Hey, scan went ok, I have a little bit too much fluid but it isn't anything to worry about. Baby is fine, has a mahoosive head but all my babies have big heads.
She's also definitely still a girl.
Consultant appointment was a waste of bloody time. They were running late and she walked into the room, took one look at me, said baby is fine see you later.
I just burst out crying as I felt completely let down. I was supposed to be getting some answers and my anxiety has been out of control.
She asked me why I was crying so I tried to explain everything to her and she cold shouldered everything.
I said I was worried about fast labour/transport to hospital/childcare etc....
I asked for a home birth but she said no I have to come to hospital, so again I explained all my difficulties with transport etc and she shrugged it all off.
Eventually she offered me an induction date for the day before my due date but made me feel horrible for accepting it, basically telling me I was putting baby at risk and being selfish. She also told me if the induction fails they will not be giving me a section. I told her I didn't want a section but by this point I was a complete wreck from the way she made me feel.
She left the room and a really nice midwife came in, she talked to me for ages about my situation and she really understood. She said she could see how unreasonable the consultant was being and even said consultant booked the induction for then knowing with my previous history that chances are I won't make it.
Anyway, she basically said (without actually saying the exact words because she could lose her job) that I should just stay at home anyway and call the hospital when it's too late to go in. So then I will get my homebirth without technically "planning" it.
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