hope you catch that egg hun. Good luck

@xZoeyx i personally wouldn’t be able to stop trying once I start, that would be so hard. I’m not keen on a winter baby due to illnesses this time of year but I can’t bring myself to hold off on trying

@jellybeanxx omg puppies!! Please share some pics. Would love to see them. Hope ovulation happens soon hun. Will keep everything crossed for you

@HalfricanMa hope you ovulate soon hun. Sounds like you’ve had a rough time of it lately. I hope your son feels better soon.

Afm, cd20 today. Im so scared to take any opks because if they’re negative I’m gonna lose all hope of ovulating this cycle. Not really noticing any cm or anything. Opks were really faint yesterday. Gonna test later I guess as dh finished his night shift so we’ll be able to get some bd in. Last time was Sunday morning so it’s been a while and worried to have not have any swimmers hanging around just in case

 

[NDH]

Suggerhoney I'm sorry your DH is unwilling to consider getting any private fertility testing done

Saradavies89 yay for peak! I hope you catch the egg.

XZoeyX I'm sorry you're in limbo not knowing if or when you ovulated . The next three months aren't the best time for us to fall pregnant either (my twins have their birthday in late October, and if I'm pregnant this month then I'd have a due date 13 days before their birthday, and next month would be 12 days after). Then Christmas, my birthday 2 days after and my eldest daughter 2 weeks later. It's definitely already our busiest time of year for birthdays when the rest are spreadnout nicely through the year. But I can't bring myself to avoid pregnancy for three months either.

Jellybean that's so exciting about puppies! What breed? We need pics! We want pets so bad but don't feel like it's a good idea while living in an RV. I know lots of people who *have* pets in an RV but none who got them after going tiny.


HalfricanMa sorry to hear about your ram and that you don't think you've ovulated yet

Laura I'll test whatever day the pregnancy tests arrive. Estimated delivery date is the 8th (Wednesday) but I'm crossing my fingers they'll come sooner.

 

[elmum]

Thanks for all the comments ladies.
I will chat with the doctor on the 20th when I have my meds review to see what they say.
They may offer the 21 day test again.
But I know for AMH etc, I would have to be referred to the hospital.
And that means that awful nasty doctor again.
He was so nasty to me at 40 so will be even worse now I’m 43.
Pluss like I said b4 I don’t really want Im ttc on my medical notes for reasons Ive already explained.

I can’t really take time time out at my age either. I know you mean well and are thinking of my mental health, but I just can’t take time off. Not even one month.
Even tho I did not want a summer due date I still continued to try because I new I couldn’t risk losing any Chances any month at my age.
I’m 43 now and will be 44 in December so I don’t have time to take time out.
What if I took a month off and that was the month I was supposed to conceive. I would then miss that one and only chance.

also please don’t think I don’ t treasure every second with my son. Because I do.
He means the world to me, and you ladies and him are the ones that help me through the hard days. Like I’ve said in the past I am so so thankful and greatful for all my children. They are all such wonderful blessings. I know I’m very privileged to have them. When others don’t have any.
That’s why I’ve said several times now that I feel so guilty for wanting another.

I always feel mostly sad at this stage, mainly 10 and 11dpo I feel the worst. And then I’m ok.
And when I get that peak I start getting some hope back again.
It’s just always at this stage I feel hopeless.
I know I’ll be ok in a few days when I get into a new cycle.

im sorry if I bring anyone down with my posts.
I really wish I could switch that longing for my rainbow baby off.
I truly do.
But I can’t.
Ever since my miscarriage that longing has been incredibly strong.
I can’t help how I feel.

A lady in a over 40 ttc group on FB said to me I may have a blocked tube.
She said she had a tubal pregnancy and then had 9 months of BFNs like me and felt exactly like I do.
She went for a scan and one of her tubes were blocked.
She’s since had surgery to unblock it.
I’m now worrying about that.

A place where I had my gender scans also do like fertility stuff.

like a blood test for AMH and a full pelvic scan to check ovaries and womb lining and tubes and egg reserve etc.
It’s 300 quid, which for us is a lot of money.
That’s basically a whole month food shop for us.
I spoke to my husband about it but he’s said a clear no.
He said to me you haven’t got blocked tubes and your still fertile and it’s just taking longer because we’re both older.
He says he doesn’t want to waste money on something I don’t need.
So that’s that completely out the window.

I said to him could we consider it in a few months if I’m still not pregnant but he didn’t say much.

