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Waiting to meet baby no.3
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So I've mentioned it in 2 posts now, but I'll say it again anyway (with feeling!)
I have my 30 week appointment tomorrow and placental scan. Hoping to confirm DS3 is still DS3 & get a pic for DS 1 & 2 to see his face. They are getting bored with the kicking thing now, lol.
I'm anxious and excited about seeing the consultant. I have no idea what to do for the best with regards to trying for VBAC or signing up for another section. Obviously I don't want my baby to be harmed during birth, of course the easy option would be 'early' induction because the longer he's in there the greater the chance of shoulder dystocia & we were almost at the bottom of the emergency 'check list' when DS1 was delivered (9pm 7oz). Unfortunately, they can't use drugs to induce you after a VBAC incase uterine rupture occurs (vbac alone has a risk of this).
I'm really struggling with this decision, I had MRSA last time after my section and it was a truly awful time. I don't know what to do
My anxiety is eating me alive right now and I'm not sleeping about the guilt of not immediately wanting a section, which is less risky for the baby. I'm going to my GP tomorrow to talk about some diazepam in the meantime to calm me down, the stress is also bringing on major BH & I also worry how my anxiety affects the baby - early delivery is quite common (which would solve my delivery issues I guess 
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Sorry for the whinge!! Hope my consultant gives me more leeway than the 'me or LO' scenario I've built up in my head. On the plus side, I get to see him tomorrow afternoon & I know he will have changed sooo much since the last scan at 19 weeks!
I have my 30 week appointment tomorrow and placental scan. Hoping to confirm DS3 is still DS3 & get a pic for DS 1 & 2 to see his face. They are getting bored with the kicking thing now, lol.
I'm anxious and excited about seeing the consultant. I have no idea what to do for the best with regards to trying for VBAC or signing up for another section. Obviously I don't want my baby to be harmed during birth, of course the easy option would be 'early' induction because the longer he's in there the greater the chance of shoulder dystocia & we were almost at the bottom of the emergency 'check list' when DS1 was delivered (9pm 7oz). Unfortunately, they can't use drugs to induce you after a VBAC incase uterine rupture occurs (vbac alone has a risk of this).
I'm really struggling with this decision, I had MRSA last time after my section and it was a truly awful time. I don't know what to do
My anxiety is eating me alive right now and I'm not sleeping about the guilt of not immediately wanting a section, which is less risky for the baby. I'm going to my GP tomorrow to talk about some diazepam in the meantime to calm me down, the stress is also bringing on major BH & I also worry how my anxiety affects the baby - early delivery is quite common (which would solve my delivery issues I guess )Sorry for the whinge!! Hope my consultant gives me more leeway than the 'me or LO' scenario I've built up in my head. On the plus side, I get to see him tomorrow afternoon & I know he will have changed sooo much since the last scan at 19 weeks!
), but i would probably try for the VBAC. Im sure you have fears with this upcoming birth because of how the last one went. (Even i do and mine was vaginal...dang sunnyside up baby! 
) But with that said your body did do a lot when it came to the birth, even if baby was sectioned and not vaginal, so there is a GREAT chance that changed your body, i.e. wider hips, more room, bigger outlet, etc. So if it were me, i would say trust my body and when i go into labor i go into labor. plus if they arn't correct on your dates (or even if they are) some babies are not always big! My LO arrived 2 weeks late and he was only 7lb & 10oz...so ya just never know. 
and i do not know everything about you medically speaking, or your fears and emotions- all of which carry great impressions into your decision. So you should just get as educated as possible. Talk to those who have been in your similar situation (BNB is an invaluable resource for that!). No matter what choice you make, just make sure you make it with confidence. Because then you will know you did the best you could-no matter what! Making a TRULY informed decision, is the best thing you can do. So if you do a VBAC and that decision was made out of education, then thats great! Even if it does end in another c-section, there are a plethora of benefits,(for example, the baby started to arrive on own, and the benefits of the baby in labor, lots of good things take place then like stimulation, helping squeeze out fluids, etc). And if things go fine and dandy, well i bet that will be SUPER empowering!!!!! 
It may even bring healing from your last birth 
On the other hand, if you do a repeat c-section, as long as you firmly believe thats whats best, and that was an educated decision, and not a decision made out of pressure from family, friends, or care providers, then that is awesome hun! Then you will be happy with it! And whatever you decide will go fine, i believe 
had christmas songs on all day, just made all the gingerbread dough for the christmas tree biscuits we're giving as gifts and now going to decorate the tree 
just keep thinking how different next Christmas will be when it's all for someone elses benefit!
Although it may sound extreme to some, for me its almost like dealing with a loss. I will never ever get that time back 
i will forever be burdened by that, but im hoping by birthing outside of the hospital, things will go differently and i'll have closure and healing 
This week I'm doing photos for someone, and I'm pretty stoked. Taking photos of an 8-week-old is almost as fun as getting my own maternity shots done, right? 
