February "Valentine's" Testers

[sunshine2014]

Thanks maltesemom, that is really kind. I don't feel strong right now; but I'm sure I'll look back and agree one day. Hopefully with a healthy babe.

You O right around valentines day also! I saw another poster does too. Well you guys are going to have fun valentines this year! Woot!

As for fb, I deleted and haven't looked back. I thought I'd have more withdrawal lol. But nope. It's such a time waster, but now I'm just on here more. Oh well.

 

[disney516]

Sunshine - you better stick around!! You WILL get your BFP no worries about that. Yea I definitely put quite a time line on things myself. I said "I want all 3 or 4 kids before I'm 3 years old". I'm 28 now and I don't even have 1 yet
Things only got more intense after everyone and their mother around me got pregnant. We put SOO much pressure into this for the past year it was really not good. It still hasn't happened for me but I'm trying to stay positive until it does. Patience sucks btw lol! I only have so much but we will see.... blahh.
I agree with Maltese too- you are so strong and positive!! You have actually helped me continue to be that way! Please keep writing on here and keep us updated!!

Welcome maltese!! Baby dust to u as well!! Yes FB is just the worst. Thankfully my husband and I don't have it. It makes me want to cry looking at everyone's announcements. And put SO much pressure on! You are due for your O around V day! That's exciting!!! What CD are you?

I got a flashing smilie today on my OPK!! That means 3 days of high fertility hopefully followed by 48 hours of peak fertility.
This is SO exciting for me to even get a flashing smilie since my cycles have been so irregular for the past year with becoming more regular over the past few months. Today is CD 14 for me!! Yay!*
I hope I get that non flashing smilie soon which is considered the O day. I've been let down before with all high days and no peak though. But sometimes I also only get no high and just peak. So I'm excited but still nervous. Continuing smep!! BD tonight!! I cannot pray enough that I do actually O and that I catch that darn egg!!

 

[disney516]

Sunshine I agree I'm on here like it is facebook lol. To me it's a glorified facebook of supportive people who are all going through the same things. MUCH better than actual family facebook lol

 

[maltesemom]

Sunshine - you better stick around!! You WILL get your BFP no worries about that. Yea I definitely put quite a time line on things myself. I said "I want all 3 or 4 kids before I'm 3 years old". I'm 28 now and I don't even have 1 yet
Things only got more intense after everyone and their mother around me got pregnant. We put SOO much pressure into this for the past year it was really not good. It still hasn't happened for me but I'm trying to stay positive until it does. Patience sucks btw lol! I only have so much but we will see.... blahh.
I agree with Maltese too- you are so strong and positive!! You have actually helped me continue to be that way! Please keep writing on here and keep us updated!!

Welcome maltese!! Baby dust to u as well!! Yes FB is just the worst. Thankfully my husband and I don't have it. It makes me want to cry looking at everyone's announcements. And put SO much pressure on! You are due for your O around V day! That's exciting!!! What CD are you?

I got a flashing smilie today on my OPK!! That means 3 days of high fertility hopefully followed by 48 hours of peak fertility.
This is SO exciting for me to even get a flashing smilie since my cycles have been so irregular for the past year with becoming more regular over the past few months. Today is CD 14 for me!! Yay!*
I hope I get that non flashing smilie soon which is considered the O day. I've been let down before with all high days and no peak though. But sometimes I also only get no high and just peak. So I'm excited but still nervous. Continuing smep!! BD tonight!! I cannot pray enough that I do actually O and that I catch that darn egg!!

Disney, I am praying for you!!! It's so crazy how much you start identifying iwth and rooting for the ladies on this board. I want a BFP for you guys as much as I want it for myself!

This cycle did not go well for us. I think my husband and I are letting the pressure get to us. I am constantly crying or angry about this issue. I am wondering whether it's time for me to stop tracking? have any of you guys felt that way? Like just taking a couple of cycles off? I am 32 so it's not like I should be wasting time, but I also want to be happy and enjoy being married to my husband. I am starting to feel like TTC is interfering with that.

