WishnandHopn
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I am in the midst of an early miscarriage. I'm feeling so lost right now. I should have been 6 weeks today, instead I'm on the fifth day of bleeding. I had my hcg blood levels checked today and an ultrasound tomorrow. They marked "obstetric <16 weeks" on the requisition form. The image I had of my first ultrasound was of me and DH happy and excited to see our tiny baby and its fluttering heartbeat. Instead I am going to be seeing my sad empty uterus. I just know the hcg levels are going to come back zero and nothing on the scan. There may be no solid medical evidence that I was pregnant. Only that I'm not anymore.
I feel like screaming. I want to break things. I'm so exhausted but I don't think I will be able to sleep. I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I don't want to stay at home and watch crappy tv. I feel hungry and empty but none of the food in our house is appealing to me. I can't even cry anymore.
I feel like screaming. I want to break things. I'm so exhausted but I don't think I will be able to sleep. I don't want to go to work tomorrow. I don't want to stay at home and watch crappy tv. I feel hungry and empty but none of the food in our house is appealing to me. I can't even cry anymore.