Feeling a bit down tonight and needing to vent

[Lilybelle]

Hiya girls just needing to vent as my hubby is asleep and I have no one to talk to. I'm back on the forum as I suspect I may be pregnant again however there is also a lingering feeling that it wont be the same as the baby I lost so I wont feel as strong of a connection with this one. To be honest I just want my baby boy back inside me I dont want to replace him, he was perfect and had nothing wrong with him. I'm also paranoid that the next baby may die for no reason aswell I decided not to announce till I'm 4 months gone instead of the usual 3 months just so I dont get too excited then have all that heartache again.

My period is due next week so I may or may not be pregnant we're not sure yet but I'm getting every symptom I've had from the last two so I'm pretty sure that this might be it. *fingers crossed*

 

[Peril]

Congratulations hun. Its natural to be worried. Its also natural to want your baby back. I feel exactly the same. But with each loss my heart has expanded for them, and they all have the same love and value to me.

I just take one day at a time and one appointment at a time. Makes it manageable and not so overwhelming. I too waited until 16 weeks to announce.

 

[Lilybelle]

Thank you hun

Meh i dont know. It wont feel official until I go past the 16 week mark as Jacob died at 16 weeks. Once I'm past that milestone I'll finally start to enjoy the pregnancy

 

[Jox]

x

 

[babesx3]

i feel exactly the same, so confused about my feelings...

My baby died at 17-18 weeks, and feel i'll relax a bit more when i get past this point.. i have however told a few people..
This is as i told everyone early with my other children, then with Charlie i waited till after my scan to announce..and then i lost him...so i partly feel like it was bad for me not to tell people,, i don't know... its all hard...
hope u have good news soon!!! HUGS were here for u XX

 

[Esperanzada]

Thank you hun

Meh i dont know. It wont feel official until I go past the 16 week mark as Jacob died at 16 weeks. Once I'm past that milestone I'll finally start to enjoy the pregnancy

My baby died at 16 weeks too....next time around, my hub and I are not going to tell anyone, not even the kids until well into the 2nd trimester...we havent concieved yet, still scared, but want to....still trying to get over this past July, my water breaking and my baby boy still living without any amniotic fluid...he passed 3 days after and I delivered him...my baby was perfectly healthy and so was I...all tests perfect....still agonizing over WHY...also feel guilty, because my husband & I had sex right before the burst, but the dr. said that could not have caused the sac to burst...looking for closure that I may never get....

 

[babesx3]

Thank you hun

Meh i dont know. It wont feel official until I go past the 16 week mark as Jacob died at 16 weeks. Once I'm past that milestone I'll finally start to enjoy the pregnancy

My baby died at 16 weeks too....next time around, my hub and I are not going to tell anyone, not even the kids until well into the 2nd trimester...we havent concieved yet, still scared, but want to....still trying to get over this past July, my water breaking and my baby boy still living without any amniotic fluid...he passed 3 days after and I delivered him...my baby was perfectly healthy and so was I...all tests perfect....still agonizing over WHY...also feel guilty, because my husband & I had sex right before the burst, but the dr. said that could not have caused the sac to burst...looking for closure that I may never get....

My waters didn't burst so it is different. But my baby jujst died for no reason, which i also find hard to deal with .
i hope u find some answers but u may need to accept that there is no reason, as hard as that is...