Right now FF hasn't given me crosshairs, but I did get the static smiley on CD12 which is Sunday. But my husband and I didn't do anything about it...I think we were just too tired out from this whole cycle. We got bd'ing in CD9 and CD10 but I think that was way too early so I am already out. It's so devastating. Today is CD14 but based on my tracking, I O between Cd11-Cd13.

Anyway, part of me is looking forward to trying again in Feb and part me wants to stop and just relax. For you ladies on this thread, have you tried that tactic? Did it help or did you secretly obsess anyway?

Babydust to you all & fx for all of us

 

[sunshine2014]

Thanks disney!!! Soooo exciting About the smiley face. Yay!!! Get Bding. Woot

Maltesemom - I hear you on the tracking stress. I temped for one month and I was miserable. I was losing sleep thinking about what would happen if I didn't sleep 3+ hours before taking my temp. It was awful. So I agree with tsking a step back as hard as it is. BUT I think you should be tonight lol, you're still close to peak O. And I did after I thought I O'd and that's the day I conceived. So you never lnow!!

Also I just started a TTC journal!

 

[maltesemom]

Sunshing, Do you think I still have a shot? I think i O'd yesterday which is so devastating because we weren;t close at all in terms of b'ding. Let me be totally honest- earlier in the week, my husband wanted to bd a couple of times, and I didn't have the heart to say no even though I knew I wasn't fertile. This is totally TMI and I am sorry. It's just so hard wanting to keep it fun. And now we missed our window which is devastating.

So I am thinking I am out for Jan. And I am thinking about sitting out Feb too but maybe I will feel better in a couple of weeks. My moodswings are beyond belief these days!

Sunshine, where's your TTC journal? I would love to read it! Disney, get to bd'ing! Best of luck

 

[sunshine2014]

No tmi here. But yes I think you still have a shot. BUT if you're not feeling it and it's losing it's specialness then wait a few weeks. Get your head back in the game and get again. We never know, but we do need to be emotionally ready for it. So think on it .

It's just under the TTC journal section. I'm not sure how to post a link. I'm not technical lol.

 

[disney516]

Thanks sunshine!! I'm excited but trying not to be TOO excited! Cant wait to wake up tomorrow and see what my OPK says! I pray its still good! I can't wait to read your TTC Journal. Do I just go to the TTC journal forum? I was thinking of doing this too but I haven't yet. How are you doing and feeling?

Maltese - Thank you for your support! I know I get so excited for others each month sometimes I forget to root for myself too! I appreciate your support more than you know! We DTD tonight! lol! So strange to announce that to people but it seems so "normal" on here ... I laugh when I type it lol. You DEF have a shot! "You aren't out till the AF sings" lol .. I always just assume that I never know " it could happen". My favorite line is "crazier things have happened so why not me".

And just so you know I DEFINITELY went through EXACTLY what you are going through. The last year was VERY tough for us ESPECIALLY since literally EVERY friend we have (and some close family) got pregnant and the announcements keep rolling in. We started out being laid back for a few months and then got obsessive and so frustrated and upset and obsessed that we weren't enjoying things and its all we thought about. We then decided to get more laid back and just try if we felt like it. So basically we took a few months off during the fall and then I don;t know what happened ... it was like after all that let down and being upset and mad and obsessed, we just decided to make a fertility appt (per my OB recommendation) and ever since we made the appt we have been WAY more laid back. My appt is next week and I plan on NOT needing it at all because I want to do everything naturally but I guess maybe its like "we have a fall back plan now". We actually said tonight too after BD that we are having more fun and enjoying things more now than every and honestly I don't know why but I'm so glad after everything we have been through.
So HANG IN THERE! I agree take some time off and just BD when you want but don't track or go crazy. I hope I keep this sanity but if not, I'll be back there with you. I have to say though I've still been very emotional lol. I don't know why but I seem to cry at the drop of a hat lately. lol
Please keep on here if you are up to it. Im here for support especially since we are going through such similar things!

 

[disney516]

Another flashing smilie today!! I hope this keeps up! Please please please! LoL I feel like a little kid but I want it SO bad!!

