first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[mininun1]

So excited for you to test! I really feel like this is it for you. Are you having any additional symptoms? And have you told your DH how you are feeling?

The family is doing great! My mom went back home to Missouri yesterday but my two little brothers and little sister are staying with us for another week, since they are still on summer vacation from school. Obviously DH and I aren't able to BD like last month but that's okay - I'm hoping that works to my advantage this month since I'm not focusing on it.

 

[gina236]

I was thinking of the fact that maybe you had such a late AF last month to make it so you weren't super fertile while your family was there. Haha.
I really hope this is it for me! I've told hubby. He agrees with my logic from all the research I've done but still thinks I'm a little crazy. Haha. If it did happen like I think it was a day that wasn't even planned. DH just couldn't keep his hands to himself that night. I was planning to the next day because he would hAve only worked one job that day but I guess he had a little energy left. Haha

 

[mininun1]

Ha! That would make sense I guess, AF starting late. Maybe my body kinda knows what to do after all. I'm sure your hubby is excited, but if he's anything like mine he probably doesn't want to let himself (or let you see him) get *too* excited at this point. Then once you get that BFP, he will be acting like a big kid!

 

[gina236]

Oh he will be so happy! Every time I tell him I started I can see a few seconds of dissapointment in his eyes before the guard goes up. I feel bad but at the same time it's so cute. I was afraid when he first said we could try that he was just saying it to make me happy because ive been bugging him forever but it's obvious he really wants this too.

 

[mininun1]

Yes, same with my hubby! He's so ready for a baby it would be funny if it wasn't so frustrating that it's not happening as fast as we had hoped. So hoping that it happens within the next couple months!

 

[gina236]

I know right. I had sex one time when I was ovulating when I was 19 and got pregnant. But now can't seem to do it. It's so frustrating.

My coworker just brought his 1 month old in. As if my baby fever wasn't bad enough! She was soo cute! And then I get the "when is your turn?" Ugh.

 

[mininun1]

Yeah that's the worst...people and their comments! I am seeing babies everywhere nowdays it seems. I have to believe that our turn is coming though!

 

[gina236]

I went to the grocery store Wednesday and saw 4 pregnant women! I never see any there. It's gotta be coming! Every time I get that question I blame it on my DH haha. I always say "whenever my husband says we can" or "we want to wait until we are in our next house" those used to be true so that's what I go with. It's just so frustrating. I just want to tell them we are trying but the constant are you pregnant questions would be so much worse.

 

[mininun1]

Yeah whenever I get asked, I always tell them that we wanted to wait a while to just enjoy being married. Which was totally true, but I leave out the part about how we've been actively trying for a few months now...lol. It's just such a rude question anyway. I did sort of tell my mom that we are trying, but she's not pushy at all, and usually waits for me to volunteer the information first. I really want it to be a surprise for everyone else, so it's a good thing that I have this forum to vent to! lol.

 

[gina236]

My in laws saw my prenatals over the weekend and questioned it. I wasn't there but my husband said he told them that I heard they were really good for you regardless of having a baby. Not sure if they bought it but hopefully. I really want everyone to be so surprised. I feel like everyone suspects it but is just waiting.

 

[mininun1]

Any updates or new symptoms, Gina?

 

[gina236]

Hey! been out wheeling all day. Only thing I'm noticing is a very heavy like feeling down there. I get that sometimes like an hour before AF starts but since I know that can't be it, idk. It's lasted two days now. I was supposed to O today according to apps and really no normal signs of that so I'm pretty positive I did O when I thought I did earlier in the week

 

[mininun1]

Woot! Sounds like you caught the egg for sure. I know the heavy feeling you are talking about, I always get it right before AF too. So weird that you have that right now! It can only be a good sign.

 

[gina236]

Hope everyone had a good weekend! How are you all doing?

 

[mininun1]

Hey! We had a great weekend...went to the beach and the natural history museum. It was over way too quickly though! How was everyone else's? Where is everyone else at with their cycle?

 

[gina236]

I believe I am 5dpo! I had some ewcm yesterday but I think it might have had more to do with arousal. Haha. It changed to creamy for the rest of the day and my cervix was really firm. I was worried at first that I hadn't O'd when I thought but with my cervix being that hard I don't think that's the case.

I had a great weekend too! I own a Jeep and if I had the money, it would be my life (more than it already is ). Drove 3 hrs to upstate NH for a wheeling event with a bunch of my jeep friends. Got to stretch my suspension and get covered in mud. Always a good time! Haha. Then 3 hr drive back home that day so Sunday was a lazy recovery day. My town was having a parade that I love going to and totally forgot about so bummed about that haha.

I love the beach! It's so not the same up here after being to the Caribbean though! DH and I have only been once this year because we turned into beach snobs after our honeymoon in may haha. What are they like down there? We get lots of rocks and seaweed and veryyy cold water!

Sorry for the long post. Boring day at work lol.

 

[mininun1]

Boring day here too lol. I start my new writing job next Monday so I'm basically just coasting out the week here, which sounds bad but whatever lol. The closest beach to us is Galveston, which is about a twenty minute drive. They aren't great, murky water, etc., but I don't really swim in them much anyway, just read and get some much-needed sun. I get what you mean about beach snobbery , we try to vacation to Florida once every year or so to get our clear water and snowy sand fix! I'm sure the Caribbean is absolute perfection though!

My hubby and his family LOVE their Jeeps lol. My FIL has a zebra-striped one. It cracks me up, but they are fun to ride in! I wish I would just hit my fertile window and get past it already, I literally have no patience this month. I just want to be pregnant already lol! I did talk to one of my friends back in Missouri this weekend, and found out that she has been off the pill and not trying/not preventing for over a year :/. Then another good friend has been off the pill for about seven months and actively trying. Nothing yet for either of them. I guess it's more common than what I had thought to have to wait a while for pregnancy. It seems like all you hear about is people who got pregnant on accident or after one time. I'm not sure if hearing their stories made me feel better or worse about my chances getting pregnant this year.

 

[gina236]

I think it tends to happen more often on accident because you aren't stressing about it. TTC seems like it can actually make it harder to conceive. I'm thinking that if it doesn't happen this month, since I will be taking next month off, I will take opks and try to actually pinpoint my O day so for the next month I will be more positive about it without the stress of using opks or temping or anything. I find when I pay too much attention like that it ups my stress level which could be why my cycle has been wacky since I started ttc. I've always been so regular. I just want to go back to that!

Ah more jeep people! Love it!
Beaches around here are about an hour away from me, have to go through RI. And they cost 28 bucks to park. So not worth it anymore. I'd rather sit out on my deck on a towel haha.

 

[mininun1]

You and me both. The more I thought about it, I decided that the reason my cycle was probably late last time was because of the stress I was putting into the opks, tracking, etc. I won't be doing any of that this cycle. I'll just make sure we BD every other day through when my fertile window is supposed to be, and hope that works. Maybe next month I'll go back to opks and that strict tracking. I'm still hoping that August is the month for all of us.

 

[gina236]

Me too! My DH and I only managed to BD once in my fertile window but I believe it was the night before O so hopefully it worked! Every night I would think okay we have to BD just in case and would end up just falling asleep lol. I've been so exhausted and I know DH has been too since he hasn't tried waking me up lol. Next month I won't be trying as I don't want to be 4 weeks along when I do a tough mudder. At 8 weeks (which is what I'd be if I am pregnant now) i can at least tell my teammates and skip some obstacles that are too dangerous. 4 weeks I don't really want to tell anyone and I feel like I'd be at more of a risk of messing something up. Really hoping we both get our BFPs this month! Especially after you had to deal with that crazy cycle last month!