for our rainbow groups catch up Xx

[lilesMom]

Bethany we want u here if ur sad or happy xx
We miss u xxx
R u ok hon
Giant hugs xxx

 

[lilesMom]

My post disappeared
We want u here sad or happy hon.
We miss u xxx
Hope ur ok
Giant hugs

 

[lilesMom]

Double sorry.
It seemed to reappear ��

Love to all xx

 

[mommylov]

Hi All hope everyone had a great weekend!!!

Bethany, I completely agree with Laura! We want you here no matter what! Im sorry that you have a dark cloud that keeps hovering over you. I hope things get better soon hun but in the meantime, you know where to find us if you need anything!!!! Lots of love to you dear!!!

 

[Storked]

I think part of it is that it is just so hard to respond when you feel down. If that makes sense. Like how you don't want to get out of bed.

Life isn't horrible. My husband is still looking for work but I have something. I just miss when everything was easier and I wasn't stressed/resentful all the time. As I tell my family when I am slow to respond to texts or emails: life is bleak and shit.

I really hope that 2016 is going to be my year.

Anyways, love you guys.

 

[lilesMom]

I cant wait to tell 2015 f off too Bethany xxx
Hoping 2016 is a million times better for u cxx
Its hard to muster up stuff to say when u feel crappy xx
But ur always welcome and wanted here hon xx

 

[mommylov]

Looking for work and all is very stressful so I dont blame you at all. I truly hope that 2016 brings wonderful things to you and your family (and everyone else here as well).

 

[aaronswoman79]

So sorry for all that you are going through Bethany. I hope and pray your husband gets a good stable job as soon as possible.

My husband has lost another job..... again. And the worst part of it is he lied about it for 2 weeks straight and pretended he was still working and went through this completely elaborate lie. I understand his not wanting to disapointed me yet again, but his audacity to lie so easily and for so long is just cowardly and pathetic. My health is not good and I don't have the health or means to leave this man at this point. I feel so stuck, living with this undiagnosed autoimmune disease and chronic fatigue and this man takes advantage of my physical ailments and knows I don't have the health or means to raise the girls on my own. Nice Thanksgiving present for his family.... no job. This is why I don't talk much about my life anymore, too many problems and I don't have many positive things to bring into this thread. So when u ask how me and the girls are doing I avoid answering it because there are so many things going on and I don't want to bring anybody down. I debate just leaving bnb because I feel I don't have anything positive to add anymore. Main reason I do stay on is to keep up with your lives and follow Amy's journal. Like everyone else I am anxiously waiting for the arrival of her baby boy in February.

 

[Storked]

Jess, I understand. All of that. Even feeling stuck because with my ex I felt caged and like I couldn't breathe. Thinking of escape is SO HARD. Big hugs. Please don't ever leave- we really need you. Even when you feel like you have nothing to offer but darkness- we NEED you. We all met through moments of darkness and we helped each other get through it.

I am so sorry about your spouse. My dad did the exact same thing to my mom when she was pregnant with me. He'd leave every day like he was going to work but really he would just go fishing. I feel so anxious just thinking about what that must have been like for her. When the kids are older you may start planning your escape. You and your girls deserve a lot more than that.

 

[mommylov]

I agree with Bethany Jess. We all have had terrible times and great times and I think I can speak for everyone... it was the support from you ladies that has really helped! We are here to support not only the good but the bad as well. I have known you ladies for years and not hearing from each and every one of you would not feel right. Im sorry that your husband lost his job and even more that he lied about it. I can't imagine a feeling of being trapped like that and it makes my heart ache for you. I hope that your health gets better soon first and foremost and that everything else falls into place from there. I forget but do you have family members close by?

 

[lilesMom]

I second the girls hon.
Huge hugs xxx
Hope things start to improve for u soon.
Fingers crossed 2016 chases off the clouds for all of us xxx
Huge hugs x

Love to all xx

 

[mommylov]

Hi Ladies! Just checking on you all to make sure everything is ok. Its gone quiet in here.

 

[xoxo4angel]

Happy Birthday Bethany!