 

[sunshine2014]

Yay for positive opk's!!!!

It's great you're being more laid back. I agree. BUt You should still go to the specialist appointment; just because they take so long to book lol. And it doesn't hurt! Keep us posted

And I think there's a like at the bottom of my signature now for my journal!

 

[maltesemom]

Yay for positive opk's!!!!

It's great you're being more laid back. I agree. BUt You should still go to the specialist appointment; just because they take so long to book lol. And it doesn't hurt! Keep us posted

And I think there's a like at the bottom of my signature now for my journal!

Disney, yay yay yay for flashing OPK!!!

Also, why not talk to a fertility specialist just to see. It's worth trying. The more information the better. Plus you might not even need treatment. Sometimes taking action that lowers stress levels is all you need

I can't imagine what it would be like if it weren't for these forums. I agree with you that this journey is one where you need to be with other women who are in your same position and who feel the same way.

On the being emotional front, I am the same way- I came across a post that actually made me break out crying just like that. The poster said something along the lines of: "as women. it is our right to have a baby" something like that. It just made me so so sad that we have to struggle for something that we are made for. I KNOW what it's like for it to take a toll. I haven't even been at this for that long and it feels like an eternity. But on days like today, I have some sense of perspective & faith. It's going to happen for all of us, I just know it and believe it! We just have to take care of our bodies and our minds.

On that front, check out this article: https://www.iaac.ca/en/213-760-the-stress-infertility-connection

None of us have gotten an answer yet and in all honesty, I've known couples that were told there's no way they can conceive and they went on to conceive! You just never know. We just have to keep hope alive and know that no matter what, we are doing are best.

FX for us all ladies!! Also Sunshine and Disney can I add you guys as friends? What does that feature do ?

Sunshine, how are you feeling today??

 

[sunshine2014]

Hi ladies. Just got back from my d&c. It went well, smooth and fast. I'm officially on cd1. Dr advised me or wait to do tests. The one test he wants to do, for progesterone can't be done for 2 cycles. Ugh. So I compromised with DH, I'll do the genetic testing and the blood clot testing after first cycle. But then we will NTNP. if it doesn't work then I will be ready for the progesterone testing on cd21. So we'll see. I'm definitely not sitting around waiting for 3 months lol. Nope. This girl has gotta live.

 

[maltesemom]

Sunshine I love your determination! I am
Glad the procedure went well. Keep your head up!! I am
Literally at the dr office right now will let you guys know how the conversation goes!!!

 

[sunshine2014]

Sounds good! Can't wait to hear it

 

[maltesemom]

The good news is that everything looks good! just have to be patient.

The bad news is that my weight is little on the low side & I have to cut back on working out. I've already reduced caffeine, and I am bummed about having to put on weight/reduce workouts, but I am willing to do it for a BFP! Ok. I am officially back in for Feb cycle, but I am not opk'ing nor temping. I am going to try and be laidback about. So prob more NTNP with you Sunshine!

Sunshine & Disney, what lifestyle changes did you guys make during the TTC journey? Just curious about the weight/working out thing. Seems a little extreme but maybe what I think is laidback workout is actually too intense ? Grr. I love love love to workout.

 

[sunshine2014]

I hear ya. Im a workout queen. BUT I will say I will not do sit ups every day next time. I will just do yoga, and cardio but not as intense. I guess I'm talking about when I'm pregnant. While TTC I plan to do the same as always. I eat healthy and am strict so I won't change anything there. So I guess my changes won't start until I'm lucky to get pregnant again. I will definitely cut back on working out then. I believe I miscarried during a shred class. I has sharp cramps that only lasted 5 minutes. Obviously I'm not sure as I had no other signs, but it sounds like baby measured around then. Anyways I'm trying not to blame myself too much as I did ask my dr about working out and she said I can do everything I did before pregnancy except sit ups.

