Buffy71
Mummy to Harriet!
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Well, finally, the hormones are working their magic. I've had days where I've cried at crappy movies, but I'm feeling quite down today.
I woke up at 4am, couldnt get back to sleep. Cat has been poorly, and he still seems unwell so I was worrying about him, I was replaying anything I've ever done not quite right in my life to date (I'm 38 - there's plenty I'd have done differently over all those years!), any times I've treated someone badly, or not quite as I should have, any time I've acted irresponsibly.
Once I'd waded through all that baggage, I then started on current issues. Hubby's company is struggling, he may well be out of work by the end of September, or at the very least keeping it running but not drawing a salary - baby is due early December... perfect! If that happens, I wont be able to take any time off with baby and will have to come straight back to work after the compulsory six weeks at 90% salary.
I cant seem to get motivated at work at the moment and I'm drowning in that too - I'm the only person who performs my role at work so there's no one to unload to. The FD hasnt signed off on how much he'll pay for my replacement while I'm off on mat leave (for however long) so I cant place the ad yet.
We're supposed to be going away for a cheapy few days hols to a friend's villa in a couple of weeks but I dont see how we can justify spending money and enjoying ourselves on holiday when we have all this going on. I know my hubby needs a break but if we spend £800 on hire car/food/golf etc on holiday, that could have been one more week off I could take to be with baby.
If anyone has read to the bottom of this I'm so sorry for my long boring, miserable rant, but I just needed to get it off my chest!!
Sorry sorry sorry!!
I'll be fine after a cup of coffee and hopefully a good nights sleep tonight. Thank goodness (and on the brightside!!!) its a long weekend!
xxxx
I woke up at 4am, couldnt get back to sleep. Cat has been poorly, and he still seems unwell so I was worrying about him, I was replaying anything I've ever done not quite right in my life to date (I'm 38 - there's plenty I'd have done differently over all those years!), any times I've treated someone badly, or not quite as I should have, any time I've acted irresponsibly.
Once I'd waded through all that baggage, I then started on current issues. Hubby's company is struggling, he may well be out of work by the end of September, or at the very least keeping it running but not drawing a salary - baby is due early December... perfect! If that happens, I wont be able to take any time off with baby and will have to come straight back to work after the compulsory six weeks at 90% salary.
I cant seem to get motivated at work at the moment and I'm drowning in that too - I'm the only person who performs my role at work so there's no one to unload to. The FD hasnt signed off on how much he'll pay for my replacement while I'm off on mat leave (for however long) so I cant place the ad yet.
We're supposed to be going away for a cheapy few days hols to a friend's villa in a couple of weeks but I dont see how we can justify spending money and enjoying ourselves on holiday when we have all this going on. I know my hubby needs a break but if we spend £800 on hire car/food/golf etc on holiday, that could have been one more week off I could take to be with baby.
If anyone has read to the bottom of this I'm so sorry for my long boring, miserable rant, but I just needed to get it off my chest!!
Sorry sorry sorry!!
I'll be fine after a cup of coffee and hopefully a good nights sleep tonight. Thank goodness (and on the brightside!!!) its a long weekend!
xxxx