Hi ladies! Finally home! Pierce has been amazing during our travels! We had to deplane in Chicago on the way home and wait 2 hours for another plane, he took it in stride! I was ready to be home, Web was great chasing him around the airport! We leave again on the 19th for NYC, then we are done done with traveling!

So my DH told me over this last trip that I should stop taking precautions and see if nature takes course :happy dance: unofficially ttc...well, that was super short lived, I had an us done because of wonky periods. I just got a message from my Dr that something is off with my uterus (asymmetrically thickened myometrium). Darn the luck! I'll get more details at my appt next month. *whomp whomp*

How are you all? Ready for Christmas? I am 98% finished shopping and 80% finished wrapping :handclap:

 

[lilesMom]

Hi Amy xxx

Angel hope it doesn't interfere with ttc
So happy for u
All dad needed was the joy of pierce to want to ttc xxx

I'm in third lot of antibiotic for infection.
Two antibiotic this time.
Never doing medical mgt again!!!
Swinging between trying as soon as I can and never .
��
Weight loss is going well.
So that's good.

S is overall good
But still annoyed by epilepsy everyday.

No more sca �� xxx

Love to all

 

[mommylov]

Gah Laura... Im sorry to hear about the 3rd round of antibiotics. If you are still having to do antibiotics, wouldn't they want to do another scan??? So glad S is doing well. Has he gotten his walker/chair yet?

Happy Birthday Bethany!!!!!

Angel, Im so thrilled to hear that your DH is back on the baby wagon!!!! Yipee!! What a great xmas gift!

 

[lilesMom]

She took a swab
And said if things aren't cleared this time
Its time for another scan
I had lining left in last scan so....
Its not feeling clear tonight but hopefully might be by next week.
Its the never ending mc
I'm ok though.
Enjoying my cuddles with squish

No walker till Jan.
Not sure on timing of chair
Could take a lot longer x

Hope ur well hon xxx
Love to all xxx

 

[xoxo4angel]

11 shopping days left until Christmas!! I bought some shatterproof ornaments and let Pierce decorate the bottom of the tree--he loved it! Def not feeling like Christmas with this 70* weather Our last trip in this whirlwind of travels is NYC this coming weekend #lovewindowshopping #inyc

How is everyone? Hugs to the littles! *How'd they do seeing Santa (if you were so inclined to take them)?

 

[lilesMom]

S loved Santa for about two mins , then started bawling. ��
So he is crying in pic cos the photographer and Santa talked to him first.
Wish I had remembered to tell them take it fast ��
We just went to our local one.
No queues and its free
Town council provide it.
S freaks out in crowds and enclosed spaces so Xmas experience type places aren't for us unfortunately.
Id love them. ��
How did ye get on?

Love to all xxx

 

[xoxo4angel]

I think the pics of the kids screaming are cute (torture on the kiddos), but it's so real! My friends oldest son ran toward the camera as the toddler sat screaming--the photographer snapped the "action" shot. Santa is scary, can't blame the kids! We took him to a breakfast with Santa-he didn't cry, but he didn't smile either! I'll post the pic. I plan to take him to the one at the mall. That's really nice your town has a Santa for the kids Pierce grew out of his social anxiety, do the Dr's suspect Simon will too?

Jess, Bethany how are the girls? Totally here for your highs and lows!! xoxo

Amy ~

 

[aaronswoman79]

Sophia is scared of ALL strangers including santa so no santa pic for her. She is actually less social now, kinda strange. We are 100% sure she has sensory processing disorder. Now if only if one of these doctors will actually listen and send us to early intervention. Instead of saying, "She'll grow out of it." I can't even put into words what we are going through. Most clothes are painful, tags, socks, shoes, no brushing her hair, showers and bathes are a nightmare, very sensitive skin, diaper changes are a nightmare, she refuses most foods and color of foods. Mostly beige and white color food and a couple of cheeses. I do see some aspergers traits but I am not convinced she has it. She has her 2.5 year appointment in a couple of weeks, so we will try and push and demand they send for a referral to early intervention or some kind of therapy.

Natalie and Aly are doing excellent in school .

Can't believe Christmas is almost here. I am already done with all my Xmas shopping. My kids are spoiled this Xmas. Hehe.