 

[maltesemom]

I hear ya. Im a workout queen. BUT I will say I will not do sit ups every day next time. I will just do yoga, and cardio but not as intense. I guess I'm talking about when I'm pregnant. While TTC I plan to do the same as always. I eat healthy and am strict so I won't change anything there. So I guess my changes won't start until I'm lucky to get pregnant again. I will definitely cut back on working out then. I believe I miscarried during a shred class. I has sharp cramps that only lasted 5 minutes. Obviously I'm not sure as I had no other signs, but it sounds like baby measured around then. Anyways I'm trying not to blame myself too much as I did ask my dr about working out and she said I can do everything I did before pregnancy except sit ups.

Sunshine, you can't blame yourself! A very high number of pregnancies end in mc. Sometimes it's just not the right combination. Have you checked your progesterone levels? I heard from some ladies that that could be an issue. I am still worried about that for me....but my ob wont check anything until I try for another 6 mo!!

I am so happy you identify- my workouts are literally my life but I am going to try and gain a little weight. I am going to switch out my cardio for yoga or barre. No more than 3 lbs. That's all I can handle right now. Why does your dr think you shouldn't do sit ups? I am so curious.

I eat terribly lol. I wish I had your discipline!! I am still struggling to give up diet coke. and sweets. Somehow I am under weight but I eat SO much....

 

[sunshine2014]

Well I was just advises not to do sit ups or crunches. I'm not sure if it really matters early on, probably just a precaution. But I usually do 200 a day like 5 days a week. So maybe that was too many? I'm not sure.

Progesterone is a sore spot for me right now. My dr wants to start some tests which can be done after my first af post d&c. But the progesterone one has to be done on day 21 and sets me back 2 cycles. Meaning I can't TTC for 3 months. I am so not having that. DH wants to wait to make sure we can rule that out, but I'm busy doing research to show that it can still be fixed at 4 weeks pregnant.

As for cokes lol. I don't like pop but you're a fitness girl. You can kick that habit!

 

[disney516]

Hi Sunshine and maltese ... thanks for your support with the fertility dr. I am def planning on going ... doesn't hurt to see what she says. Especially if things don't happy this month because we are REALLY going at it lol... sorry tmi. This is DEF our most successful TTC over the past year .. and we are actually having fun BD'ing lol.
So therefore if it doesn't happen at least I have this appt on Tuesday to see if she finds anything. I am hoping by the end of the week to be in the TWW but it depends on tomorrow morning what my OPK says. I'm SO nervous because tomorrow should be O day!! FX!!!!!

Sunshine - I am SO glad to hear that things are behind you now in regards to the mc. I know thats what you wanted. I agree .... keep TTC. It can't hurt right? Tell your buddy its free BD so just take it and like it! lol!!! Do you use OPK's or anything when ttc? Sunshine I'm going to go read your journal ...

Sounds like you are both workout queens! I actually my whole life have always been very active as well. I played two sports from a child through high school. Then I played volleyball throughout college. After college I went to the gym most days of the week and my job is physical so the days I didn't go I was running around at work. For the past 2 years I have really gotten into running and done a few 5k's. Unfortunately I hate to say it but I have "fallen off the bandwagon" physically and with my weight and diet. I fell of around the end of september which is very hard for me to admit since I've NEVER been like this. People know me as the workout healthy eater. ugh.... I also gained 10-15 lbs but thankfully my BMI is still very good. I hate to say this though and maybe it was just coincidence but when I was working out hardcore, my cycles were not normal in length and obviously I did not get any BFP. Ever since September my cycles are almost normalized and this is the first month back to OPK;s and so far its right on ... pending tomorrow ...
I don't know if that helps. Honestly its bad habits. As of Jan 1st though I have been eating better although still not back to my "old self" ... haven't weighed myself because our bathroom is being redone so the spot my scale goes in is no longer level at the time ....
I hate even admitting all of this BUT I am happy if I get a BFP ... FX! ugh PLEASEEE!!!

 

[disney516]

I put up the testing dates everyone had given so far ... let me know if you need me to change them/add them etc....

~~~~~~Baby Dust and FX for BFP's!!! and Sanity!!! LoL~~~~~~~~