Sugger, I thought I might have blocked tubes when I didn’t get pregnant. So, I looked up natural remedies to unblocking tubes without surgery or intervention. I fell pregnant the next month. Then again with a chemical after my miscarriage. It may be worth trying, if you’re interested I can send you details of what I take

 

[Laurabub84]

Omg, I’m so happy I could cry. I really started convincing myself I wasn’t going to ovulate. Cd20 so ovulation should be tomorrow. I’m so happy my body waited until dh finished his night shift. Bd’d tonight and will again some point tomorrow. Feeling excited and so nervous. Praying for my healthy, super sticky rainbow

 

[littlewitch]

Omg, I’m so happy I could cry. I really started convincing myself I wasn’t going to ovulate. Cd20 so ovulation should be tomorrow. I’m so happy my body waited until dh finished his night shift. Bd’d tonight and will again some point tomorrow. Feeling excited and so nervous. Praying for my healthy, super sticky rainbow
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Your OPK looks great!! Good luck catching that egg. Your timing seems great.

 

[josephine3]

Ahh @jellybeanxx I wanna see puppy pics please lol good to hear from you x

@Suggerhoney I hope I didn't offend you in any way, I know you treasure all your children and it doesn't matter how many you have when there's the desire to be pregnant.. I know you wouldn't take time off ttc too really xx
I wondered how you know you would get the same doctor if its NHS? My 2 scans I've had in the last month werent even at the same hospital never mind the same doctor!

Im not sure how to feel this month or what my chances are. I've had a lot going on to distract me but I have had some mild symptoms like being extra hungry. 6-7dpo today. Of course did a cheeky test this morning and this evening. I didn't get a pic this morning but of course wasn't seeing much.. Maybe a hint on the eve one but when I left them sat out I found they both developed a bit of a line. These are a different batch than I had last month where the same thing happened. I used one about a week ago to test them out and nothing developed at all thats still sat there looking bfn.
I'm not going to put any faith in them though of course. Also I was moving a rug at home and dragging it when I had a sudden sharp pain in my side which I feel like could be a bad thing maybe the sudden movement dislodged something.
I'll attach pics on the next post x

 

[josephine3]

@Laurabub84 that's a great looking opk!! Go catch that egg!!

 

[josephine3]

The one with the 2 tests is the dry ones. And an opk for good measure which is quite dark for this time in the cycle I think x

 

[littlewitch]

The one with the 2 tests is the dry ones. And an opk for good measure which is quite dark for this time in the cycle I think x

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I feel like I see something faint on the tests on the first photo

 

[NDH]

Good luck Laura!

Crossing fingers those turn into proper lines Josephine. I can't see anything but my phone has poor resolution so it's easy to miss super squinters

 

[HalfricanMa]

Good luck laura!! Yay!!
Mine went from low to high today so hopefully im gearing up to o soon too. This thread will likely have lots of hcg testing at the same time given the positive opks

 

[Bevziibubble]

@Laurabub84 yay good luck!!

 

[ehjmorris]

I see those @josephine3 goodluck for next tests

7dpo two more days till testing

 

[NDH]

Well AF is due in the next 24 hours. Hoping she's a no show.
I'm regretting ordering tests yesterday and making myself wait longer to test now . But knowing sooner isn't going to change anything one way or another

 

[xZoeyx]

I am a nightmare, I need to stop obsessing. I tell myself I am totally relaxed and that I don't need or want to do any HCG tests until at least Sunday, yet I have been testing for the last 2 days and then being disappointed and convincing myself I am out cause they aren't positive. I am not even due AF till around the 12th-13th.I have absolutely no idea how many DPO I am so I keep justifying it with what if it's 8dpo by now.

TTC is a whole new lifestyle I swear!

Hope everyones weekend is a nice one.

 

[Saradavies89]

Omg, I’m so happy I could cry. I really started convincing myself I wasn’t going to ovulate. Cd20 so ovulation should be tomorrow. I’m so happy my body waited until dh finished his night shift. Bd’d tonight and will again some point tomorrow. Feeling excited and so nervous. Praying for my healthy, super sticky rainbow
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yes yes yes!!!! Have fun

 

[Saradavies89]

Good luck laura!! Yay!!
Mine went from low to high today so hopefully im gearing up to o soon too. This thread will likely have lots of hcg testing at the same time given the positive opks

I was thinking that’s aswel all seem to be around the same time xxx

 

[Saradavies89]

Well AF is due in the next 24 hours. Hoping she's a no show.
I'm regretting ordering tests yesterday and making myself wait longer to test now . But knowing sooner isn't going to change anything one way or another

Got everything crossed for you lovely xxx

 

[ehjmorris]

Congrats on the opks @Laurabub84! Have fun dtd haha

@NDH hope af doesn’t show for you, fingers crossed x

so I’m probably crazy, definitely impatient lol I tested this morning cause yesterday I had period like cramps, painful too and I’ve twinges on and off everyday since ovulation on right side. mum only 7dpo..
This morning was bfn but tonight I tested again and I swear there is a vfl… nothing on test at 2-3 mins not even an indent line then between 3-5 a vfl appeared and got a smidge darker by 10mins.
I mean it’s definitely a stretch as it’s so early but just weird symptom.
When I put the light on it, it sorta looks pink.
Probably just another nasty indent again