for our rainbow groups catch up Xx

[xoxo4angel]

Laura I too hope you get good news...Lord knows waiting to hear this type of news is the hardest I should tell my DH I need a trip to Ireland to feel better

Jess ~ Sounds like it could be really hard on your health to have any more babies! I hope Natalie is doing well in school still...the girls seem like they are thriving.

Amy ~ I need to check your journal, just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you!

Leslie ~ How are you fairing with the twins? Any new bump pics?

Bethany ~ I do hope your DH gets a new job soon. Did you say you might have to move?

A1983 ~ Happy 8 weeks! How is Nia? I believe her & Pierce are only days apart!

Afm ~ It's tough being on separate pages with your spouse, even more difficult when it's about ttc. I know it's only been a few days since receiving our official news...I imagine in a month or two we'll both have a better idea of what we want. Off to put P to bed xoxo

 

[mommylov]

Laura, any news honey??

Angel, you are right in that it is very hard but I'm sure you guys will meet in the middle again be on the same page. I agree in that I think its just hard for men to really relate and know what it is to go through things like this. Im so hoping and wishing for the best for you guys!

Jess & Bethany,

Happy Wednesday to everyone and anyone I've missed

 

[lilesMom]

Just got onto my Doc
Hcg only at 99
So being referred for ultrasound to confirm.


Love to all xxx

 

[xoxo4angel]

This bub obvs only needed to touch here.
It's already perfect so it doesn't need anymore.

^^^I like this.^^^

 

[aaronswoman79]

Wait Laura, doesn't that mean your hcg doubled? The test was only 2 days apart, correct? Am I missing something? Hoping for all the best hon.

 

[Buttrflyl553]

I second Jess's question as well. An increase should be good. Maybe you calculated ovulation wrong? Hoping for the best!

How are you Angel?

Hope everyone else is doing well! Thinking of you all sorry for short response

 

[lilesMom]

My tests were 5 days apart

 

[xoxo4angel]

When will they do your scan Laura? How are you feeling? This is the pits

Good luck today Amy! Thinking of you xoxo

 

[lilesMom]

Waiting to hear from them for scan time
Waiting sucks
But Simon helps lots

 

[mommylov]

Im staying so hopeful for you Laura... wish they would call already!!!!

Angel, how are you holding up?

Leslie, Jess, & Bethany... hi lovelies!

 

[xoxo4angel]

It does help having a toddler to distract you, but for me, my heart still aches...I should be 28 weeks or 9 1/2 weeks...I should be trying to make Pierce a bit more independent instead of holding him so tightly...I should be sorting through his clothes day dreaming about how much his little bro/sis will look like him instead of giving them away....

I am so happy for others who are expecting, the miracle of life is just so amazing. In just this past week I've gone from this extreme need to fill the void that a loss brings, to now being afraid to try again. Maybe this is the feeling my DH has, maybe he doesn't want to see me hurt so the solution is to NOT try again. Why are men so protective.

Sorry for making this about me...as if we all aren't going through something! Love you ladies!

Laura ~ I hope they get you in soon!

 

[A1983]

Oh Angel, that made me cry, I can totally understand how you feel from purely the love we have for our babies..but Pierce doesn't need any less of those tight hugs - he's still a baby, your baby and will need you to hug him just like that for a very very long time. That will help him be independent too as you're nurturing his attachment and security with his Mummy. I still believe you'll have your baby soon-did you do anything differently with Pierce? Ie meds? You're bound to be afraid to try again, trying...and losing...it just stops our lives from continuing as they would normally, thus it feels anxiety provoking, frightening and at times lonely. But like labour us women have an amazing ability to pick ourselves back up and try again with life, but sometimes it takes time and you need to be so proud of yourself and look after yourself. You're an amazing Mummy and Pierce will grow up to be a beautiful, confident and loving boy because of YOU!

 

[lilesMom]

Angel hugs honey.
I was working on getting Simon into his cot attached to our bed.
Now he is back glued yo me

 

[lilesMom]

Stupid phone
More my need for cuddles.
Its getting to me now,
The waiting us a beaaatch
No news from hosp on scan
And ill prob need second scan like u to be sure
Head wreck

Huge hugs to u honey xxx
I'm of the afraid so ttc can f off frame if mind
Thinking if goin back on the pill
Not sure I hve the physical or emotional strength to go again.
I'm seriously thinking of looking into adoption
But I don't think oh would.

How r u physically hon?
Hope ur ok xxx

 

[mommylov]

Oh Angel, dont be sorry at all hun. We are here for the good and the bad. Your post brought tears to my eyes as well. I second everything A1983 said. Keep that chin up and dont lose hope. Get as many cuddles as you want in with P. I so wish I had magical words to say to take yours and Laura's pain away and Im at a loss for words. I still have faith that good things are in the works for you ladies and for everyone here.

Laura, when is your next test hun? I cant tell you how sorry I am that you are going through this tough time right now too. I tried to talk to my DH about adoption as well and I use to think he would entertain the idea and I think he still might but he keeps saying that he doesnt want to talk about it right now and that it isnt on his "radar". The house and cars we have were all bought with the intention of having children so I dont know what will happen if we have no kids. I wish our men would just understand where we are coming from better.

 

[lilesMom]

My Doc referred me to hospital for scan 2 days ago
Havenr heard from anyone since.
I'm getting paranoid now il be forgotten between them

 

[xoxo4angel]

...and losing...it just stops our lives from continuing as they would normally, thus it feels anxiety provoking, frightening and at times lonely.

Exactly.

Thank you ladies. Your post have made ME cry (tears of hope). Meanwhile, I'll just keep Pierce close and wait for all things to heal.

Laura - Don't let them forget you! Call them, harass them, does that work there? Is it a long drive to the hospital? I pray things progress quickly, the wait is just dreadful! Why is there no sense of urgency with these Doctors! *sigh*

 

[mommylov]

Laura I agree with Angel in that I think you should maybe call so that they dont forget about you!!!

 

[xoxo4angel]

Pierce gave me his cold and DH is on a trip! It's challenging, I feel crummy but don't have the time to sulk because Pierce is still running around! And it's as if he is really putting me to the test, he shook his juice out all over the dining room rug and down the hall, he chased the chihuahua with a push toy, he got into the toilet 3 times, he pulled the toilet paper out and ran with it and refused his lunch --- all before 12:30 yesterday #mommyneedsadayoff

 

[lilesMom]

Ivthink they sense pur mood Angel
S has been extra shouty
Or else I'm less patient
Not sure which
Hope u feel better soon hon. Xx

Thanks girls
The place I'm referred to is closed on weekend
I was giving them time to get to me
But um gonna ring tomorrow
The Doc who referred me is newish
She asked me where I was referred to last time
So not sure if it has been done right

Amy oh prob just wants to focus on ur ivf
Before thinking of adopting
Bestow luck Xx
I think ur totally right to wait till thyroid is in range xxx

Lovecto all Xx